juz went to watch high school musical 3 and it was amazing, especially the ending part. inspiring at times and touching too. simply love musicals. got my blogging mood going so i should pen it down before i start to get lazy again. lots of things happened for the past 2 wks, so many exciting and interesting stories i wanted to blog abt, but keep putting it off. now tt it has accumulated to heights, i dun feel like blogging abt them already.
juz a v short update. the crazy chicks gt 3rd for NTU's street challenge 3 on 3 bball. really amazing experience and i m looking forward to ISG. bball is confirmed to be on 18th and 22nd dec. but it's kinda sad tt shuling cant make it for the 18th games bcoz she's going hk and yinyue gt hall games on 18th too. wrong timing..
i m going to egypt for holidays from 29th nov to 11th dec with my mum!! going with SA tours. pretty much looking forward to it because tt will mean the end of exams. and it might be the last time in the coming years that i will be touring with my mum, since i will be going to beijing next year. kinda sad..
high school musical started my thoughts abt my current course again. i hate thinking abt them but i guess it has always been in one corner of my mind. there's one scene tt the teacher told troy it takes courage to make the right decision. reminds me of my fav chinese phrase tt i mentioned somewhere in one of my past post. nt really appropriate to me now, but to you, i hope u make the right decision. it's ur own future so dun bother abt ur relatives or anybody else really. they are not u. thou opinions give u perspectives from different angles, the final decision is still up to you! hope u know i m toking abt u. hahaz. jiayouz k. tell me abt ur decision!
there's another scene tt the teacher asked them what goals do they have for the future. most of them stepped out and voiced out their aspirations with pride. how many of us can do that? if u ask me what i wanna be in the future, i will tell u i wanna be a TCM physician. but if u ask me what i aspire to be in the future, i cant 100% guarantee tt i will say i aspire to be a TCM physician. even for the first que, i might not be 100% sure too.
in the end, troy chose to pursue both his dreams of bball and stage performance althou he knew tt ppl ard him wld object to it. again, how many of us have the courage to pursue our own dreams and be responsible for our own future? it's rare tt ppl get to live their dreams in the world today. it's all abt the struggle for survival in this realistic society. i think tt's a real pity.
relating back to me, i still doubt myself at this stage of my course. it's not tt i dun like TCM or i dunwant to be a TCM physician, but i think i am not passionate enough. i always felt that to be an excellent doctor, on top of being knowledgeable, u need to be really passionate abt the job to go the extra mile for ur patients. comparing myself to my coursemates, i feel tt they are so much more passionate than me. juz like wat yinyue said, it's ppl's life we are talking abt here. it's serious. it's nt juz for the sake of exams and the degree. i still keep having this regret that i din go overseas to pursue dentistry. it would have been a course that i m more passionate abt. it's been almost 3 years and i m still thinking abt it. can u believe it, bcoz i cant. wth. i really hate myself for settling for juz any course tt seems interesting.
but dun worry, i m not thinking of giving up at this stage. i will still go to china and complete the course. i m juz thinking of how i can improve to be a better doctor in the future. all these thinking might be because i want to be an excellent doctor, i dun want to be juz a good doctor. juz like wat we were taught, "excellent doctors prevent illnesses, while good doctors juz cure illnesses"..
if life is about building an infrastructure, every decision u make in life is like hammering a nail into the wood. if u stay firm and believe in ur decisions, the infrastructure will be a stable one. if u are hesistant abt ur decisions, it's like pulling out the nail by inches before u decided to hammer it back again. this will result in an infrastructure which looks stable on the outside but the foundation is actually weak and not up to the test. if u give up on ur decisions and decided to go a new path, it's like pulling out the nail totally and hammering it at a different spot. the damage to the wood and infrastructure is already done and the hole will always be there no matter how hard u try to mend it...
tts all my thoughts for now! gonna get back to the study mood again, because i wanna be an excellent doctor! lol. my first paper is on the 19th of nov, followed by 20th and 21st! back to back papers sux but at least i finish early! ask me out after the 21st!! =)