today is the first day of my year 5 临床实习.. super duper nervous coz i was alone for the first department! how scary. first day, first department, alone.. so i went to 外科. luckily the teacher is a very very nice guy. he is the 副主任 and very experienced. i followed him to 门诊 and the day started. alot of patients for the morning but only a few interesting ones i would say. most of them are 换药 and 开药 ones. so nothing much to see. i think 外科 is more of 手术 and i can only get to see tt in 病房. although the patients are boring, the teacher is interesting. haha.. bcoz there are only abt 10 patients in the afternoon, we spent alot of spare time chit-chatting. talked about almost everything under the sun, from china to spore to taiwan. from tcm to politics to living... anything tt u can think of.. i wonder next week what do we have left to talk about. haha..
tml is a free day for me! coz he is not working tml.. but i have to go back on sun instead. i thought of going to the 病房 tml but gave up the thought bcoz my fever still havent subside. should juz rest at home and get better.. hopefully next wk i will get to see some 手术.
ystd night i went to a&e bcoz i was really feeling v sick. couldnt eat anything and juz felt v nauseous.. so junie and i took a toot toot (it's a form of cab here for those who dunnoe) to the hospital. when we were reaching, we got stopped by a group of police! pretty scary. dint know what was happening but we guessed tt the toot toot is illegal. so we had to give our ICs and sign something b4 going off. nothing much but it's juz weird. i tot they are all legal.. and the police was using video-cam! maybe we will appear on tv. lol...
praying tt my fever is not bcoz of any inflammation or infection of my gum. hope it will subside soon and i can get back to some serious work after all these... thanz yinyue and junie for taking care of me these few days! i felt ur loves =)
finally settled all the drama today.. it's been too much to handle, esp in my state of health. although things cant go back to before, i juz hope tt the outcome of all these is something positive or even neutral will do. i did what i could bcoz i care. i care about 2 of my best friends and i care about harmony. juz know tt i do despite all the drama behind it. i am tired......
i really hate to see tt things cant go back to before between the 2 of ur.. i know it wouldnt, even if it does on the surface, it is still different deep down. haiz. it wasnt even the main issue in question. why did it come to this. i nv expected it to and i probably shldnt have even said anything to anyone in the first place. maybe all these could have been less complicated. but these are all juz "maybe"s.. who can predict the future right.. this is juz a perfect example of how too much emotions built up in u over time can lead to a massive explosion. everything will be different now. different eye contact, different conversations, different fun, different laughter. i will miss the good times..
me listening to my emo song list is not a good sign.. how long has it been since i had tears of joy instead of sadness