pls juz go away..
i hate it when u stay in my head..
it used to be hours or a day or two.. now it's been almost a wk and i still cant stop thinking abt it..
it's draining my energy bit by bit unconsiously.
i need tt motivation again.
i need to feel interested again..
i need to believe tt i can do it again...
c'mon man!
go away so tt i can put new knowledge in
加油吧!
Sunday, November 8, 2009
emo is the word for today.. the weather, "greys anatomy", conversations.... all tt contributed to it. after watching the latest epi of greys, i felt how fragile life can be and there's only tt much tt docs can do. sometimes it's juz not possible. started my train of thoughts abt "future" again. the same old story and the same old feeling. too lazy to pen it down again. it's really draining to keep having the same thoughts coming back over and over again. but juz have to deal with it i guess. i made the choice. lonely is such a scary feeling, it can trigger so many other feelings and thoughts tt u can nv stop. it's so amazing how a child can miraculously live juz by hugging her in ur arms and it's so heart-stopping how another child can leave the world on his 11th birthday juz like tt. tts how extreme life can be.. it can be so strong and yet so fragile. wat determines which side of it are u on? who gets to determine it? makes me wonder...
ok shall talk abt sthing happy b4 i get deeper and deeper..
23rd oct 09
went clubbing with my classmates at propaganda.. a kinda popular international club in china.. alot of foreigners visit but it's small! free entry for us tt day. not sure why they always have free entry for girls, but maybe they sieve ppl from the crowd. drinks are crazily cheap so we juz downed them like nthing.. bcoz tt night was tequila night, every tequila shot was only 5rmb! unbelievable right.. think we had a total of abt 20 shots.. but mostly only yinyue, tianying and i drinking. the rest dun really drink. lol.. and i had white russian for the first time. feels alright but i still prefer other drinks. still drank almost three quarters of junie's gin tonic bcoz she juz drinks abit.. i think tts the most i've drunk: 5 shots and 2 drinks.. got me a little high and dizzy but i was still sober! stupid yy keep saying i lousy.. lol.. tts quite alot already leh.. rem ur 10 shots next time. think we no need to go home after tt le. the music was quite boring bcoz it was techno music tt night.. wrong genre for us. they can turn any music into techno. quite amazing. and the ppl there they dun reponse to the songs! like some songs need some interactions like shouting back, nobody does.. only we self high. lol.. shld try other nights next time.. i guess alot of ppl seen the photos on fb already.. really can differentiate the drinkers from non-drinkers. lol.. nice experience thou. first clubbing night in beijing!
31st oct 09
participated in an international event organised for international students. 昆明湖长走. thou we already went 昆明湖 before, we still participated. coz it can be treated as a class outing and we were hoping to meet or look at more ppl from other countries. lol! but act there wasnt much ppl-watching to do, luckily the scenery was awesome! totally different from the last time when we were there, because it's autumn now and all the leaves turned colour.. check out fb for the photos.. we were saying wanna go back again during winter, can walk on the lake! so we had to walk around the place and complete 3 checkpts, so tt we can collect our souvenirs at the end of it. in the end we only managed to complete 1 checkpt within the stipulated time! it was quite lame. we were only halfway done when they started keeping all the flags and road signs.. bcoz we spent too much time taking photos! until the pt where we gave up and juz walk and walk back to the end pt. quite sad tt we din get the souvenirs but the photos can be our souvenirs! =) and we met this 2 pakistan guys and took photos with them.. pretty random.
we had ajisen for dinner! delicious but smaller serving as compared to spore.. after tt we wanted to eat dessert, so we decided to check out swensens.. and guess wat. bcoz it's halloween and we are spore students, we each got a free ice-cream cone! juz liddat, without any purchase or spendings there. we were quite stunned. and they knew we were from spore from the way we talk. feel the love from home suddenly. lol...
1st nov 09
the first snow encounter in beijing!! =) huangfang screamed and woke all of us up when she saw tt it was snowing outside.. incredible. it wasnt even winter yet and we got to see snow. we all gt so excited and decided to brave the cold and go down to tk photos! it was so fun playing with the snow, snow-ball fights, snowman-building, snow angel etc.. reminds me of the korea tour with my family.. took alot of photos and we occasionally went inside the building to "defrost" since it's juz at our house garden. memorable experience..
i finally recovered from my 上吐下泻.. have been staying in bed and slping for the past few days.. dint go sch and dint do much.. went to see the doc and it took abt 2hrs for the entire process! nearly fainted there... but the med is quite effective.. finally my flu, cough and every other things i have is gone! happy.. hope i dun fall sick again.. sick of falling sick.. muz be the weather.. getting colder nowadays. heard tt this coming wk is cold again. but at least there's heater in the house now.. it's normal room temp now in our house.. pretty shiok. exams are coming again in dec.. planned my study timetable today. hope to stick to it.. gambatte! to all those having exams in spore, jiayou too! it'll be over in a flash.. i cant wait for cny!! really miss spore and the ppl back there... and of coz mj and bball.. lol! =p
ps: sis enjoy ur US trip!! tk more photos! esp of all the diff hotels u're gonna stay in las vegas!