man u 3-0!! such a surprise for west brown to be the first goal scorer. it's his first goal of the season.. but act i wld say the referee is biased towards man u la.. but Mascherano was stupid enough to be sent off la, keep arguing with the referee.. my uncle say he muz have been bribed. lol.. ronaldo finally scored against liverpool! and as usual, nani the 3rd scorer had the most fanciful celebration. well done man u! we drank 2 bottles of sparkling wine tt louis bought.. banrock station sparkling white shiraz and brown brothers zibibbo. the shiraz was tinged with a strawberry taste and it was RED in colour.. so appropriate to celebrate man u's win.. hahaz..
oh.. forgot to mention something. the other day i dreamt tt i failed my physics exam (thou i dun tk physics)!! i was tking the exam den i started to panick coz most of the questions i dunnoe how to do den i took super long to solve one que.. so when time was up, i only managed to finish the MCQs!! and i din have enough time to transfer all the ans to the ans booklet! i woke up getting a shock out of my life.. i was so relieved tt it was juz a dream.. imagine tt happening in real life.. tts y i say dreams are one of the things tt i am scared of.. i always get v absurb and i would say interesting dreams... maybe subconsciously i am giving myself alot of pressure juz tt i nv felt it..
and ma ying jiu won the 2008 taiwan elections!! he really created history winning by 223000 votes! tts really alot, pretty sad for xie chang ting thou, he's a talent too.. ma ying jiu is really impressive, harvard law school! twin strive for tt! lol.. i din really support anyone but as a whole, guo ming dang is a better party la, so hope tt taiwan will change for the better under the new leadership.. all the way taiwan! =)
finally recovered from my sickness! so glad.. out of nowhere got viral attack of the inner ear, that's y caused the imbalance of the 2 ears or sthing along tt line la.. nv finish the medicine and i hope it's ok, nt sure whether i am supposed to complete the whole course. but i really cant afford to, it's making me sooo sleepy & i gt no time to study! anw meiling hope u recover soon too!! (tt's if u still gt read my blog)
went for internship ystd at tong ji and the physician helped me take my blood pressure. it was pretty hilarious coz the physician said "wah, ni3 hao3 shou4", because the velcro thing for the strap was not enough when the strap goes around my arm.. and tt day when we ate dinner with adrian's family, his mum commented tt wo shou le.. m i really getting tt shou? but i think i still look the same. lol..
i got a little motivation back today and chiong-ed my immuno from chapter 3 to 7.. pretty glad with my progress thou it's still 3 chapters to go and i m left with tml.. gonna watch soccer later, man u vs liverpool!!! it's gonna be fun coz lots of ppl r watching at my house.. mum, louis and i support man u while 2nd sis, adrian and uncle support liverpool.. my eldest sis is sitting on the fence despite great efforts by louis to convince her to support man u.. hahaz. it's pretty amusing.. go man u!!
watched yin1 ye3 san1 jia1 yi1 on the tv juz now and read a few blogs, it's kinda all related to love and relationship.. got my mood down again and right now i m pondering wat true love really is. it's really unexplainable i think, u juz gotta feel it.. like my 2nd sis's ex bfs, i always tot there's juz sthing lacking, but now with adrian i really think they are a perfect match. my eldest sis too.. i feel so happy for them whenever i see them so xing4 fu2.. like my mum said "it's always more fortunate to be loved than to love someone!" some of ur might b thinking i m weird, i was the one hu initiated the break but i m feeling all these right now.. i juz cant help it but i haven regretted till now. i juz dunhaf the courage to love again and i guess it will be a long period b4 i do again, unless some guy out there is hot enuff to melt my heart.. juz an analogy.. i have been hearing so many heartbreaking stories recently tt it got me thinking tt staying single is not such a bad thing afterall. but when all ur friends start to get attached it's a diff feeling, u want them to be loved but yet u need their company sometimes. how contradicting.. feelings can change so fast, this second u r laughing and the next u might be crying.. u juz nv know....
Friday, March 21, 2008
since i m nt in the mood to study, so here's the quiz i am supposed to do (cuz i was tagged by both xiaomei and twin!)...
7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. born in saudi arabia
2. kinda regretted not pursuing dentistry overseas
3. love to drive & enjoy the speed while thinking abt stuff
4. love to play the piano & feel the sense of satisfaction when i figured out a piece all by myself
5. hate long distance running
6. mj is always a part of my life
7. very emotional but dun like to show it infront of others
7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. cockroaches!
2. walking home alone at night
3. my family members getting sick or leaving me
4. drifting apart from my friends once we get busy with work
5. having nightmares and waking up wondering if they will come true one day
6. losing motivation in life
7. relationship
7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1. u raise me up
2. ge1 zi3
3. yang2 cong1
4. my valentine
5. think of me (piano piece)
6. yesterday
7. ni3 si4 wo3 de yan3
7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. anything lo
2. i dunnoe
3. u decide
4. haha
5. i dunnoe how to phrase it
6. serious?
7. erm...
7 STUFF THAT I TREASURE THE MOST:
1. my mum and two sisters!
2. my girlfriends
3. friendship
4. health
5. memories
6. happiness and laughter
7. life! (sounds broad but i m glad i m born in this family & living in this environment)
7 "FIRST TIME" THINGS I EVER DID:
1. played bottle soccer in primary school
2. queued for long hours to get donuts for my sisters
3. jaw surgery
4. blood donation (thou it's for myself) and nearly fainted after tt
5. attended a naval dinner with my friend shing who was the sword of honour
6. participated in a children's variety show when i was young & i got to go to mediacorp
7. on dean's list for the 1st time in uni year 1
7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1. katty
2. ying
3. shuling
4. junie
5. sik
6. wee meng
7. hua ming
"good is the evil of great"
if u think u are good enough, then u will never be great.. this quote has been etched in my mind since tt day i heard it during the SBS symposium. i found it v true, without the motivation to work harder, u will always juz remain as good. tts y i always feel tt we muz gain constant exposure to the outside world so tt we will not get too contented with ourselves.
recently i dunnoe wats got into me, but i juz lost total interest in studying. i feel so sick and distracted whenever i sit down to study. the worst thing is tt i dun feel nervous at all when i am lagging way behind schedule. like now i m supposed to b studying for immuno, but i m still at chapter 3 out of 9 when my quiz is on tue. arghzz!! i juz feel so frustrated! wats wrong with me man.. i need to get tt passion and desire to excel back!
maybe it's all the things tt have been happening ard me recently, rs.. illness.. and every other thing. i oso dunnoe whats on my mind but there's juz alot of thoughts in it, random ones maybe. it's making me lose my concentration and my focus is on the wrong things now.. i am juz so ****ing frustrated right now and i am totally angry with myself!! where has the all motivated yiroe disappeared to? maybe i am giving myself too much pressure tt i feel my mental breaking down.. i juz need it back plss...
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
happy 21st bdae huijie!! hope u r doing fine over there. tk carez & meet up when u r back! it's been pretty long since we met.. miss those old times. =)
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
it's over... quoting from twin's blog, i will not enjoy double the happiness now but at least i wun suffer from double the sadness.. i hope my decision is correct. i really dunwan to sway here and there anymore, it's eating into me.. i hate to c u so upset and deeply involved, but forgive me tt i cant bring myself to give u a "last" chance. there's juz a barrier tt i cant cross. i will live with the happy memories tt we shared and let's juz give each other time to heal our wounds ba. i definitely had the happiest times and saddest times with u among all my other rs, so tt really meant alot to me. thanz for everything and please please take carez of urself k.. friends still? i hope so..
check out my friend's online teeshirt store at myteestory.livejournal.com!! the link is available in my links list.. it's all hand-drawn designs & the prints are pretty cute and unique! if u like it do support k! =)
how ironic to be studying immunology when i am sick. lol. bad timing to get sick coz sik is back so tt means more mj! haha and better time management needs to come with tt. still on chapter one out of 10 for my immuno quiz next tue. needa start studying le. mayb fri can go play mj and then bball with anderson sec guys. see how it goes! anw i suspect is food poisoning coz ystd after dinner i felt quite bad with diarrhea and nauseous feeling. but i went to see a doc so now feeling much better le. i need my immunity back to start studying immuno!
went to play mj with kat, jialiang and sadi on fri. my first mj session for the year (not including cny)! i m quite amazed by the amount of discipline i have for myself. lol. even my mum started asking me how come i haven been playing mj lately. it was fun but abit slow pace at the start. ended up no win no lose. for the fun of it thou!
i will be going to taiwan for the june hols! with mum and my second sis. eldest sis gotta look for job so she is tentatively not joining us. so excited! i simply love taiwan... even if juz staying at my relatives' place is fun enuff for me, it's juz a special feeling. will be gone from 2nd june to 12th june. arriving back in spore at 11pm plus i think. juz in time for a small bdae celebration with my family. still thinking whether to hold a belated bdae party.. maybe not, too lazy and it defeats the purpose to hold it belated oso.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
guys are dense seriously...
i said i needed some time and space to think about the matter right... so now i feel so pressurized to make a decision quick and u know i dun like this kinda pressure. so now everybody has to know tt we are having problems in our rs. i know mayb u juz want to reassure me but it wasnt quite an effective way, it was kinda weird and maybe unnecessary...
Monday, March 10, 2008
Finally done with all the exams for now!! hahaz. i am blogging in school now when the paper is supposed to end at 1130am. lol. was quite an easy paper. at last! phew... now needa focus on immunology quiz le. i think it will be quite a killer to study it coz most of the lectures i dun understand. haha. so hafta start early le.
last sat went to NTU open house for my URECA poster exhibition cum competition. it was a nice experience and presenting to the judges was not that scary after all. they were friendly but i guess for fyp will be much stricter ba. at least i got a taste of wat it was like.. the dumb thing was tt most of the judging ended at around 11 plus and there were v few visitors who will walk around and look at our posters. so basically we were juz sitting there doing nothing waiting for 530 to come. coz of the 1GB thumbdrive! lol. but it was worth the wait la, the thumbdrive was nice with the word URECA on it.
guess today i wun start studying. will juz concuss when i reach home later. 2 nights of 2 plus sleeping is not good for the body.. later might still go play bball thou. lol. =p
Thursday, March 6, 2008
someone, something made my day today.
sik called from NZ today & we chatted for quite sometime. it was sweet of him to call & check whether i am still hanging fine after he read abt the entries in my blog. was kinda touched coz he act called me from overseas! (thou he claim tt it was not v ex, lol) tts wat i call a good pal...
i guess he understands my situation pretty well, mayb from his personal experience. like wat he said, "ur rs is like yi1 bo1 duo1 zhe2". how true..
anw he will be back 2 wkends from now. guess we will meet up then ba, catch up more and as usual mj ba.. can go kbox if i find the time! v long nv sing le. tk carez for now & really hope tt ur mum and grandpa will be fine & healthy!! =)
i will hang on fine with all the good friends around me. i feel fortunate...
Monday, March 3, 2008
when the wall of doubt slowly builds up, it takes alot of courage to climb over the wall and face what is on the opposite side of the wall. although what i see might be a lovely scene, there will still be chances that it might be a heartbreaking one. so there are only 2 solutions out, either i muster up the courage to climb over the wall or u try to remove the bricks of the wall. the first one i am still trying, but tts quite a huge psychological barrier, especially when i already mustered up enough courage to climb over the wall twice but twice i was blown back down with disheartening scenes. u said it was the last chance tt time, but hey, guess wat, u are asking for a last chance now again. so when will be the last? the second one i know u told me u already removed the bricks, but i cant even muster enough courage to juz take a step over to ur territory, because i have fears tt the wall will be back up again and then i wont have a way back. i know u promised me tt the wall will nv be up again but there is no certainty for everything in this world. it's especially hard when the wall of trust and faith is lowering while the wall of doubt is rising...
u said u will love me till eternity, and yet stuffs like this happens. it makes me wonder what if one day ur love for me starts to fade away, what worst things could happen. junie said something today tt struck me as a pretty true fact. there's nothing such as eternity love in this realistic world, what if one day i do something tt upsets u alot alot, are you so sure tt ur love for me will nv change. sometimes loving too crazily can be scary too, it gives a false sense of security. tts wat i feel from u sometimes, putting so much into a rs can seem quite scary. we are still young, though not very, i really cant believe tt u will nv ask a gal for her hand if u r single again. u cant be so sure abt everything right, things do change.. i am really not tt perfect.
i oso considered the happy and lovely moments we shared together, so i am not juz trapping myself in the unhappy moments. they were so sweet and they once and again pulled me to the positive side of our rs. but everytime i see u, i get reminded of the issues and the tots go running again. juz cant help it.
for now, i stil dunnoe which way our rs will go and i dunnoe wat measures can be taken. so maybe we should juz cool it off for awhile while i take some time to sort things out. very busy during this period with exams and stuffs, dun really have the extra energy to deal with all these. i am sorry if i am dragging this issue for v long but i really believe tt love needs the support of trust. without trust, love is juz on the surface and dun really have any meaning.
u are not confused now, but i am....
heard two interesting IQ questions today.. if u can solve it, maybe u are on ur way to becoming a detective! lol.
scenario 1:
a detective went into a crime scene and saw a dead man lying on the floor. he was holding a tape recorder in his right hand and a gun in his left. the detective took the recorder and pressed "play". he heard the man say "I wanna leave this world, i dunwan to live anymore" then there was a loud bang.. immediately after listening to tt, the detective knew tt the man did not commit suicide. why?
scenario 2:
a detective went into a crime scene and saw a dead man lying on the floor. there was a rope marking on his neck. and there was a rope hanging from the ceiling and there was a puddle of water. the door was locked from inside and the guy's height would nv allow him to reach the rope. so how did he die?
burning to know the answers??? feel free to ask me! hahazz..
it's finally over!!!!
mixed feeling now, glad tt the TCM exam is over but i tot it was quite a difficult paper, din do as well as i expected. but heck, it's over!! now needa focus on the anatomy exam next mon, i really wanna ace tt.
juz a side note, really glad tt my second sis and her bf settled their religion issue! coz i think they make a really great couple.. yeah! =)
ok, here's a quick update once again..
290207
leap day!! i feel blessed to be able to spend it with my girlfriends. took some time off the never-ending studying to catch up with my love ones at j8. as usual, they are like 1hour late!! lucky xian was there early and we hang around at G2000 to look for her formal clothing. when they all finally arrived, we ended up eating lunch at swensens coz all other places are fully packed!! din know jc and sec sch kids end school so early nowadays. it was only around 1 plus. how fortunate are them. we had loads of fun and laughter! talked about all kinds of stuff from rs to daily stuffs and xian was my spokesperson for the day. lol. friends are still the best! friendship are long-lasting and truthful at least... went to catch leap years with ying and shir after tt. it was a touching love story but kids nowadays are seriously v v noisy! the 2 gals sitting beside me juz cant stop using their hp and they were talking throughout the show! was kinda irritated...
270207
sbs bball challenge 08!! it was a day of fun and definitely a great chance to sweat it out after all the studying.. our group "threesome" made up of 3 gals (shuling, yin yue and me) managed to clinch the 4th place in the 3on3 bball challenge. it was such a close fight between us and the 3rd team with only a score difference of 1 after we played 4min of extra time. and they were 3 guys! our mo qi really pretty good and it was great fun and excitement playing with them! oh, a side note.. played with a group of hong kong guys and one of them was cute. hahaz. they were super friendly too. great knowing them and playing bball with them! hope to see them around in school.. =)
240207
singapore airshow 08!! went to the event with c cube, sis and louis (sis bf). it was a scorching hot day but the airplanes on display was spectacular! managed to catch A380 but we were not allowed to board it. then it was the long awaited air display! first up was the singapore black knights! their team acrobatics display was whoa! worth the money.. den there were other displays and A380 was among them also. halfway through the display, i felt kinda giddy and had a serious stomachache. muz be the heat but i was alright after awhile.. went home after tt. the day seemed kinda weird maybe coz of my rs with him now ba...