blessing in disguise

2011-02-03T11:54:00.006+08:00

CNY resolutions!

haha i know it sounds weird to have cny resolutions, but din really get down to do a new year resolutions. so here it is. this year's resolutions are v short and simple. i really just wanna achieve these few things.

1. find and be sure of the future path i wanna take. be it finding a job or further studies. hesitate no more and just go with what my heart and mind tell me to. dun be afraid to disappoint others if it's really what i want!

2. stay healthy so that i can take care of my mum and allow her to lead a carefree life. 只希望她开心和健康。

3. hope that the right guy will come along. maybe a doctor too? muahaha.

that's all! short and sweet. hope that next year when i look back on this post, i will be proud of myself! =)

2010-12-19T23:03:00.000+08:00

exactly one more month before i am back in spore!!!

2010-12-16T21:41:00.002+08:00

谢谢你张红老师!! today is the first time i got to sit in a doctor's seat and act like one!

i went to 妇科 to help out today coz one of the teachers went on a holiday so 张老师 (my former teacher when i was doing intern at 妇科 a month back) asked me to go back and help her. she gave me the task of trying hands-on for some of the simple patients. mostly 早孕 though, did a 子宫肌瘤 and a 流产术后不规则出血 too. i did the whole process starting from 问诊 to 开化验单 to 妇科检查 to 写病历 to 预约做流产. it seemed so easy everytime i looked at the teacher go through the same old procedures over and over again. but when i really tried doing everything by myself, i will tend to forget some information at first. practice and practice is the key to success! even simple things need practising to make them perfect.

i've really grown to like 妇科. cant believe tt i am saying this, bcoz it used to be the department tt i dread going to. maybe it's the teacher, maybe it's the things i've learnt there. but sadly, back in spore, we wun be able to do all the 妇科检查 with our license. 妇科 in 中医 is mostly about 不孕不育 and prescription of chinese medicine. haiz

hope i will encounter more friendly and willing to teach teachers at the rest of the departments tt i will be going! 再次谢谢你啊，张红老师! 有空再回去帮忙!

starting from next week, it'll be 10 weeks at 针灸科! looking forward..

2010-12-14T14:57:00.002+08:00

cold=hibernate

the cold really just zaps all ur energy and leave u with nothing to do ur work. everyday i juz feel like doing everything on my bed, be it sleeping, watching shows, studying, eating, drinking. winter is really here! the temp now is sub zero even during the day. brrr..

that day at 推拿科 the teacher (chiropractor) helped me treat my 落枕. he said my 颈椎反张. means the human cervical vertebra should be curving forward, but mine is curving backwards. no wonder my neck and shoulders hurt all the time. so now i gotta sleep on a bottle (like a coke bottle) to curve it back to normal. hope it will work! and maybe less mj when i back in spore next time? is it possible? lol..

anw my flights have been confirmed! i will be back in spore from 19th jan to 19th feb!! meet me pls.. i miss spore and all my friends and family back there. it's been one freaking year since the last time i was back. hard to imagine but time really do fly in beijing! another 6months and we will be back for good!! mixed feelings though. glad to be going back home but uncertain abt what is installed for us after tt. future prospects arh.. dun even wanna start thinking abt it AGAIN.

been staying at home for the past 3 days. no work (self-declared though) lol.. alone at home all day makes me MISS my family and friends and sunny spore so very much! 想家的感觉越来越强烈。再忍忍吧！一个月！

2010-11-09T16:05:00.004+08:00

congratulations sis!!!

my sis is getting married next year! sooo happy for her. great catch i would say. caring and v v nice to her, successful in career and still part-time studying to go to the next level. easy going family. treats mum and us well. 她会幸福的! =)

had a romantic proposal (expensive one too. lol). reserved the place for their reception. went to indo and picked her gown and had their wedding photos taken. pretty sad tt i missed all these but at least i will be there for the actual wedding! i am so eager to see her photos.. it will be the first wedding of a known person tt i will attend!

~loves~

2010-11-01T14:55:00.003+08:00

ok updates, as requested by shir.. but firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY C3!! hope u are and will always be happy =) tk care..

the weather in beijing is getting cold.. and they are not going to bring forward the date for switching on the central heating system, bcoz china ppl thinks tt the company did a lousy job and they refuse to pay. so the company refuses to satisfy our needs too. vicious cycle! how stupid can they get..

i am currently interning at 儿科. the kids are soo cute!! i cant help it but keep making funny faces at them. there was this boy who was soo uber cute!! he copied whatever faces i made and 乐在其中. den the mum joined in the fun too. lol. i simply lovee kids!!

sadly, i feel tt tcm doesnt have much of an advantage in 儿科. the anxious parents will incline towards western meds, bcoz it has a much faster effect on their kids. tcm meds are too bitter and slow for them. so i think it's not really wise to specialize in this field in spore.

i've been doing a little thinking these days abt my future prospects. adult acupuncture cum kids 推拿 sounds like a gd plan to me if i wanna open a clinic next time. but will the adults have a headache if they keep hearing the kids cry? lol.. i think i need to have a feel abt acupuncture first. waiting for my turn to intern there. another 1 and a half months. if i like it, then maybe i will seriously consider it. when singaporeans think abt tcm, the first thing tt comes to their minds will most probably be acupuncture and 推拿. tts wat i gathered. so it's a gd field to go into, at least it is to me. if all goes according to plan, after graduation i will go back spore and take the licensing exam. if i pass, then i will work for maybe a year and gather some experience b4 i further my studies (acupuncture studies in taiwan maybe). sounds not bad? haha.. realise the number of "if"s in the sentence. 都还是个未知数啊! or a better alternative: find a rich rich husband who loves me and get married and lead a tai tai life! lol...

last but not least, 在这里为selina祈祷。希望她能够继续坚强地与痛苦搏斗。只要有信念，重重难关都能够克服！我会一直等待SHE三人重新一起站在舞台的那一天！任爸、任妈、阿中、hebe、ella你们也要一起加油喔！=)

2010-10-07T23:07:00.002+08:00

wah i realized i have been stagnant at my 111th post for the past 2 plus months. a nice number though. since i usually blog abt emo stuff, me having a long draught period now probably means tt life is sooo much happier now!

juz came back from a 5days trip to 桂林 with junie, eileen and jo. was quite an experience i wld say. proved my point abt china ppl even more. why cant they juz enjoy life and take a moment to appreciate the scenery and to savour the food? muz everything be about "me first"?! to summarise, the trip was pretty rushed but the scenery was awesome. less fog and it wld have been perfect. 不愧是 "桂林山水甲天下，阳朔山水甲桂林". oh did i mention the train ride took 27hours? crazy right. dunnow how we survived but we did! sleep, eat, play cards, read books etc.

act several sad events happened in the past few weeks. ppl left us for a better world. why wld u study medicine and still take ur life so lightly? hard to believe. but may there be peace and less sufferings for them. take care my friends.

"after being broken, you heal. and you shouldn't be afraid to break by that simple reason alone." took this from twin's blog. love it and it got me thinking for quite awhile. juz wanna share it with more ppl.

why do i keep having the beer mood for the past few days and even now. i shall go be a pig now and blog more abt my daily life next time!

2010-07-24T18:56:00.002+08:00

I feel like I am just living life now as it is. Not necessarily a bad thing.

Surprised that I never go out this weekend considering that it’s the first weekend of intern and things are still quite slack. Just don’t have the mood. I am not in a moody or emo mood, just a “我已经看开” mood. Hard to describe the feeling but I just feel like everything else doesn’t really matter anymore. Just doing what I have to do now. Sleep, study, video, blog. That’s about all the things that I am interested in now. Before I started typing this post, I was still playing games online but none of them seem to interest me. Eating also doesn’t interest me now. Appetite seems like a distant thing nowadays.

I am kinda stunned at myself that I am act studying. I have always been the non-hardworking kinda person. But just ystd it hit me that things are so unpredictable in this world. Everything can change in a split second, so why bother doing so much when some of them are going away eventually. Just live ur life the way it has to be lived and be contented. Mundane as it may seem, that is life isn’t it. How ironic?

I have been having the “pubbing” mood since a few days back. If not for intern tml, I would have gone tonight. It has to be next week then I guess. Don’t know whether the mood will last that long.

2010-07-22T22:01:00.004+08:00

today is the first day of my year 5 临床实习.. super duper nervous coz i was alone for the first department! how scary. first day, first department, alone.. so i went to 外科. luckily the teacher is a very very nice guy. he is the 副主任 and very experienced. i followed him to 门诊 and the day started. alot of patients for the morning but only a few interesting ones i would say. most of them are 换药 and 开药 ones. so nothing much to see. i think 外科 is more of 手术 and i can only get to see tt in 病房. although the patients are boring, the teacher is interesting. haha.. bcoz there are only abt 10 patients in the afternoon, we spent alot of spare time chit-chatting. talked about almost everything under the sun, from china to spore to taiwan. from tcm to politics to living... anything tt u can think of.. i wonder next week what do we have left to talk about. haha..

tml is a free day for me! coz he is not working tml.. but i have to go back on sun instead. i thought of going to the 病房 tml but gave up the thought bcoz my fever still havent subside. should juz rest at home and get better.. hopefully next wk i will get to see some 手术.

ystd night i went to a&e bcoz i was really feeling v sick. couldnt eat anything and juz felt v nauseous.. so junie and i took a toot toot (it's a form of cab here for those who dunnoe) to the hospital. when we were reaching, we got stopped by a group of police! pretty scary. dint know what was happening but we guessed tt the toot toot is illegal. so we had to give our ICs and sign something b4 going off. nothing much but it's juz weird. i tot they are all legal.. and the police was using video-cam! maybe we will appear on tv. lol...

praying tt my fever is not bcoz of any inflammation or infection of my gum. hope it will subside soon and i can get back to some serious work after all these... thanz yinyue and junie for taking care of me these few days! i felt ur loves =)

finally settled all the drama today.. it's been too much to handle, esp in my state of health. although things cant go back to before, i juz hope tt the outcome of all these is something positive or even neutral will do. i did what i could bcoz i care. i care about 2 of my best friends and i care about harmony. juz know tt i do despite all the drama behind it. i am tired......

i really hate to see tt things cant go back to before between the 2 of ur.. i know it wouldnt, even if it does on the surface, it is still different deep down. haiz. it wasnt even the main issue in question. why did it come to this. i nv expected it to and i probably shldnt have even said anything to anyone in the first place. maybe all these could have been less complicated. but these are all juz "maybe"s.. who can predict the future right.. this is juz a perfect example of how too much emotions built up in u over time can lead to a massive explosion. everything will be different now. different eye contact, different conversations, different fun, different laughter. i will miss the good times..

me listening to my emo song list is not a good sign.. how long has it been since i had tears of joy instead of sadness

2010-07-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

today is probably the worst day in recent times..

i woke up feeling tt my stomachache is going to be back. it has been haunting me since the weekends (act to be exact, for 7 years already). then off to school to start the first day of my year 5 internship term. everything was ok until lunchtime.

i went to see a dentist bcoz my lower back tooth was hurting alot. after his examination, he said tt its the upper teeth tt are hurting. so he suggested tooth-filling for one and extraction for the upper wisdom tooth. he act took me by surprise coz i was only expecting either cleaning or tooth-filling. so i said ok since tts the only solution. fear started to build in me (given tt it is china).

the tooth-filling went well den after tt came the anesthesia. after the injection, he waited for awhile den asked me whether i felt the numbness, so i said a little. WITHOUT even testing the effects, he started the extraction. to my HORRID, there was no drill and no machines. juz him and the nurse with a hammer and nail and pliers. sounds like a horror show huh.. so he started planting the nails at different spots on the tooth and the nurse will hit it several times with the hammer. and by hit, i mean with full strength! my whole head was shaking with every stroke and the nurse had to stabilize my head. i felt like my whole head was gonna explode and i cannot breath. to make things worst, they dun even provide suction. i kept thinking tt i was going to choke and die on my own blood and saliva.

then came the most painful part. bcoz he tried removing it for like 3 times (with almost 15 knocks) and it still cant work, he decided to put the nail in between my tooth and my gum. given tt the anesthesia sucks to the max, it was hell painful!!! imagine knocking a nail into ur gum and u can feel it.. i felt like i was dying at that moment. the pain radiated all the way up my nose and to my head. finally like after 5 tries, he got the tooth out. phew! was my first reaction. den after putting in some gauze it was done! hurray.. but i was wondering there isnt any need for stitches? will the wound close liddat? he dint even prescribe me with antibiotics and painkillers. i had to ask for it..

throughout the whole process, i kept thinking tt i will get an infection soon. haha. total insecurity.

worst dental experience ever, hands down!

but lucky junie was there to calm my nerves and listen to my complains. haha. thanz! =)

oh and guess what, i found a chipped off part of my tooth later on, in my mouth! how safe is tt. lucky i din swallow it.

now i appreciate the dentist in spore, although the price is so much steeper. it's totally worth it!

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my horrible day din stop there. went back to class and some things happened. dun really wanna elaborate much but many issues came as a surprise to me. went home and it din get any better. haiz it was both good and bad in different ways. issues will still be issues but at least the cloud cleared up a little now. it's this kind of things tt make me miss home even more..

it's juz a v tiring day. and the meds are making it worst. is this a sign of a bad start to year 5.. who knows...

why cant life be simpler?

it hurts to hear those kind of comments from u.

2010-05-23T20:19:00.003+08:00

tired to the max!!!!

juz got back from 京东大峡谷 with junie and deqiang. it's a grand canyon at the outskirts of beijing. i think we are all supermen. we started the day by waking up at 245am to watch the champions league final. then at ard 430am we started making sushi for picnic later in the day. it was quite funny to see the sushi getting from very big to small small size. we were too ambitious at the start den ended up putting so much ingredients tt the sushi cannot be wrapped. we had "bahu-ham-cucumber-egg" sushi.

den at 6am we left the house. took a mrt den transferred to a bus, which took 1hr 30mins to reach 平谷. den transferred to yet another mini-bus which brought us to the 大峡谷 entrance. seemed like such a long day already but it was only 10am when we were all set to go.

we were greeted by 167 steps at the entrance! what a way to start the trip, so we decided to count every single step we climbed up for the day. there's a 走钢丝 activity but it seemed quite boring bcoz of all the safety netting, so we gave it a miss. it was followed by 水上吊篮. it's a flying-fox look alike thing, juz tt we get to sit in a basket instead of our own harness. the most amazing part is that the whole thing is man-powered. for the first part, the force carrying u forward is ur own weight, den it will come to a leveled part where u can continue moving only bcoz there's a man at the other side turning the wheel. i pity the guy's job!

den we continued our journey climbing more and more steps..... basically the place is full of steps and slopes. haha. there are 5 潭 there, each unique in their own way. with waterfalls and alot of water activities. so at 11am we reached the halfway mark and sat down for our lunch. yummy sushi!!

after walking for awhile more, we completed the whole park except for the part tt can only be reached by cable car. the challenging part has yet to come. awaiting us was this endless flight of steps, and they are not juz normal easy-to-walk steps. they are in all kinds of shapes and sizes and there will be trees in ur way to add to the obstacles. it took us 366 steps to reach the peak! crazy climb but it was definitely challenging and lotsa fun! feels great to stand on top of everything else and juz look into the distance. we were so impressed by this old couple who climbed up all the steep steps and at a v fast speed. 厉害!! =)

the going down was tougher in the sense tt it is v bad for the knees. by the time we exit the place it was only 3pm. we decided to reward ourselves with a good meal. always wanted to try their 蹲鱼 so we had 烤蹲鱼 and 炒蘑菇. the fish was good. it's one of the few times we get to eat fresh fish in china (esp those without so much bones).

since it was still early, we decided to go fruit-picking at the farm areas. pretty cool. first time i picked fruits myself. we chose peaches and strawberries. although it's more expensive than normal, but it's the experience tt matters!

after tt was home sweet home. but the queue for the bus back was a nightmare. we queued for abt 40mins.... totally reminded me of ystd.

total steps count for the day: 984!!! (not including the going down steps)

this wkend was exhausting, both physically and money-wise.haha.. as quoted from junie, it's a "scream-ur-lungs-out saturday" and a "walk-till-u-die sunday".... but it was no doubt fun!!! =)

2010-05-22T19:23:00.005+08:00

juz got back from 欢乐谷 with junie, deqiang, yinyue and jeffrey! it's an amusement park near our place. tks abt 20rmb to cab there. we started off great coz gt a lady had extra student tickets and she wanna sell to us at 125rmb (the original price is 140rmb). we kinda doubted her at first but she said can pay her when we get into the park and everything went smoothly. yeah money saved! =)

the rides were seriously crowded, ranging from half an hour to 2 hrs of waiting time. we took 8 rides in total and watched a pretty lame show at the v end.

1) trojan horse 特洛伊木马
waiting time: 30min
the first ride of the day.
nothing special, juz the usual spinning up and down machine tt every amusement park will have.

2) jungle racing 丛林飞车
waiting time: 30mins
very mild roller coaster.
mild until i can take photos when it is on the move. took it coz the queue seemed short and all the other exciting rides were nt opened yet.

3) golden wings in snowfield 雪域金翅
waiting time: 1hr
360 degrees leg-hanging roller coaster.
pretty cool. yinyue's saliva was all over her when the ride ended.. ewwww. and jeffrey's expression was classic.

4) twin-tower heroes 天地双雄
waiting time: 30mins
free-fall tower.
shiok. i think this is the first time i put both my hands up in the air for the whole ride. crazy experience.

5) flying ant squad 飞蚁战队
waiting time: 15mins
flying swing.
one of my fav rides at any amusement park thou it's juz a simple non-exciting ride. i love the wind in my face. somebody vomited on lucky yinyue when we got down from the ride. totally disgusting, can see tt she had alot of tomatoes for lunch. haha!

6) disk "O"
waiting time: 30mins
some spinning up and down thing again.
i lost my necklace pendant on this one! sad.... lost memories. underestimated the ride. i thought it's juz another mild ride so din tk it out. but the ride itself was fun! we all held hands high in the air and screamed until we got so tired.

7) crystal wing 水晶神翼
waiting time: 45mins
superman roller coaster.
the most unique ride in the park. i've nv seen something like this in any other amusement parks i had been to. it's a roller coaster where u sit facing downwards, so it feels like u are superman, literally in the flying position. damn cool... feels much more scarier than it actually is.

8) apollo wheel 太阳神车
waiting time: 1hr 30mins
longest waiting time! it felt like ages when we queued for the ride, partly bcoz we were already v tired by the end of the day and the sun was still scorching hot. but trust me, it's worth the wait. it's a pirate ship alike thing juz tt the wheel spins as it goes up. and it goes so much higher, maybe 150 degrees more it will reach 360 le. v crazy ride to end the day with. and i let go of my hands again! hair was flying everywhere and they caught a photo of me looking like a super crazy woman.

that's all the rides we took. although the park closes at 10pm, most of the rides were closed before tt. so at around 530pm, we left the park. i wldnt mind repeating some of the rides but we were all too tired i guess. and some of them were feeling dizzy. lol...

we really wanted to tk "the odyssey", the plunging down ride tt will splash alot of water. but the waiting time was crazy (abt 2hrs). so we gave it up. when the boat plunged in, it's the greatest amount and furthest distance of water splashed up tt i've seen before.

yeah a fun day! i love amusement parks.. we are thinking of going again next year but on a weekday instead. then we can avoid the crowd and get to go as many rounds as we like. anw they are building a new section which includes yet another roller coaster! it will be ready by summer vacation this year.

tml will be another tiring day. we are going 京东大峡谷.

2010-04-15T23:33:00.003+08:00

My blogging mood is here again…

Haven really got down to listing the things tt sporeans shldnt take for granted, but I am not talking abt tt in this post (maybe the next one)..

Act I have been thinking abt how life and the environment u live in can really change a person and ur perception of a person. Life is what shapes us into what we are now. Imagine everybody leading the same life and experiencing all the same details in the world, that will just make us billions of adam and eve.

Ppl always wanna be unique and “be urself” and yet there are a bunch of them out there who complains abt how life is not fair and how they wld love to be somebody else. Kinda guilty for tt too. But what is there to complain abt when u know tt u can control ur own destiny. From young, u choose ur own field of study, u choose the friends u wanna be with, u choose the impression tt u wanna give others, u choose ur line of job, u choose the partner to spend the rest of ur life with, and the most impt thing to me is u choose the mentality and attitude u wanna lead ur life with.

“life is like a roller coaster” a rather old phrase from the past. But it is still ard bcoz it has some truth in it. Nobody’s life is always “up there” and nobody’s life is always rock bottom. So when u hit rock bottom, there are only 2 choices. Remain there or climb back up. This is where mentality comes in. why are there 2 classes of ppl out there when there is only 1 world? It’s all in the mind I wld say. The mind is the strongest weapon tt one cld use to destroy others. Why are there terrorists out there who are willing to sacrifice their bodies and why are there soldiers who are willing to give their all to protect their love ones? If u can manipulate one’s mind, then I guess the US government will be willing to do anything to buy u over.

Environment changes ppl. It’s like this silent killer in ur backyard, or angel if it changes u for the better. Sometimes it’s creepy and shocking to look into ur inner self and even more so when u look into others. Ppl always say u dunnoe who ur true friends are unless they stand by u during difficult times. Act for me, I think tt close friends are those tt I think of during difficult times. Those tt I wld want to share my troubles with and feel better juz by sharing it with them. They dun have to do anything, a listening ear will suffice. I consider myself to be v fortunate to have a bunch of them. Really. Esp when I am far away from home, this is the kind of thing tt will pull me through.

Another aspect is tt when u are ard close friends, their company alone is enough. Even when there is silence, it is a comfortable one. U dun have to use up all ur brain juice to come up with interesting topics bcoz it juz comes naturally. Talking abt everything under the world. I muz admit tt there are not many ppl out there who is like this to me.

So I juz wanna dedicate this post to all my lovely friends out there (u know who u are). Thank you for being juz there! I love ur…

and to “uhu” (or are u the “glue” lol): really glad to share so much laughter with u recently and of course the bitching part too. Haha. Though I dun think u will get to read this, but when u 肝郁 can always talk to me k (or juz give me THAT face). Lol.. but that wun happen v often la coz u are always entertained by me! Muahaha…

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. We have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is to play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... We are in charge of our Attitudes." Charles R. Swindoll

2010-04-09T23:58:00.002+08:00

happy day today! finished 骨伤科 paper today.. easier than i thought.. only took 40min i think, alot of ppl left early too.. so after sch, junie and i wanted to hang ard till dinner time. too sick of studying althou there's another paper next wed. she gt another one next mon! haha.. so we decided to go tidbits shopping at 物美 supermarket.. while walking there, we passed by this underground arcade place so we decided to go in and tk a look (both of us are arcade lovers lol)..

the games there are considerably cheaper! we played "house of the dead 4" for 2rmb per pax.. "lets go jungle" for 3rmb per pax.. driving game for 1rmb per pax and the "pick the toy using the claws" machine for 1rmb per try. hahah din know we can be so entertained by arcade games.. had a really good time there. enjoyed the shooting games. played lets go jungle for the first time and it was act quite fun.. the whole gun will vibrate when u shoot, juz like a machine gun.lol.. we can go crazy juz shooting at weird animals and creatures and also zombies..

after we used up most of our energy there, we decided to continue with our tidbits shopping. found some really cheap biscuits there. cant resist buying all of them and stupid junie keep 怂恿 me to buy!! so in the end i bought 54rmb worth of tidbits.. considered real cheap coz i bought like 6 diff types of them! the best buy was a big tin of butter cookies worth only 10rmb!

yeah it was a simple day of fun. nice company. =) a small break before the weekend studying starts again. finally can slp well tonight. i dunnoe how i survived the wk. i watched both the 245am soccer matches on wed and thurs. and today i went for my paper. quite amazed by myself oso. lol

anw today is the big day for my eldest sis!! louis proposed to her and she said yes.. soooo happy for the both of them. he booked a hotel room and when my sis went in, it was full of roses.. haven talked to my sis yet so i dunnoe the details, but can imagine how shocked she was.. so sweet. wish them happiness together! =)

oh last wkend i watched "shutter island" with my housemates.. for those who like twisted mind games, be sure to catch it!

lastly share with ur a joke tt junie told me.. "a successful man is one who can earn more money than his wife can spend. and a successful woman is one who can find such a man."

2010-04-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIMI!!!!!

juz finished skyping with everybody back in spore.. woah alot of ppl were at our house! they went out for dinner at malaysia to celebrate my mum's bdae.. den gathered at our place to play mj and of course for the cake-cutting session.. nt forgetting the wine session, knowing tt it's my mum's day today.. they drank red wine and XO! crazy.. maybe they are drunk by now.. so sad.. i cant be there with them to celebrate and enjoy.. it will be 2yrs in a row which i cant celebrate my mum and sis's bdaes. but i am glad tt she liked the small card i sent back and tt she enjoyed herself today!

stay healthy mimi! =) smile always and i miss u!

2010-04-01T22:09:00.004+08:00

"should i or should i not"

tt "thought-ful" day tt i had, i tot abt my future too. it seems rather bleak. nt sure whether i will get any job when i graduate. nt sure whether i will have the skills to help those ppl in need. seeing tt our seniors will graduate in 2 mnths time, it is really hard to believe tt it will be my turn in 1 yr's time.. doubt tt i will have the confidence and knowledge to survive in this field..

for those who know me, this que had been ard ever since i was in this course... the uncertainty abt whether i chose the right course. whether i shld come to china. regrets tt i din know the option of overseas studies.. it's not all negative thou.. i learnt alot in this course too but juz nt sure whether it's enough to make it a living and to be the one saving ppl..

i have been thinking abt juz quiting the course now and nt waste more time.. juz go back to spore and get a job first. and maybe from there, i can find out wats the right field for me.. maybe part-time studying will be cool.. although many will say tt it's so wasted! but i think tt 1 yr is nt tt short afterall... i can achieve so much in 1 yr so why waste it on something tt i have no confidence in.. i will be taking a huge risk here i know.. nt knowing wats there for me to do back in spore. this is tough man... i dunwan to regret another decision again! sooo wat shld i do?? find out my final answer by highlighting the paragraph below!

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY to all!!!! hahah those who fell for the trick own up!! leave me a tag k.. lol.. but dun spoil the fun for others who hasnt read my blog yet! keep smiling cause everyday is beautiful! =)

2010-03-27T13:50:00.002+08:00

ystd night lying on bed i was wondering will u ever think abt us no matter where u are.... if u din even care in the first place, why bother.. 不知道你现在在哪里. 我不想知道，只是觉得既然你当初做了这样的选择，难道就不用负起一点点责任吗？

眼睛干干的有想哭的心情
太多的情绪没适当的表情最想说的话我该从何说起
如果没有你没有过去我不会有伤心

但是我一直都不觉得现在这样有什么不好。至少对我而言我觉得很幸福，可是每当我想起你做过的一切，愤怒和辛酸就一涌而来，不是为了我............. 是为了她。

one chance after another, yet everytime u disappoint her. she did everything for us, and u did everything to destroy her. she's gonna be fine bcoz she gt US, u gt nothing but regrets to live ur life with.. fuck. 爱情让人变得真傻.

it's been long since i lie on my bed with my eyes wide open staring at the ceiling. thoughts flow through my mind juz like the tears did. for me, i think tt lying is the ugliest side of human beings. be it lying to others or lying to urself. whats the pt of lying to get wat u want when eventually u throw everything away.. it all started coz u lied to urself tt lying will get u thru all these. the scary part abt lies is tt it's an optional thing tt ppl do. it's in the dark and u nv know when u will be on the receiving end of it all. lying to urself is still the winner of all. u dun even have the courage to face up to reality and u think tt by deceiving urself u can deceive the world too? seriously naive.

today is one of the days i wanna be alone....

2010-03-22T15:51:00.003+08:00

woah it's gonna be almost 2 mnths since i last blogged!! wat is happening to time man.. but i like it this way! means i'll be back faster! 3 wks already..

anw wanted to blog abt so many things but our house internet connection really sucks!!!!! testing my patience ever since we got back.. it's getting horrible. i cant stay connected to internet for more than 1hr? 2 hrs at most.. let alone vpn (the server i go thru to access fb and blogger). i even missed the man u match ystd! angry..... today is one of the rare rare days when i can have stable internet connection. keeping my fingers crossed until i type finish this post.

now i cant rem wat i wanted to blog abt le. juz a brief summary ba..

19th march 10
played bball for the first time in china!! brought my camera along but forgot to use it. how lame. shall tk photos next time.. bball is so popular in china and yet the usage of courts requires us to pay! how ridiculous.. thou it's nt expensive (5rmb for 1hr), still... they are discouraging ppl from exercising.. we shall source for free courts ard our area.. anw five of us went and we played for 3hrs! wanted to play for 1hr only den we were too engrossed until we loss track of time so exceeded into the 2nd hr.. den guess wat, we exceeded into the 3rd hr again.. lol. but it was fun! it was really a "first time" experience for me... first time playing in the cold. first time playing bball in pants. first time wearing jacket to play. first time not sweating profusely. first time paying to play. first time seeing only 1 girl playing besides us. first time 打队 with china ppl in china. first time playing with cold fingers.. woah it was nice! oh and we learnt a new term tt the china ppl use----"我的" means it's their fault.. so everytime they nv pass or shoot properly den they will say 我的.. got us confused at first.. we thought we fouled or sthing den the ball is theirs.. lol! looking forward to more bball sessions!

13th march 10
wanted to go and visit 毛主席纪念堂, but we din know tt it was under maintanence until we got there. so in the end we went to walk ard 大栅欄 instead. it's an old street nearby with alot of shops catering to tourists. being the non-typical tourists, we din go into alot of shops but we chanced upon this old cinema.. it is the first cinema tt existed in china! we got pretty excited and decided to watch a movie there. so we watched 苏乞儿 coz we tot a 武侠片 will be the most suitable for this old-aged cinema. we expected it to be v cui but it turned out to be a really huge theater! this is the first time i watched a movie with only 7 ppl in the theater including us! and it's oso the first time i took a photo in a movie theater! the screen was v v big but the visuals were abit below standard. still worth the money i wld say.. after tt we went 中山公园. nthing much but might as well since we gt nthing to do and it's in the area. den we went sizzler for dinner! shiok.. slack and ate alot.. thou we din get to see what we wanted to see in the first place, it still turned out to be an eventful and enjoyable day!

7th march 10
skiing trip!! at first i was still contemplating whether to go since i already skii before in korea. i was glad tt i decided to go bcoz it turned out to be so different! so we got up real early and started making our way to the skiing place which is somewhere at the outskirts of beijing. reached there at abt 9 plus (cant rem le)? den it was the horrible queues and alot of ppl! bcoz it's the last few days tt the skiing place is opened (since the weather is getting warmer), there is a 90% discount on the entrance fee! saved abt 100rmb per person! by the time we got our equipments and our coaches, it was already abt 11 plus. wasted so much time. long story short, we learnt how to skii down a slope and break. haha.. coz the coach was only with us for 2hrs.. i wanted to learn how to turn by applying ur bodyweight but he din teach tt. we wanna go back for more next yr!!

hmmm pretty long post huh.. nt really a summary. lol. i cant wait for may-june to come! alot of exciting trips coming up. we are planning to go inner mongolia and an amusement park near our place! yeah...

till the next time my internet is good then...

2010-02-07T23:12:00.002+08:00

i feel happy yet emo now.. haha. weird combi i know. at my sis bf house now, waiting for the exciting match later.. for the first time, i am supporting arsenal!! haha go go go..

juz now went ntuc with my mum to do grocery shopping.. simply love the feeling.. juz an ordinary trip but it's been 5 mnths since i last did it.. i used to go ntuc with my mum every wkend to stock up for the coming wk.. as usual we bought alot alot of stuff. while i was driving down frm the multi-storey carpark, waiting for the car queue to move, saw my mum waiting for me on the pavement, i sudd felt abit emo.. haha.. it's gonna be another 1 yr b4 i will be able to do such a simple task with her again.. lol.. pretty random but yah...

ystd had a games session at shimin house. some new games were introduced and they are still so so funny.. poker was such a disappointment thou.. so fast lost le.. haha. recently nt v lucky arh..

been slping at 7am and 1pm for the last 2 "nights".. haha.. mj and games. ya. craziness i know. next wk's gonna be a busy wk too.. alot of gatherings everyday. feel kinda bad tt i am not having dinner at home every night. shall cook a meal for my family some day! hahaha.. anw after this mnth's stay in spore, i am gonna blog abt the so many privileges sporeans enjoy in spore.. haha. i think there's countless things sporeans tk for granted.. i am nt saying china is v backward thou. lol..

i feel loved.. dun want to go back to china!!!

2010-01-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

yeahs!! finally i gt to drive today! loveeee the feeling although i was a little scared.. haha. abit not familiar with the roads after half a yr.. so today i satisfied my craving for jap food and durian! i gt a whole packet of durian for myself coz nobody in the family wants to eat.. confirm 上火 so i decided to be guai and keep half for tml.. lol. cold durian will taste even better! =p

today was juz a simple day spent with family. had dinner with everyone and walked ard the big carnival in bishan.. haha i cant help but laugh everytime i see or hear the word carnival.. ystd night my sis told me "hey, u know there is a very big carnivore in bishan!"... i was damn stunned for a moment.. how come bishan will have carnivore, so scary.. in the end she meant carnival.. pronounciation cannot make it.. it was super funny.. hahaha cant stop laughing..

tml will be mj day den sun dunnoe whether will mj again.. if not then prob will try to meet some friends.. mon is bball time!! cant wait.. i think i look too fair now, nv exercise for half a yr is not healthy at all!!

2010-01-29T17:27:00.002+08:00

i am back!! finally.. but i think i will juz die under the scorching sun. ystd when i arrived at abt 10pm, once i step out of the airport, i felt the heat already. cannot imagine how hot it will be when i am already sweating at night.

now i regret cancelling my line. i feel so handicapped without a phone beside me. there's 2 options now, it's either i kop my mum's number or i get a prepaid card to use for this one month. haha. anw till then, i will only be contactable thru fb or msn!

on wed, our 2nd last day in beijing, my housemates and i decided to go do our hair. and guess wat! junie, huangfang and i ended up perming our hair.. wanted to try a diff hairstyle, so it's either short or perm. we decided on perm since short is better for summer. but i am really not used to it, permed hair looks so messy. i still like my straight and silky hair. lol. so we decided to go cut short once the perm goes away, which will probably be summer already, juz nice. anw i think i look older now, but no harm trying a new hairstyle, since it's so cheap in china. lol...

cant wait to meet up with all my friends and eat all the food i loong to eat!! cant wait for mj sessions too.. tt day when i went to cut my hair, had a small talk with a guy there. asked him abt china mj rules, and it is v complicated! i think i wun learn it la. juz dun play when i am in china lo.. haha..

对不起伤害了你。。。

2010-01-09T11:35:00.006+08:00

same time next wk i will be on my way to 张家界! woots.. cant wait for our little trip ard china.. 9 of us (brandon, roger, huimin, kt, yinyue, huangfang, eileen, junie and i) are gonna travel to 张家界, 武当山, 西安 for 10 days before heading back to spore! i hope the long long train and bus rides dun make me too sick (dizzy) until i cant enjoy the trip. better bring along more meds.. lol. so i'll be back in spore on 28th jan! my spore number is no longer in use thou. wait till i find a solution to tt, i am only contactable online! haha.. got nthing much to bring back, so i think my luggage will be full of food and prez for friends.. but b4 all these, there's still 2 more papers to go next wk. nt really nervous abt it, thou i am only halfway done studying.. the holiday mood is here already!! lol..

2nd jan 10
served a sumptious dinner for 9 today! invited yinyue's housemates and 小陈 over for dinner.. deqiang cooked his delicious 田鸡.. and we had beer-battered lotus root, emperor's chicken, apple soup, brocolli.. after tt 小陈 teached us some 散打 while deqiang they all played guitar.. pretty interesting night.. after tt yinyue stayed overnight at our house. we all had a really long gossip session until abt 3am. finished up the beer in our fridge and gossiped abt sensitive issues.. lol. i love this kind of sit-around sessions. hard to have as we grow older.. makes me miss my girlfriends sooo much!! really miss going out with them and juz chilling.. miss how ying scolds my twin and how xian and ping fight non-stop and how kat nv fails to make us laugh and how sera, nat and i will juz sit there and watch the funny things they do.. haha! anw, after they all went to slp, yinyue and i gossiped more in my bed.. really talked abt EVERYTHING in the world. had so much fun laughing tt we only slept at 5am..

3rd jan 10
heaviest snow in 40 yrs!! how lucky are we to experience this kind of thing, esp deqiang.. he muz be sooo glad he got to see snow here! snow fight time!!! we went out to build snowman and took lotsa photos.. havent upload them yet bcoz of the sucky vpn! ganged up against yinyue and she lost miserably! lol.. the snow was really fluffy this time rd, not like the solid kind of snow we first experienced tt time. harder to build snowman and snow fight, but it makes u wanna lie down in it everytime u see it! the snow was mostly ankle-level, but the thickest part can go up to near knee-level! what's the must-do thing during winter?? steamboat!! so we decided to explore another steamboat restaurant near our place, called 陈阿婆. it's nice too! we got a room to ourselves and the "sauce corner" was interesting.. hf and yinyue kopped alot of 枣 home.. lol.

it's getting really cold nowadays.. temp is below zero even during the day. brrr.. hope tt during our trip, the other parts of china wun be so cold. anw fyp result was out last wk! yay! i achieved my target, but nt sure whether there'll be a bell-curve for the number of 1st class, or izzit an absolute 1st class when u hit 4.5... shall see then.. back to the books!

2010-01-01T21:16:00.003+08:00

1st post of 2010!!

haven been having the blogging mood for very long. had so much to share but now tt the timing is no longer right, i'll juz let it remain in my heart and mind.

so it's the first time i am celebrating new year in a foreign land. we (my housemates, and deqiang and yinyue) decided to go pubbing so we first explored 南锣鼓巷. it's a really nice place with alot of small shops tt sell unique items. but the weather was way too cold and the pubs there are too small. so we decided to go 后海 instead. it's a whole street of pubs with diff themes. juz like clarke quay in spore. it's oso located along the river banks. we chose "后海5号" bcoz the live band was performing english songs when we walked pass. turned out to be a great choice! the band was really good, with a mix of english and chinese songs. alcohol was ex. as usual, yinyue and i drank our hearts out. we each had 2 shots (B-52, angel kiss), 2 cocktails, and a beer. totalled to be 230rmb.. anw we wasnt even feeling high before the last beer, so we decided to get tt beer, cheapest way to get high.. lol. anw at abt 10 plus, 小陈 came to join us. rem him? he is the young 推拿 teacher at the hospital. only 20, but his skills are good! so we enjoyed the great music and great company until abt 1am.

after tt, 小陈 jio-ed his friend to go singing with us. but only yinyue and i went. so the 4 of us went singing at haoledi. super crowded, wait until we lost the high mood already.. but it was a diff kind of singing experience. interesting i wld say. yinyue was damn amazed tt i know some of the china songs tt they were singing. she was giving me the "what the hell" face. lol. hilarious! cannot stop laughing.. sang from 3am to 6am.. totally maxed out from all the high-ness and alcohol (had 2 more bottles while singing).. luckily his friend drove us home. tt was how the last night of 2009 was spent! great company i wld say.. =)

my whole mind is thinking abt this one thing now! woke up juz now and din touch my book at all. think i am gonna die for this exams. instead i listened to music, stared into blank space, sms-ed, drank finish the bacardi left over from ystd.. still confused.. why muz there be this major factor! if not, all will be great i think.. hmm. should i?

still thinking...

2009-12-06T14:20:00.002+08:00

do ppl always feel the twitch in their hearts when they get reminded of things in the past? i dunnoe whether to feel happy or sad when tt sentence caught my eyes. all the thoughts coming back! ok juz some random emotions.. better get back to studying. exams start tml..

2009-11-12T23:26:00.002+08:00

pls juz go away..

i hate it when u stay in my head..

it used to be hours or a day or two.. now it's been almost a wk and i still cant stop thinking abt it..

it's draining my energy bit by bit unconsiously.

i need tt motivation again.

i need to feel interested again..

i need to believe tt i can do it again...

c'mon man!

go away so tt i can put new knowledge in

加油吧!

2009-11-08T18:05:00.004+08:00

emo is the word for today.. the weather, "greys anatomy", conversations.... all tt contributed to it. after watching the latest epi of greys, i felt how fragile life can be and there's only tt much tt docs can do. sometimes it's juz not possible. started my train of thoughts abt "future" again. the same old story and the same old feeling. too lazy to pen it down again. it's really draining to keep having the same thoughts coming back over and over again. but juz have to deal with it i guess. i made the choice. lonely is such a scary feeling, it can trigger so many other feelings and thoughts tt u can nv stop. it's so amazing how a child can miraculously live juz by hugging her in ur arms and it's so heart-stopping how another child can leave the world on his 11th birthday juz like tt. tts how extreme life can be.. it can be so strong and yet so fragile. wat determines which side of it are u on? who gets to determine it? makes me wonder...

ok shall talk abt sthing happy b4 i get deeper and deeper..

23rd oct 09

went clubbing with my classmates at propaganda.. a kinda popular international club in china.. alot of foreigners visit but it's small! free entry for us tt day. not sure why they always have free entry for girls, but maybe they sieve ppl from the crowd. drinks are crazily cheap so we juz downed them like nthing.. bcoz tt night was tequila night, every tequila shot was only 5rmb! unbelievable right.. think we had a total of abt 20 shots.. but mostly only yinyue, tianying and i drinking. the rest dun really drink. lol.. and i had white russian for the first time. feels alright but i still prefer other drinks. still drank almost three quarters of junie's gin tonic bcoz she juz drinks abit.. i think tts the most i've drunk: 5 shots and 2 drinks.. got me a little high and dizzy but i was still sober! stupid yy keep saying i lousy.. lol.. tts quite alot already leh.. rem ur 10 shots next time. think we no need to go home after tt le. the music was quite boring bcoz it was techno music tt night.. wrong genre for us. they can turn any music into techno. quite amazing. and the ppl there they dun reponse to the songs! like some songs need some interactions like shouting back, nobody does.. only we self high. lol.. shld try other nights next time.. i guess alot of ppl seen the photos on fb already.. really can differentiate the drinkers from non-drinkers. lol.. nice experience thou. first clubbing night in beijing!

31st oct 09

participated in an international event organised for international students. 昆明湖长走. thou we already went 昆明湖 before, we still participated. coz it can be treated as a class outing and we were hoping to meet or look at more ppl from other countries. lol! but act there wasnt much ppl-watching to do, luckily the scenery was awesome! totally different from the last time when we were there, because it's autumn now and all the leaves turned colour.. check out fb for the photos.. we were saying wanna go back again during winter, can walk on the lake! so we had to walk around the place and complete 3 checkpts, so tt we can collect our souvenirs at the end of it. in the end we only managed to complete 1 checkpt within the stipulated time! it was quite lame. we were only halfway done when they started keeping all the flags and road signs.. bcoz we spent too much time taking photos! until the pt where we gave up and juz walk and walk back to the end pt. quite sad tt we din get the souvenirs but the photos can be our souvenirs! =) and we met this 2 pakistan guys and took photos with them.. pretty random.

we had ajisen for dinner! delicious but smaller serving as compared to spore.. after tt we wanted to eat dessert, so we decided to check out swensens.. and guess wat. bcoz it's halloween and we are spore students, we each got a free ice-cream cone! juz liddat, without any purchase or spendings there. we were quite stunned. and they knew we were from spore from the way we talk. feel the love from home suddenly. lol...

1st nov 09

the first snow encounter in beijing!! =) huangfang screamed and woke all of us up when she saw tt it was snowing outside.. incredible. it wasnt even winter yet and we got to see snow. we all gt so excited and decided to brave the cold and go down to tk photos! it was so fun playing with the snow, snow-ball fights, snowman-building, snow angel etc.. reminds me of the korea tour with my family.. took alot of photos and we occasionally went inside the building to "defrost" since it's juz at our house garden. memorable experience..

i finally recovered from my 上吐下泻.. have been staying in bed and slping for the past few days.. dint go sch and dint do much.. went to see the doc and it took abt 2hrs for the entire process! nearly fainted there... but the med is quite effective.. finally my flu, cough and every other things i have is gone! happy.. hope i dun fall sick again.. sick of falling sick.. muz be the weather.. getting colder nowadays. heard tt this coming wk is cold again. but at least there's heater in the house now.. it's normal room temp now in our house.. pretty shiok. exams are coming again in dec.. planned my study timetable today. hope to stick to it.. gambatte! to all those having exams in spore, jiayou too! it'll be over in a flash.. i cant wait for cny!! really miss spore and the ppl back there... and of coz mj and bball.. lol! =p

ps: sis enjoy ur US trip!! tk more photos! esp of all the diff hotels u're gonna stay in las vegas!

2009-10-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

finally i am back!! been neglecting this blog ever since exams started.. been quite an accomplishment to stay at home and study without using the comp! i juz dunwanna switch it on, bcoz the moment i do, i will be so distracted from all the internet and games and fb.. so mid-terms are finally over! 针灸 paper was easy but 内科 paper was tough!

i've decided to give up on blogging abt every single day in beijing starting from day 1! it's too tedious and i gt no time for it.. cant really rem wat happened oso.. so juz a few interesting stories here and there!

17th sep 09

we were happily eating dinner at home and watching our fav tv cartoon show "喜洋洋与灰太狼" when suddenly the house blacked out! we were stunned for a few seconds before we started to react to the situation.. the prob was we used up our electricity! the system in china is tt u need to pre-pay for electricity and top it up when u are running low. we forgot all about it and our electricity got cut off! so, late at night (abt 7 plus i think), we had to walk for about 20min to the power supply company and top up our card.. an experience i will nv forget.. i guess u only get to experience it here in china, with the pre-pay system.

house-visiting

we went to some classmate's houses over these few wks.. yinyue and gang, brandon and gang, yueyou and gang.. all not bad! yinyue's cooking skill is good, i like the chicken.. roger's stewed pot is nice too! kt's dessert apple wine is innovative! we din eat dinner at yueyou house coz we had an impromptu visit tt day when our house blacked out (coz their house is near the power company). but their house is the nicest! biggest and very well furnished.. so we picked up a few dishes here and there.. i wanna try making the dessert apple one day.. but i think it will be an expensive dessert to make back in spore but here the wine is so cheap! a can of beer is like 4rmb and the cheapest wine can go down to less then 10rmb? craziness... had lotsa fun hanging out at yy's house! gossiped abt everything tt we could and juz chilled.. stayed till abt 1am.. brandon's house visiting was on mid-autumn festival! we drank tea and ate mooncakes and enjoyed the excellent piano songs by xuhua! really v zai.. going to visit shuling and gang's house this sun night and catch man u vs liverpool match.. lol! i hope man u players make it back in time.. next wk planning to visit more ppl's house!

17th oct 09

huanfang's bdae today!! happy bdae!!! it's the first time her bdae falls during the exams period.. quite sad coz we all needa mug.. i hope my bdae dun fall anywhere near! but we still planned a little surprise for her.. bought a bdae cake and a boster for her secretly.. then on the day itself, eileen and i came up with some excuses to get out of the house and go collect the items, while junie stayed at home and prepare for the moment.. the boster turned out to be so skinny! coz we told the shopkeeper we wanted 95cm by 20cm.. in the end they took the 20cm as the circumference instead of the diameter! diaoz... it was quite cute thou, looked like a sweet.. so we secretly lit up the cake outside the house and once we opened the door, we started singing bdae song! it was a successful surprise bcoz she din suspect anything at all! she thought we are all too engrossed in studying tt we forgot abt it.. haha.. after tt we went to eat dinner at this "spice girls hotpot restaurant".. v shiok! the 麻辣 feel is craziness. stays in ur mouth and lips especially. we can feel our lips twitching while eating. lol.. ordered quite a spread and we were so full from eating tt i said a very funny sentence.. muz note it down bcoz it's too classic.. we saw this uncle tt sells fruit along the street so i said hi to him.. den after tt junie asked me who did i see.. i said "那个卖 uncle 的水果" when i meant to say "那个卖水果的uncle"! muz be all the blood flowed to the stomach at tt pt in time.. anw felt so relaxed tt night thou our paper was on mon.. haha.. totally put aside the books thou we were all still far from finishing.. the bill sum up to be around 200rmb.. still affordable i guess.. we wanna try all the hotpot restaurants along our stretch of road!

ystd we tried to acupuncture each other and they tried 尺泽 and 合谷 on me coz i am sick.. flu and cough.. den we tried to 点刺出血 coz they nv experience it before.. pretty fun but quite scary at times.. but it din help in my cough bcoz i think it's too late already.. shld have tried when i juz got sick instead. tt day during acupuncture class, we tried 耳针 too.. wanted to help yinyue poke her 下关 (which is near the jaw) bcoz her jaw hurts if she opens it too big.. but ran out of time so maybe next time den i try! quite scary thou the teacher says it's safe.

ate spaghetti for dinner juz now! nice and v simple to make! tts the only western dish we can cook here i guess.. limited ingredients. i miss spore's char kway teow and prawn noodles and seafood! the seafood here totally cmi.. totally miss malaysia's char kway teow too! i can drool while thinking abt it.. but food here have their own charm too! i like the 烤窜 and 米线 here! and also the beef noodles juz downstairs of our house..

the weather is starting to turn cold now! and the wind is unimaginely strong sometimes! we saw a fallen tree on our way to school tt day.. the wind can really blow u away. so we started to wear our trench coats and boots to school now. cant imagine wats it's like in winter.. and the dryness here is making my legs so itchy! gotta apply tons of moisturizer everyday and i can feel my skin growing older already. lol..

going shopping over the wkend! thinking of getting more shoes.. sneakers, boots etc.. yays! happiness..

2009-10-01T15:59:00.002+08:00

day 3 to 6 in beijing

nothing much happened for these few days. we simply went shopping for household stuffs and spent the rest of the time cleaning up our house..

we went to 十里河家具城 to shop for wallpaper initially, coz our walls are quite dirty. but we gave up the idea once we saw the price! so in the end we bought our wardrobes and study tables there.. one set cost 1200rmb. not a bad price considering the fact tt we can customize it and it's brand new with alot of compartments!

meals for these few days included yoshinoya (pretty much the same as spore), 上岛咖啡 (their lunch offer is cheap! and tts one of the rare places we will order fish coz it's boneless!), 南成香 (i love their 麻辣鸡翅!), and a noodles and bao zi stall near our place..

we eat fruits almost everyday here! bcoz it's fresh and cheap! junie and huangfang loves the peach here, crazy over it all the time.. but now tt the peach season is over, they are pretty sad, need to search for new fruits...

2009-09-15T21:15:00.002+08:00

day 2 in beijing

had 包子，粥，油条 for breakfast at the same 成都小吃 shop as the first day. surprisingly their 油条 is nice! then off we went to our apartment. china ppl are really efficient! after juz one night, they got the house ready with all the tables and chairs, beds, and even the partition wall for the extra room in the living room was built. so we are all ready to move in after some cleaning up.

the thing abt the way ppl work here is that they are v efficient and nice before u pay them the rent. after tt, they keep dragging things and will only get it done after much reminders.. quite irritating sometimes. to make things worst, our apartment had alot of problems! the toilet bowls cannot be flushed, the tap was leaking, door knobs not working, cockroaches everywhere, light not working, sink leaking, heater unstable.... such a long list right.. so we spent the next 5 days solving all these problems, equipping the house and cleaning up. but till now, the heater problem is still not solved. the water heat is always unstable when bathing.. requires a great deal of skill to manipulate the water temp, if not u will either freeze or get scald to death.. but the agent keep insisting that this is not his problem so he cannot fix it or change a new one for us. sian! i hope we can survive winter.

so we went to visit the 方庄市场 near our place for the first time! so excited for the first time, but we are all so sick of the place now. we will visit the place at least once every 2 days.. till the point tt everybody there knows we are from spore! which is not a good thing bcoz they will quote us higher prices.. and our bargaining skills are so lousy. feel so cheated. sad.. but it sells everything under the world.. everything can be found there so it's still quite convenient for us.

it was clear blue sky that day and we thought that maybe beijing pollution is not so bad afterall.. but we were so wrong! tts maybe the rare few days where u get to see a clear blue sky.. most of the days are hazy and the amt of ppl smoking on the street are terrible. they smoke everywhere! in the restaurants, toilets, and they can even smoke when they are eating! getting so sick of the cigarette smell.

so we bought alot of stuffs from the market, including our bed sheets, shoe rack etc.. they seldom provide plastic bags here, so we had to bring our own shopping bags and carry all the things home. on the way home, we stopped at this pebble road and started taking pics of how "auntie" we looked. and guess what, the pebble road is now paved with tar! tt makes our photo so memorable...

we went to sign up for broadband and a house line too, but realised that the house line is too redundant, so gonna cancel it soon. do ur know whats broadband called in chinese?? it's 宽带! such a direct translation.. i think we can earn big bucks here if we are to correct all their chinese to english translation. tt day we cant stop laughing when we were buying meds at this pharmacy. the direct translation really cmi.

on our way back, we bought drinking water too. tap water in china are not drinkable. so we had to get those water dispenser that u see in offices. we consume about 1 big tub every 2 days, bcoz we use tt to cook too! feel too unsafe to use tap water.

then huangfang, eileen and yizhong went to carrefour to get more stuffs, while junie and i stayed at home to make the beds and clean up a little. the beds they provided were cui bcoz it's 超薄软垫. the 超薄 part is so true but the 软垫 part is totally deceiving. it's very hard but i think it's good for the spine.. i am used to it bcoz last time when we went back taiwan, we will juz sleep on the floor. i think it's still fine. but the rest cannot take it. lol. they bought an extra 床垫 but it's still as hard. and the tables provided by them are even more cui! it's looks like a pri sch study table. so small tt after placing a laptop, nothing much can be put on it. totally cannot be used for studying. the wardrobe is the cloth-covered kind! can only hang a few clothes and the metal structure keeps swaying. we had to assemble them and we became pros at it. lol. but at least the sofa, tv, washing machine and fridge they provided are alright. the sofa can be converted into a bed, but it's abit squeezy for 4 ppl to sit on.

whoots! they came back with 500rmb plus of things from carrefour! tts like more than S$100. we have been spending money like crazy for the first few wks bcoz of the amount of things we had to buy.. had cup noodles for dinner and guess what we did for post-dinner activity. that's right! cockroach killing.. we spent the next few hrs killing them and then gave up bcoz we were all coughing badly from the pesticide.

tt sums up the tiring day we had from all the shopping, cleaning and roaches-killing! more to come for the following few days...

2009-09-13T10:05:00.005+08:00

day 1 in beijing

after 6hrs of flight onboard air china, we safely arrived in beijing.. the airport was so big that the plane glided for almost 15min after it landed! and we had to take a monorail to the luggage claim area. imagine the amount of land they have..

yizhong (our senior) came to fetch us and we took a cab down to our hotel. the first interesting thing i observed here is that the cab drivers dun like to switch on their air-cons! they will juz wind down their windows bcoz the air outside is cold enough to act as air-con. but at the same time, the air is so dry and the exhaust fumes blowing at u during traffic jams makes it irritating. i wonder if they on the air-con during summer..

so we arrived at our "super-8" hotel. it's quite a small hotel but the room is satisfactory. maybe the only downside is that there is no lift and we had to carry our luggage up to our room on the 3rd floor. din get much rest before we went out for breakfast. our first breakfast in beijing was 包子! it was very cheap and edible! lol.. juz a little salty.

then it was apartment-viewing time! we spent pretty long at the first apartment because the tenant locked the door from inside and we couldnt contact him. the door was so sound proof that he cant even hear us knocking damn hard. finally we managed to get in and he was watching tv in his room. no wonder.. the apartment had a nice layout, all the rooms are of similar sizes, but the kitchen was pretty small and the toilets are quite pathetic.. overall it looked too old for our liking thou the owner said he will help us redo the place..

the second apartment is the condo where quite a number of our classmates stay. the house was cleaner but it is a 3-room double-storey flat. the layout is abit weird, with 2 big rooms upstairs and a small room downstairs. so we decided to give that up too.

the 3rd apartment is where we are living now! it's a 6-storey condo with lift. our house is on the 2nd floor, so it's quite good exercise climbing the stairs everyday. although it's oso a 3-room apartment, the living room is so big that an extra room can be easily partitioned out. so we settled for the apartment because it looks relatively new and the location is pretty good. it's juz a 15-min walk to our hospital and 10-min walk to the market where everything u'll ever need can be found there. the rent is still within our budget. 5.4k every month and we distributed it equally according to the size of our rooms. i got the master bedroom with the toilet, coz my mum will come visiting so i have enough room to accommodate her!

so after juz 3 apartments we got our house settled! after which we had our lunch. noodles at a place nearby, as usual, salty and oily.. and the quantity is alot! then we went to the bank to open accounts. bank of china is nicely furnished! their bank goes by queue numbers, so u no need to physically queue up. i think it's quite nice.. tt concluded our day. went back to the hotel to sleep bcoz we were all so tired. slept for almost 12hrs till the next day!

2009-09-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

it's either my internet connection sux or blogger does! i edited this post 4 times already bcoz everytime i failed to upload the photos.. angry! so i decided to give up and juz type all the words out!

mon was the first day of school.. reported at 830am at the main school campus. total mess coz we decided to take a bus there and the bus routes here are so complicated! we looked at the map book and it was stated that the bus goes there but when we asked the driver, he say it doesnt! so in the end we took cab and was still late for 15min. nothing interesting today. juz settled all the admin stuff and listened to all the talks. we collected our textbook and it's 5 thick txtbks for this sem! i can forsee the toughness. and guess wat, our first exam is in 24 days time, when lessons juz started on tue. i find the 耳鼻咽喉科 teacher pretty interesting! he knows how to crack jokes to liven up the studying mood. but 内科 is so boring! i was trying hard to stay awake for the first lesson already.. this is bad bcoz it's the v major and impt module for clinical use next time. 针灸 is fun! act it's one of the modules i've been looking forward to bcoz i believe it really works. but the teacher cmi.. it's a young guy and his style of teaching is quite boring. i hope other teachers are better! we practise our 针法 on a self-made "pillow" today.. it was quite interesting and the pillow is made up of a whole roll of toilet roll! thanz to eileen's sewing skills! =)

the mood for studying is really not there yet. we still went shopping on sun! bought a trench coat and a knitted sweater and a turtle-neck shirt for juz 200RMB.. really v cheap.. and we only managed to conquer one storey of the place. gotta go there again but it's like 1hr bus ride from our house. mon we went to shop for all our remaining kitchen necessities. bought ALOT of stuffs! finally our kitchen is fully equipped. yay! we cooked prawn noodles for dinner on tue night! put too little seasoning so tasted abit blend but it was alright coz we are all v sick of oily and salty food. ystd we went to yinyue, keeka and huiming's house for dinner. they cooked 5 dishes and it was tasty! their apartment is not bad too but abit further.. then we gossiped until 1am! craziness bcoz today we still had lessons at 8am.. but it was lotsa fun.. lotsa juicy news too.. lol. and lotsa memories... today we cooked a successful dinner! delicious i wld say. had broccoli with carrots, vege and meatball soup, and sthing like sweet and sour chicken.. all tasted good. yay! we will continue to sharpen our skills.

so i shld start blogging abt my small trips ard beijing.. start with the departure at the airport first then... i hope i got time to follow up. =p

the day of departure

spent the whole day with my family. had lunch with sisters at 新旺台湾茶餐厅. i think it's quite nice. go try if u haven!

us with the 珍珠奶茶！

the must try: 面线和棺材板！

dinner was at 鼎泰丰. taiwan food again! i am so missing taiwan. now that there is direct flight between china and taiwan, maybe i can go back taiwan for holiday!

everybody present! i miss ur...

then it was time to go to the airport. thanz to all those who came! it was really nice seeing ur and all thanz to the “祝你一路顺风”started by katty, the tears flowed..

all the adults!

zheyi and xiaojun! so long nv met up le

lovely sisters!

i gave up trying to upload photos after this one.. so all words from now! go view fb if u wanna see the photos.

anw life here is not as bad as i imagined it to be.. the streets are clean except for the ocassional spitting. there are sunny days here too! lol. but mostly it's quite hazy. the only fact abt china is the disgusting public toilets. it's really juz a hole and v dirty. thou i nv used one bcoz i really cant stand it, i can still imagine the dirtiness.. act i cant understand why they dunwan to revamp the toilets! everything else is not bad but why leave such a bad impression on toilets.. weird.

oh and the number of cockroaches are getting lesser! it's a gd sign but there are still ocassional appearances. but at least now we dare to use the kitchen and we dun scream as loud when we see cockroaches. the process is so funny. from screaming extremely loud, jumping ard getting goosebumps and using pesticide to frantically kill them for the first night.. to juz screaming and stepping on them (bcoz we were still wearing slippers ard the house then) for the next few days, bcoz we realised stepping is so much more efficient, the roaches are too small to be sprayed at.. then to now when we just comment when we see one and use tissue paper to kill them.. totally immuned!

ok shall stop here. tml is another long day with a short break.. and huangfang started this daily routine whereby we have to memorise 5 方歌 everyday. 方歌 means those poems tt are supposed to facilitate us in memorising all the tcm formulary. we memorised 5 ystd but today i haven memorise yet! it's so diff to rem all and i think it's a good system so muz really keep to the routine if not we will juz study 1 day slack 3 days..

blogger sux! dunnoe why all the paragraphs stick together one.. zzzzzz

2009-08-27T01:54:00.003+08:00

life is so boring without the internet. it's quite funny tt at this hour everyone in the house is still up... bcoz we juz got the internet up and everyone dun feel like slping already! lol..

so these few days have been busy settling down and buying and REPAIRING all the stuffs in our new apartment. most of the time is repairing stuff. quite bad but we are all glad tt everything is working properly now! we are staying in this 6-storey building that is 10-15min walk to the hospital. staying on the 2nd floor and it's a condo with security guard and all. so it's like pretty safe. the only thing i hate is the number of cockroaches!! i think i am getting immuned to them. maybe after 2 years, i will be a kill-roaches-expert! lol.. the number of roaches i killed in these few days is way over the total number i killed in my entire life! i think i killed more than 50 roaches already! how sickening is that.. but thank god they are the small kind. if they are the same size as those in spore i will juz freak out and move house! so we bought this cockroach poison that is very effective. the number of roaches now is less than 10 per day and they are mostly dead by the time we spotted them. it's a very interesting poison whereby the poison will spread from one roach to another so tt the entire family can be wiped out. but the funny thing is we cannot kill the roaches now when we see them crawling around bcoz we need to let them crawl back to the nest and spread to the others! funny logic right.. it's money-back garantee tt there will be no roaches in the house after 3 days! i hope it works and i am gonna buy a silicon gun to seal all the gaps and cracks in my room soon. any better ideas to seal gaps on the floor? i dunwan the roaches to have a place to hide and reproduce..

wah i wrote such a long paragraph on cockroach killing. lol. so today we finally went touring! we went to 圆明园 in the afternoon and it's HUGE!! we spent nearly 5 hours there juz walking around and taking photos! the most tiring day ever. but it was fun.. we finally got to be tourist and do all the funny things. will upload photos soon and let them do the talking ba. too lengthy to explain.. tml we are going 故宫! another day of walking.. craziness i would say.. china is juz too huge! everything need to walk so far..

tts all for now! gotta go slp le.. anw i got a phone line here and i have my address le.. those who wanna know juz let me know k! =)

2009-08-19T11:49:00.002+08:00

last blog entry in spore!!

leaving for beijing tonight.. the sad and dun really wanna go feeling is starting to creep in. but at the same time i feel excited about the independent living experience. all set and ready to go! 25kg luggage.. pretty heavy but lucky my mum is gonna visit me in sept. she is helping me bring all the other stuffs tt are too heavy.

met up with alot of friends recently. have been going out almost everyday for the past 2 weeks. girlfriends, oac, sports comm, anderson, uni, mj kakis, juz to name a few... ystd met up with girlfriends in ntu and juz chilled.. twin treated us to ice cream and drinks! and ying treated us to fruits! happiness.. =)

got to go out soon to meet my sis for lunch den go law firm for the condo thing den dinner den airport! i will try to update my blog more often when i am in china! keep in touch and check out fb for photos next time! anw i will cancel my spore line so dun try to contact me with tt number.

byebye little red dot! i will miss all of ur.

2009-07-30T13:21:00.002+08:00

i am finally back! haha been neglecting this blog for too long. act there's alot of things i wanna blog about but juz kept putting it off to the point tt i cant really rem wat i wanted to blog abt already. anw had been busy with fyp thesis writing for the past few weeks. finally done!! tml is the submission date. waiting for shuling to finish hers den we can go print it out and see wats the effect. been slacking for ystd and today coz nothing to do and dun really feel like starting on the poster yet. helped shuling with her references ystd and maybe we will proofread each other's one later after she is done.

recently, i've been in a drama mood. finished watching one taiwan drama in juz 2 days! "痞子英雄".. very very very nice show! it's a police show starring 仔仔 and 赵又廷.. i think it's a very well-written script. the plot makes u wanna keep watching it to find out whats the ending gonna be like. strongly recommend ur to watch if ur have the time! now watching another taiwan drama. gonna start on "金田一" after i am done with this!

oh and a super "lucky" thing happened to me today! while driving to school, i stopped at the traffic light tt's right after u exit PIE jln bahar. it was red light so i was waiting there den suddenly sandy water started pouring down. it looks like the pipe burst or something, not sure. the worst thing is i cant move off bcoz it's red light!! so i can only watch my car get dirtier and dirtier by the minute. and it's really v dirty, trust me. it looks like someone juz vomitted all over the car. yucks! gonna go for car wash later. no way i am washing tt myself!

our lab is turning into an apple centre.. 4 new apple imac juz arrived at the lab and everybody in lab are using macbook pro!! craziness. they shld be paid for the amount of advertising they do for mac everyday in lab. they are the number one fans! but i muz say mac really looks nice. maybe will try next time. lol

2009-06-15T13:15:00.003+08:00

it's monday again! monday blues, so here i am blogging. got nthing much to do in lab today and i am feeling kinda sick. so shall blog abt some happy stuff to brighten up the day. upload photos some other day..

celebrated my bdae with meiling, junie, june, jingwen, michelle on 10th june. act it was a combined celebration for june (10th june), junie (25th june) and my bdae. went to mr curry at the central and as usual, we gossiped! laughed at all the weirdos in our school and not forgetting the one person tt we do not fail to mention everytime during our gatherings. it was a lovely evening and we are meeting again on 22nd! sembawang buckaroo it will be. thank you meiling for tking all the trouble to organize the outing! loves..

friday morning and afternoon were spent in lab analyzing my results. but it wasnt boring at all. lunch was settled at sakae sushi in NTU with shuling, huangfang, yueyou. our fav orders for the day were avocado and salmon! almost all the sushi we ordered contain either of them. it was a relaxing lunch and thanz for the treat!

dinner was yet another celebration with my family, at jumbo seafood. i love the dinner bcoz my aunts are here in spore and it's a rare chance for them to celebrate it with me. so it was a big gathering with my aunts, uncles, sisters and bfs and mum! had a sumptious spread and of coz not forgetting the cake and photo-takings. i totally love this kind of simple gatherings.
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saturday i carried out my duty as a tour guide and brought my aunts around sentosa. but they werent v fascinated by the stuffs bcoz taiwan seems to have better versions of them. stayed at amara sanctuary resort, not worth the price i wld say.

sunday was shopping at vivo! finally bought my new phone! samsung ultra touch.. thanz sisters!! love it.. =) no problems for now.. in the evening, went to mt faber and visited the henderson wave. it was my first time there too. nthing v special, but i guess it will look much nicer at night with all the lightings. at night went to jb to pump petrol with adrian driving his car too. super exciting experience, bcoz we were competing to see whos luck was better with all the queues. we ended up reaching home at the same time! cool... both experienced drivers.

today was pretty bored in lab until juz moments ago when sthing super stupid and funny happened. i was reading a paper on my laptop and left my laptop on the table when i went to do my stuff in lab. when i came back, i realised that the paper was in the background and i cant seem to close it. so i restarted my laptop but the paper was still there. den i tot sthing was wrong with my laptop. den eric and prof li started laughing!! so they were the ones tt changed my laptop wallpaper to the paper. no wonder it cant be closed! lame! and eric was still saying tt this is considered mild. last time they tried changing someone's screensaver to error messages, so tt it will keep popping up. scary! lab ppl are easily entertained dun u agree.. lol!

ps. thank you sisters for the phone and meiling for the cap! i love them.. thank you to all those who wished me happy bdae too! this wld probably be my last bdae in spore for the next 2yrs...

2009-06-07T23:36:00.002+08:00

human beings really are a unique species. one moment u can feel so motivated and happy, but an image or a word can suddenly trigger so many thoughts in ur mind tt makes ur mood swing juz liddat.

ever wondered whats ur purpose in life??

to meet someone u deeply love?
to earn big bucks and lead a luxurious life?
to pursue ur dreams?
to fight for survival?
to make an impact on someone else's life or even the world?
or simply to wake up everyday juz so tt u can look forward to the next?

many a times ppl juz live for the sake of living. isn't tt sad? days juz pass by without u noticing it. and even if u know what ur purpose in life is, do u know how to go about achieving it? no wonder ppl say life is tough....

u grow up with ppl telling u u are the best. even when schooling gets tougher and the society gets more complicated as u grow up, u are expected to keep tt faith in them. so is it more difficult to be the one holding the faith or the one tt keeps the faith alive? tough to say huh. to complicate things further, is the faith tt they are holding the same as the one in ur heart? if not, whos do u pursue?

so many questions but no answers. i guess there are no absolute answers to all this. sometimes u juz wish tt maybe after a drink or two, the answers will present themselves to u. but 5 drinks still din work out for me. but i totally enjoyed tt night. carefree and quiet. maybe tts the purpose in life. thank you for the company. it was great.

an apple for dinner is not healthy. (but an apple a day keeps the doctor away.. hmmm)

i juz wish for my cells to grow well! please.... stop giving me weird results tt even post-doc cant explain and stop dying! i really need ur coorporation to keep the faith alive. i really do.

2009-05-30T15:33:00.002+08:00

how many bad things can happen in a day (28th may)..

1) man utd losing in champions league
2) losing streak for mj
3) cells getting contaminated with bacteria
4) rejected for scholarship

all these happened in a time span of 24hrs. how depressing can tt get. not to mention tt i got a parking fine 2 days before this unlucky day..

so gotta throw away all the stuff and re-make all the solutions and sterilize all the working areas. finally can start the expt again this coming monday. hope nothing goes wrong again. act i am a little sick of lab already. but still gotta hang on! so pls be nice, cells!

kinda expected to be rejected for scholarship since i wasnt really prepared for the theory test. but kinda sad coz to think of it, i have never succeeded in applying for anything i wanted, be it scholarship, course of study etc.

i promised myself tt i will start drafting my thesis when june comes. cannot keep putting it off le. so tt means more papers to read and less mj sessions during wkdays when i end early in lab. gambatte!! now i am going to watch 败犬女王 and later in the evening might be going down to support the car wash event done by the cambodia peeps.

2009-05-22T01:28:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD!!!

I am totally stunned by my results, in a good way thou.. now i got a shot at keeping my first class. all i need is an A for my fyp. so much more motivation for fyp now!!

I was prepared for the worse bcoz of the tough modules but in the end, patho gt A- thou the teacher told us during the first lesson tt the average grade for the seniors were C. ge jia got B thou i din know the answers for 60marks of the test. viro and wen bing gt my expected results.. cannot really believe it although it is not terrific results, but my fyp matters to me now. gpa is currently 4.44 (such an unlucky number).. juz 0.06 short of first class. can u imagine how sian i would be if there is no fyp to keep my hopes alive. lol.. anw i always do better for BS modules and i have more confidence in them.. so i wonder why i am in BMS now.. kinda inappropriate right.. hmmm..

ystd went for the scholarship test and another stunning thing. but this time in the bad way. guess how many ppl went for it?? 9!!! so few.... maybe i should feel honoured thou it's only the first round. but maybe only 10+ ppl applied? u nv know.. muahahaz..

we were all stunned bcoz we thought it's a test of 基础, so we all went to study tt module again.. in the end, it was 2 case studies and 2 general questions. case studies are usually what we dread in exams bcoz we juz cant rem all the 方剂.. think they might laugh when they review our answers.. the 2 general questions were alright. they asked about the values of a good physician and how we can gain trust and credibility with the patients. i wrote integrity, attitude, responsibility, willingness to learn, daring but at the same time stick to the principles etc... juz to name a few.. results will be out in 1 to 2 weeks time.. not holding much hopes, but it will be a bonus to be able to get into the next round of interview..

i am happy today.. although i juz lost at mj and my expt results din really follow the trend i wanted.. =)

2009-05-16T23:26:00.003+08:00

we are the CHAMPIONS!!!

glory glory man utd! another year running now.. we are going strong! thank you to all those who contributed to this success! ur are a great team.. =)

but i din get to see their moment juz now, coz i went to watch the nonya drama with my mum. of coz it's free tix, tts y we went.. it was not bad. but typical spore production. singing wasnt perfect but they do have several good laughing points..

this post is dedicated to MANCHESTER UNITED and all the fans out there!!

2009-05-14T16:51:00.003+08:00

blogging in lab again! this shows how slack i am. lol. today din do anything at all in lab. all i did was facebook, blog, mails, study for my scholarship test. none related to lab! lol.. and guess wat. i already have a set of results to use.. ystd i analyzed my results for the first round of work, not tt bad.. happy.. now gotta repeat but trying out other conditions. but muz wait for the cells to grow to a certain confluency first! and it's like growing at a rate of 10% per day.. super slow!! dunnoe y oso. tts y these few days i gt nthing much to do. totally at the mercy of the cells. haha..

later going jb to pump petrol and eat seafood with oac friends again.. fun! but i am having a little headache now, maybe bcoz i spent too much time looking at the comp. or maybe coz eric has got a headache too! ya i know, totally no link.. =p

man u is 1 pt away from lifting the epl trophy!! great shot carrick!

2009-05-11T22:39:00.009+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

louis, adrian, me, sisters, mum, adrian's mum

ystd was mother's day! went to celebrate at aquamarine @ marina mandarin hotel.. it was an asian style lunch buffet. not as fantastic as i imagined it to be, maybe bcoz of the asian theme. expected more of a seafood theme, but it's the company tt matters. =)

Every year, we do self-made cards for mother's day

thank you mum for everything u've done! i know it's been hard and u are really a tough woman. always my idol!

love u forever! muackz...

2009-05-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

haven blog for quite awhile. anw man u is in the champions league finals!! totally deserving.. killed off the game in juz 10mins. way to go! now is barca's turn..

these few days were really tiring. tue slept for 1hr den ystd slept for 2hrs.. lunch has always been at 4pm for the past few days, because of lab. all the weird timings but i guess i am used to it le. i can eat 2 meals a day now and not feel hungry.

blogging in lab now bcoz gotta wait 1hr plus for the cell to grow. later still muz go for tuition! i wanna go home and sleep!

ystd night was games session at shimin's house. the usual gang turned up and we had lotsa fun! we tried playing uno stacko and jenga together by stacking them on top of each other. super challenging and was hilarious! after tt played cluedo. it was my first time playing tt game and i think it's fun! test ur analytical skills.. then we played snatch scrabble. the game was dominated by sik, jialiang and sadi. they are juz too fast.. ended the night with asshole daidee. by the time i reached home, it was already 5am! and i reached school at 8am today.. zzzzz

oh wanna mention the 9 tai game tt i won at mj tt night!! super exiciting and it feels so shiok to game 9 tai! had 2 animals plus zhong, fa cai, nan, and pong pong ban se. my biggest win in a game to date. and it was on the night tt man u won.. happiness! tt night my house turned into a gambling den again. played mj, texas holdem and 21 until 7 plus am.. of coz it's with the crazy bunch of zhenyou, jinkok, kunting and sik again!

2009-05-05T13:13:00.002+08:00

i am back from KL! it was a pretty relaxing trip. had fun travelling with them.. shall blog about the trip some other time..

ystd was the first day of fyp. din do much. prepared all the necessary solutions and did some literature research. gotta wait till tml for the cells to be ready. eric said tt next week will be a busy week.

anw on thurs (30th april), was out with my mum for the whole afternoon. it was great to spend time together and revert back to the old times. we went to chinatown to book hotel for her bintan trip with my aunts. all my aunts are coming to spore in june! how exciting.. looking forward to their stay here. while she was doing her booking, i was observing this foot massage shop opposite the agency. so we decided to go do a foot massage and it was my first time! it was painful, trust me.. but it was a wonderful day for me.

it's gonna be soccer and mj again later! nowadays upgraded to playing maximum 10 tai with jinkok, kunting and zhenyou.. but their luck is really good. always zi mo no matter the guarding skills. before i left for KL, we had this "mj camp" going on at my house. they came to my house for 3 consecutive days and i think we played nearly 30hrs of mj. even my mum said tt we are abit mad. lol. but mj can be so addictive, dun u agree? we were saying next time we should live near each other, but liddat really no need to work le. hahaz.

man u is gonna win tonight!!

2009-04-27T13:21:00.004+08:00

i used to like home alone. the liberty to do anything i like. but now i kinda wish i dunhaf so much free time. so much time for my thoughts to run wild. i juz wanna be pre-occupied with alot of stuff.

我真的不知道怎么办。就像走到了尽头。为什么一切来得这么突然，却又不能走得一样的突然？我从来没有这么彷徨过，从来没有。这是我第一次看到姐姐如此的心碎，就连他们都不知道如何是好。

我想最好的办法就是等时间冲淡一切，可是我不想这么做，因为我怕。我怕时间也同时会把感情冲淡。我怕到时我的心已经承受不了。但是除了这样，我们已经想不到别的出路了。

当你听着快乐的歌时也会鼻酸，事情已经不再简单。当你走在路上时也想流泪，心痛的感觉已经不再陌生。

i miss the feeling of happiness. whenever i look at my laptop's wallpaper, i feel even more sad. but at least now i feel sad. like wat a friend said, i dunwan to reach the state where i no longer feel sad, but feel jaded. i hope u are ok too.

2009-04-24T19:14:00.008+08:00

exams are over!! ystd had my last paper in ntu. time really flies.. going to start my student life in beijing really soon.

finally done with the 2.5kg patho book!

so the much awaited singing session is finally here! we went to the central to eat ramen first. "marutama ra-men".. very nice!! ur shld go try some day. it's a really authentic ramen shop tt sells only 3 types of ramen. and meiling said the boss and his son are really handsome. too bad we din get to see them ystd.

went to $10 ktv to sing. it was really fun! i picked up quite a number of songs tt are really nice.. i recommend "突然想起你" by elva hsiao. catchy tune. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zznpb-cQ5lQ shall go and d/l them soon. and we got to listen to brandon's 成名曲 - 霍元甲 and one night in 北京 again.. he's really good at the high pitch part! speechless..

i finally got to sing 家后 with eileen... it's a hokkien song tt is really v nice. my fav hokkien song! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8eJP4kwQJVs listen to it if u have the time! it's v v touching..

left at about 1120pm coz they wanted to catch the last train home. took a group photo before leaving. and my camera dropped on the floor after setting the timer!!! heartbroken.. there's a permanent spot on the LCD screen, meiling says it's coz of the mecury leak inside. i hope it doesnt spread.. to make things worst, it's a touch screen camera. haiz. maybe will go and ask how much does the repair cost. it wld've been a perfect evening if not for this..

the crazy bunch! (short of fui chin)

spent the whole day slacking at home today. did some chores and watched drama.. this is wat i call enjoying life... but there are some thoughts tt have been in my mind since wed. i am really quite bothered by it.. dunnoe y she has so little faith in us and y she will have such scary thoughts. 苦尽后一定会甘来吗? 难道你认为我们不能给你幸福吗?

2009-04-16T16:43:00.002+08:00

today has been a great day!

woke up to a fantastic news tt man utd won at porto. what a way to start the day of my first paper.

went to school for viro paper. was manageable i would say. y cant all papers be mcq. lol. wishful thinking of mine.

got home to catch the replay of ronaldo's superb goal. some 40 yards out he pulled a stunning strike. really glad to see ferdinand back, finally man utd's defense showed much more confidence.

liverpool nearly put together the greatest comeback. the match was one of the most exciting ones i have watched recently. but sadly, chelsea prevailed. so many exciting matches coming up. cant wait for exams to end.

back to studying! 7 more days...

2009-04-10T14:36:00.002+08:00

ystd is my last official school day in ntu.. had lotsa fun taking photos with different groups of ppl, but it's kinda sad tt 3yrs passed by so quickly. sbs certainly holds alot of memories, both good and bad ones. although the food in ntu kinda sucks, but we were saying how much we will miss the food when we are in china (tts how bad we imagine the food there to be). lol.. what lies ahead is a whole new chapter of my life in beijing. hope it all goes well..

anw. it's really heartwarming to see that there are so many kind souls out there. thank you to all those who offered their help to the leukemia kid, including those tt i have never even met before. they have found enough blood donors le and i am sure the love ur have shown will help him overcome this obstacle.

13 more days to go..

2009-04-03T16:26:00.010+08:00

IMPT: anbody with B- blood type pls contact me asap!! recently my mum's kindergarten kid was diagnosed with leukemia. He has a rare blood type of B- and the blood bank does not have any storage. He is just 5 years old. so if ur know of anybody with this blood type can help spread the information.. thank you.

anw celebrated mum's bdae ystd!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!

had a simple dinner at home and the cake was her fav cheesecake.. yummy. wish her health always. =)

i can finally upload photos onto blogger using my new laptop!

the other day at M hotel steamboat..

today the school showed us videos made by our seniors in China. mostly were on accomodations there, to give us a sneak preview of our future living. there's really a huge difference depending on the amount u are willing to pay. it's actually quite interesting to decorate ur own place and explore around the place. it will be our turn soon!

20 days to go....

2009-03-31T16:32:00.003+08:00

this sem is gonna be pretty bad. all the modules are tough and din do particularly well for all the quiz except viro. 各家学说 quiz was really really bad.. think it's the worst quiz i've ever done (maybe comparable to pharmaco).. out of 5 open-ended que, i am only confident with 2. and i only wrote 2 lines for the last que, when one que is like 20 marks. tts how bad it is. i hope i can pass. haiz.. dunnoe wats with me this sem. no motivation to study and cant really concentrate. maybe coz i kinda gave up on my 1st class hope. went to do some calculations and i needa get all A or A- to reach tt. kinda impossible after the stupid 各家学说 quiz and the THICK patho book tt lies ahead. okays heck! juz do my best and let things be. after all, my aim is to be a good physician, not a study pro! the real examination starts when i start seeing patients and as the teachers always say, "an A student wun necessarily be an A physician". lol. juz trying to comfort myself here.

sad things aside, many happy things happened too! celebrated my mum's bdae in advance on sat. went to M hotel to have steamboat. nice! i love their prawns and durian puree. and they participated in the Earth hour event, so it was kinda cool. it was so hilarious when my sis bf added too much milk into his tea, coz it's hard to decipher the colour in the dim lighting. lol! so much fun eating as a family. can see tt my mum enjoyed herself too! =)

ystd went to malaysia with libin, huijie and her french bf. drove in to pump petrol and had delicious seafood! crayfish is the best dish there. yummy! no wonder libin is always craving for it. hahaz. huijie and her guy are so cute together! they like to carry out "intellectual" talks. lol. had lotsa fun.. tt libin keeps thinking i am smoking her when i am really telling the truth. i look so sincere, dun i? lol..

tt day bball was not bad. but eric super off form coz he is sick! seems quite bad, hope he recovers soon. lol. i guess there will be no more bball until after exams. tt day while resting at the court, i was thinking how much i will miss bball when i go to china. heard tt there are no bball courts anywhere near. so i suppose such a sight of vibrant bball-ing will be rare. sadz.

back to studying. haiz. cant wait for the 23rd.

2009-03-21T00:58:00.002+08:00

played bball ystd with the sbs bball gang. super tiring but it was fun! dinner session after tt was super funny too. listening to them gossip abt all kinds of ppl and eric really makes a good comedy actor! whatever he acts out is like super funny. v contrasting thou. he potrays this cool cool look but is so amusing at times and he is so serious at work. i want to learn canto! someone teach me. lol.

today met shimin and kel for dinner at jp. went to lai lai to eat beef noodles! finally some taiwan food.. kel crazily ordered 4 side dishes when there are only 3 of us.. on top of tt, we stil ordered one main course each. chit-chatted and did some catching up. quite long nv meet le.

after tt, we went "ji de chi" to eat dessert. i think we muz be too full to think straight. so full and yet we decided to eat desserts. lol. shared durian pomeolo and sesame paste. the durian pomeolo really quite nice. but sinful! kel is still so lame! we spent more time laughing than eating. laughed until shimin thinks she gt indigestion. lol. reminded me of the anderson days when we kept laughing too for no reason. it's so stress-relieving! i miss my sec school days!!

anw champions league quarterfinals draw is out! man u vs porto! liverpool vs chelsea.. v gd draw.. lol. all the way!

2009-03-16T21:46:00.002+08:00

he looked so shuai with his specs on!! bu kui is my eye candy..

2009-03-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

i gt a new laptop! asus f8Vr maroon colour.. part of my survival kit in china.. lol. my mum was saying muz put the whole family with super smiley faces as the wallpaper.. felt a tiny bit sad when she said tt..

so IT fair was really crowded. i went on fri with friends to check out the various options first. collected all the brochures and brought home for my sis bf (IT pro) reference. after IT fair, went for dinner and then dessert at swensens. sok ling told us a loophole abt "earthquake".. it's chaeaper to order 2 "topless five" with toppings instead. u'll get 2 additional scoopes too. had lotsa fun chit-chatting with them. laugh until literally stomach pain.

today went IT fair again to get the laptop. this time was much better coz we already decided on the one to get so we went straight to the booth. got a pretty good discounted price coz shuling and shixuan oso bought the same laptop. the specs are quite good, juz tt it's a little heavy. support taiwan brand!! lol..

ystd went to play mj with jeep, ivy and yj.. and i gamed a 地胡! woah.. my first time. really nice tiles. i was waiting for 东 or 八筒. and the first tile jeep threw was 东. shiok! so now, for all the special combinations, i only gamed 大三元 and 地胡 before. gambatte. lol.

after tt went to watch man u vs liverpool match at the new man u bar at clarke quay. was there with sis, her bf and their friends. we stood for the whole match coz it was too crowded. juz wanted to experience the atmosphere for the first time. it was really overwhelming, especially when the liverpool bar is juz next to the man u bar.. the supporters are competing among themselves while the clubs are battling on the field. but to our disappointment, man u lost.. v poor defending i would say.. wat happened to vidic.. red card again! but nvm! man u is still gonna win the overall championship. "glory glory man united..... as the reds go marching hoi hoi hoi!"

recently been having poor quality sleep. every night there will be weird dreams tt are terrifying. i wld wake up to be relieved tt everything was juz a dream. wed night i even woke up every hour from 3am to 6am. cldnt even sleep for consecutive hours. nt sure wat is wrong. maybe i'm abit affected by the passing away of a really good friend's gmom. it brought back memories of my gmom and how disappointed and angry i m with the spore doctors. dun they even know how to make the right diagnosis after so many scans and tests. when everything was discovered back in taiwan, it was too little too late. a life cld have been saved right here right then if they were more careful in their diagnosis. all i can say is doctors here are too protected by the law. tt might be an influencing factor why i dunwan to be juz a doctor, i want to be a competent one. if i cant reach the standards, then i rather not be one. hey girl, if u are reading this, hope u are doing fine and be strong k. ur mum needs u and u still have us.

"we go from loving them in the presence to loving them in the absence. through opposition we grow stronger."

2009-03-02T20:30:00.001+08:00

today is the start of our self-declared recess week. lol. coz our teacher for the next tcm module is not in spore yet. his flight was postponed or sthing. he will only be here next week. so 赵老师 is taking over for this week before she flies back to china on sat.

finally it's freedom day after all the exams and quizes. i love the feeling.

温病 exam was tough. mcqs were the trickiest i think. but i felt kinda happy after the exam. nt tt i thought i have done well, but i was happy tt i could analyse the 病案 que, bcoz to me, tts the most practical part of any module. afterall, the aim of doctors is to diagnose patients accurately and cure them. a nice end to a module tt i really enjoyed.

viro quiz today was easy. quite surprising coz i only spent less than a day studying for it. quite a feat! happy.

so many happy moments recently.. kbox with bms peeps after our tcm exam. man utd winning carling cup! totally worth my sleeping time last night staying up to watch. movies today after our viro quiz, though it's a sad movie. i really cried during the show, think it's the first time i cried in cinemas. the most i did last time was tear. catch "marley and me" if u love dogs!

but amidst all these, a really saddening thing happened in NTU today. a final yr EEE student stabbed his fyp prof and committed suicide after tt (slit his wrist and jumped off a building). the prof is in stable conditions now but the student was pronounced dead on the spot. when i heard it, it really sent shivers down my spine, had goosebumps and all. cant believe tt such a thing act happened so near me. it's a pity how life is treated so lightly. all these because of a fyp? is it even worth it? haiz. treasure life ppl.

my mum suddenly asked me ystd if i am really keen on going china. hmmmz... it remains a doubtful ans.

2009-02-21T18:00:00.002+08:00

dunnoe how to describe my feelings now. just feel like i cant breathe properly. nothing is wrong. it's juz a sudden thing. maybe the stress for the past few days is getting to me, esp when i know tt more is to come for the following wk.

had pathology quiz ystd. felt tt i cld have done much better. haiz. too much last min work again. i so wanna get rid of this bad habit of mine. but it juz seems to be getting worst. i woke up at 4am on thurs juz to finish studying for the quiz. it's my first time ever doing such stuff. i usually believe in a good night's sleep the day before any exam.

anw ystd was quite a crazy day. went for patho quiz with juz 3hrs sleep. after tt went for vaccine injection against hepatitis A and B (in preparation for china). then went for bball in school. and i survived!! how amazing. tot i will end up fainting or sthing, bcoz alot of my classmates gt side effects after taking the jab. and i felt perfectly alright even after strenous exercise and a lack of sleep.

played IG bball for the past wkend and we got silver yet again! my 3rd silver for this year. quite sad bcoz it was our last chance to get a gold in ntu.

oh and i haven played mj for quite awhile. 2 wks i think. quite proud of myself tt i can abstain for so long. lol. maybe i will start getting withdrawal symptoms soon.

i think maybe i shld go eat some 逍遥散 for my 肝郁. maybe later i go shoot some hoops.

i feel tired. i need some motivation.

ps. will like to say a big thank you to our 温病学 teacher, 赵老师. she really inspired me alot and helped to reignite my flame for tcm. whenever i feel discouraged, her words will ring in my mind and i feel "alive" again. she's the best teacher we've ever had, really. 真的很谢谢你老师!! =)

2009-01-31T23:30:00.001+08:00

i m finally blogging! after many attempts by friends to ask me to. so many things to update! shall juz do a short summary for everything, if not it will end up a super long post.

16th jan
captain's ball finals! sadly, history repeated itself and we lost to NIE again, two yrs running. but it was a well fought match. really proud of our players. and i was honoured to be man-marked by jean (ivp for both netball and bball!). they realised our strategy (with me as the main shooter) not long after the match started. so i had to try really hard to run into free space, which was tough bcoz they are juz so atheletic! endless stamina and energy. so i gt 2 silvers (bball and captain's ball) and 1 bronze (netball) for ISG this yr. nt tt bad, but still din manage to obtain a gold. haiz.

17th jan
anderson homecoming! went back to anderson sec for alumni gathering cum opening of the indoor sports hall. played bball with juniors and felt so old! xinying intro-ed me to her sis and this was wat she said, "she is my senior, she is 6yrs older than u". omg! i feel so old.. but the girls are zai, they are national champs. had dinner with my gfs and it was so funny! keep laughing and laughing..

cny is one of my fav festivals of the year. thou i dunhaf any relatives in spore for me to go 拜年, but i love the atmosphere and of coz the mahjong! lol.. but i wld love to have more ang bows too (only 6 for now).. to date, i've had 6 mj sessions! i know it sounds crazy but it's cny! tml gonna have another one and i will update again on my overall winnings at the end of cny. lol.

ystd had reunion dinner with my uni mates. 麻辣火锅 at sin ming. it's air-conditioned and alacarte form of ordering. much like the one at shaw building, but better. the most exotic dish they have there is pig's brain! it's one of my fav, but ever since there was some disease a long time back, it's getting more and more diff to find pig's brain. not even found in markets now. really love them when my mum cooks it with bak kut teh last time.

today was a v eventful day! went prawning with jee peng at the bishan prawning place. $10 per hour per rod for 3hrs. we shared one rod coz it was my first time there. when he was explaining to me the techniques for prawning, we caught our first prawn! super fast, not even a minute i think. soon after, i caught one too! our original spot and maybe luck, were pretty good. ard 2hrs later, it started to rain, so we shifted under the shelter and since then, we only caught less than 5 i think. in total, we got ard 15 and jee peng was saying it's quite disappointing. maybe bcoz there were too many ppl. next time muz choose those ulu timing go. there was this v interesting couple who looked really stern throughout the entire prawning process. they gt no expression at all and they dun talk to each other. jee peng was saying maybe the prawns are gonna be their food for the entire wk, tts y so serious. lol! so funny la. but it was really fun experience, much more entertaining than fishing. i brought all the prawns home. next time shld try cooking them there, shld be really fresh and nice.

after tt, we went kpool at amk. he is quite zai at pool! i think i need more training. lol. but at least i learnt how to break today! quite an achievement. last time everytime i break, the balls juz wun move. and i learnt abit of aiming. so he's my teacher for the day, both at prawning and pooling. 名师出高徒啊! thanz for all the treats man! it was v gentleman of u. =)

my sis bf juz told me mid march gt man u vs liverpool! big match and they are thinking of going man u bar to watch. i think it will be pretty fun. looking forward to it..

i really gotta start studying next wk, at least abit. and cut down on mj. this time i am serious. lol. if not no time to study for patho, viro and tcm. alot of quiz and exam coming up.

lastly, wish everybody 牛年快乐！身体健康心想事成！

2009-01-09T14:00:00.003+08:00

first week of school!

pretty slack but i can feel the stress already, maybe juz abit.. our tcm quiz is coming up real soon. like 1 and a half weeks later. so early!! and we dun even have the txtbk yet..

our teachers this sem are all nice i think! 温病学 teacher is super sarcastic! but she is v funny in her own way and she has the taiwanese slang of speaking. she uses phrases like "N 多次", which is so taiwanese! maybe tts y i like her.. hahaz. and she got endless stories to tell to make the lessons more interesting. i din fall asleep for any of the lessons, which is quite an achievement! lol.

pathology teacher is cool too! he's from SGH and he got specs like those of 方大同. lol. he's really animated and funny too. this is wat i call a good lecturer. able to deliver his knowledge in class and not juz reading off slides. sbs has none. they shld recruit more lecturers like him, seriously. but the module itself sounds quite scary. he said tt the average grade the seniors gt was C, pretty sledom wld u see an A or a B. at tt moment, i was thinking there goes my 4.5. lol. but i m sure i can do it!

virology teacher was not bad too. but i dun have high hopes for sbs lecturers. lol. shall observe further for the remaining lectures. anw, i m so proud of myself for reading the notes before the lecture! hahaz. it's been sthing i wanted to achieve ever since yr 1, but nv did. a few months ago, i was telling june and wm tt i muz achieve it this sem, since it's my last sem in NTU. lol. i hope i can keep it up for the remaining lectures, and not just lec 1!

anw we had a talk this week and prof tam (the creator of the double degree program) told us tt 9 seniors failed their first sem in beijing and only 1 gt A. sounds pretty scary. and he was saying we will get a 3rd degree from NTU when we come back (but it sounds more like he is saying sthing tt is not even finalised). anw after we grad, we will need to clock 400hrs of clinical practice before we can sit for the licensing exam in spore. so we will be coming back ard july in 2011 and the licensing exam is held every yr in oct. tt means we probably wun have enough time, so we gotta take the exam the following yr. hence, we can only bcum licensed physician in the year 2012. sounds like a long way to go...

i wanna blog abt my egypt trip but sthing seems to be wrong with either my laptop or my blog. i cant upload photos onto my blog so it's pointless to blog since it'll be so boring without photos.

got this from twin's blog. way to go colin! check this out and vote for colin teo! http://www.freezecollegemag.com/college/10109_contest.php

2009-01-02T23:00:00.002+08:00

today's mood: moody and emotional

it's definitely not bcoz of the gathering with my gfs juz now, maybe it's juz not the day for me.

went to chomps to celebrate ying's bdae. everything was fine before they decided to chill out at icecube. i dunnoe y (maybe i do but dunwan to voice it out here), but i juz dun like to go to tt place. thou tt place is full of fond memories with them, coz it's already the 3rd time we were there together, it's juz not strong enough to overcome the other feeling..

and the service SERIOUSLY sux. they dun deserve the 10% service charge at all. 3 different ppl came to repeat our order and they still cant get it right! we were so exasperated tt we cancelled the order in the end.

i m sorry if i spoilt the mood. i wanna share with ur the thoughts in my mind, esp when katty started the "heart-to-heart" topic, but i guess it's juz not the right place to do it. it will surely last for more than 3min. lol.

tt aside, it's 2009!! 2008 was not the year for me. alot of lessons learnt and alot of footprints left behind. and i truly hope tt 2009 will be a better year. so my new year resolutions will be short and to the point. i hope tt i can focus and forget; study harder; less mahjong; more time with family; most imptly, survive in china!

to twin: pls choose ur path carefully after u grad. go for law if ur mind is already set, even if it requires overseas studies. pretty random here, but i juz dunwan u to regret, bcoz it hurts.

my hands are cold as i type this...

2008-12-30T13:23:00.003+08:00

ystd morning was full of disappointment and sadness....

results came out ystd and it was way way below my expectations. maybe i got too high expectations to begin with? but wat disappoints me the most is tt i din do well for my TCM modules yet again.. all the while, i've done great for my BS modules, nv gt any Bs for those modules. but for tcm modules, it's been going down a slippery slope.. from A+ to C, i've gt all these grades before.. maybe i shld transfer to BS and be a better researcher as compared to an average physician...

i was full of confidence tt i wld excel for this sem's papers, esp plant bio and 金贵. i even left like one hour earlier for the 金贵 paper. but in the end, all i gt for 金贵 was B+... haiz.. but luckily plant bio din disappoint me at all.. i cant figure out wats the reason behind this. i m so confident tt i will get at least a 90 for my 金贵 paper, but maybe i was overconfident.. or maybe it's the damn skewed bell-curve.. everyone muz have done so well tt maybe a point or two is the difference between two grades.. we only have 67 ppl in class, so i guess maybe only 10 ppl can get a particular grade?

what's done have been done, so no point brooding over it.. new sem new hopes!! it's gonna be my last sem in NTU, so i'm gonna work doubly hard and end it with a blast! actually it's bcoz i desperately need the blast to maintain my 4.5... lol

anw thanz to june, vincent and bruno for the wonderful singing session ystd! i totally din regret going for it coz ur juz brightened up my day despite the awful morning.. they are really a bunch of crazy peeps.. din noe tt there r ppl out there tt can b crazier than june.. lol. it's a compliment. vincent is one of them man.. it's so enjoyable singing with them! those hu know us, come along next time! but i gotta sing the "传说" duet myself again, so sadz.. y u nv go, wm.. looking forward to the next singing session when school starts!

ps.. suntec kbox is shiok! coz v few ppl go there so they dun really chase u away after ur designated time is up.. we sang for an additional 1 and a half hr and they only came in twice to tell us tt it's the last song.. it's the first time ever tt i gt to sing finish the whole song list! and tt we left on our own accord bcoz we din wanna sing anymore..

2008-12-22T22:00:00.009+08:00

so many thoughts in my mind, but i muz blog abt our wonderful bball match today! i shall blog this whole post in purple in glory of SBS! lol..

SBS bball gals rockz big time! we finally entered the finals of ISG and despite getting silver, we are all very contended.

it was an easy semis against CEE (finally revenged!), but to our surprise, our opponent in the finals is HSS instead of NIE. HSS is really strong, bcoz cheryl poon came down and they have 2 more IVPs. but ISG rules only cap 1 IVP per team and national player is not considered IVP.. i find it kinda stupid, coz nationals is confirm as strong, if not stronger than IVP. they shld juz cap 1 IVP/Nationals per team.

so we went in with an attitude tt silver is gd enough for us, coz we have no IVP at all. we only have VIP, no IVP (right shuling? lol. inside joke..) we juz wanna play a friendly and nice match. to our surprise, we led all the way until the start of the 4th quarter. with 10 secs left in the match, we were trailing by juz 3 pts. so exciting! but couldnt run into space to find a good look at the basket. in the end, we lost by 5pts..

but we really enjoyed the game and i thought we played really well. yinyue was on fire and the 2 consecutive 3 pointers by me and shuling were really superb. xinying's guarding skills on cheryl were really good and huizhi really put in her all despite her knee probs.

they had cheryl poon and 1 IVP on the court eveytime. i think our teamwork totally matched their individual skills! teamwork was awesome and i will really miss this kind of feeling. i guess there will be v few chances for us to play together again in an official match like this. it was a wonderful ending to our 3 yrs in SBS..

from 4th in yr 1, to 3rd in yr 2, and finally 2nd in yr 3!

thanks to all my wonderful teammates!! shuling, yinyue, xinying, huizhi, aileen! and to all others who came down to help for the other matches. ur were awesome. and of coz the supporters for the motivation and cheers! =)

oh did i mention tt they gt professional referees to come down for the 3rd/4th and finals matches.. and so qiao, they were our referees from north division during anderson sec times.. i still remember them.. the fat fat uncle is still so cute.. lol..

anw i hope i dun suffer from concussion after my head hit the ground juz now. haha. i think i really too light.. juz now gt hit by cheryl den i went flying to the ground. (ok maybe abit exaggerated. lol) hit the back of my head and it was really quite painful at tt pt of time. but luckily no serious after-effects..

i m so happy now! yet at the same time sianz. but i am happy! yeah... =)

2008-12-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

i am in a real good mood today.. dunwan to get affected by this irritating issue again! nobody is accusing u of anything! we juz tot tt it was u all along. now tt u told us it's not, i juz need some time to convince myself tt maybe it's not u. but if it's not u, it is juz scaring the hell out of me. who is tt person tt knows me so well, knows exactly where i live and is so concerned abt me. since tt day, i m so scared whenever i go home late. even in the evening time, i m more cautious.. it's seriously interfering in my daily life.

since it's not u, den it's not u. no need to try so hard juz to explain our distance...

i always wanted to be friends again with u, but since u have no intentions at all or whatsoever, den forget it.. since u might think tt it was my fault tt i gave up so easily! in the first place, THE GIRL shouldn't even have been ard to make me give up so EASILY...

i cant move on it's my problem! since u're already so distant from me as u claimed, den dun care abt my issues and my problems.... i m not blaming u at all.. seriously.

2008-12-20T22:52:00.005+08:00

was gonna blog abt my egypt trip but while i was surfing the other blogs, i saw something really disturbing.. it's freaking me out!!

so plsss, can the "one person" or "一个人" juz admit who u r? i really dun like the feeling of knowing tt there is someone out there who knows me so well but i dunnoe who tt person is..

y wld u wanna hide ur identity when u wanna show concern and when ur intentions are good to begin with.. somehow it has helped me along the way, but it's totally freaking me out now..

if it's u, y dun u wanna admit? if it's not u, can the person juz tell me hu u are...
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anw ISG bball started on thurs and SBS gals got into the semis! we will be facing CEE during semis and it's revenge time! last yr we lost to them in semis and ended up getting 3rd. this yr it's not gonna happen again! we are going to the finals to face NIE and at least secure a 2nd! i think we have a shot against NIE this yr.. coz we will have our full strength on mon.. shuling and yizhen came back from hols, so we have me, shuling, yinyue, xinying, wanqing, yizhen, huizhi, aileen and mabel! our best line-up for the past 3 yrs.. cant wait for mon! =)

but thurs really screwed up.. really angryz with the bball in-charge school. the original schedule was supposed to be 7am for the guys match, but they changed it to 8am w/o informing us! and their refreeing suckz.. the refree dun even know tt jump ball was scraped ages ago! dotzzzz.... i hope they have more professional refrees in the semis and finals..

so i volunteered to fetch zhenwei and weichao to school bcoz even if they tk the first train, they wun be able to reach by 7. zhenwei really v nice to offer me breakfast when he got on my car! thanz for the bread and coffee! =)

so we reached at ard 645am! who on earth goes to school so early juz to play bball... and we managed to c the sunrise at src.. can u imagine.. so ridiculous..

prof li was really nice to provide us with $50 to buy drinks. he came down specially to watch the match even thou he was flying off tt day.. but to his disappointment, the match started at a later time, so he din get to c it.. we wun disappoint u! wait for our medals! (with the sponsored pizzas already in our stomach.. lol)

so we won MAE in a trashing match, but i think i din play well. got alot of rebounds but my 篮底 sucks! gt secret training from yinyue tt day after the match. lol.. NBS walkover.. kinda anti-climax coz we were expecting a good fight.. so we are into semis juz liddat!

yinyue and i stayed at src until the last match juz to catch HSS vs SPMS, coz we know quite some ppl from SPMS and we were rooting for them.. but sadly, they lost.. for the first time, i was at src from sunrise until sunset! personal record really... more than 12hrs spent there. check out fb or yinyue's blog for the photos!

ok, back to my riddles game. interesting recommendation by wm! for those hu like intellectual games, check out http://www.weffriddles.com/... warning: can be addictive!

2008-12-14T03:20:00.001+08:00

more memories.. spore is seemingly smaller as the island gets saturated with memories.. be it good or bad, happy or sad.. maybe going to china in less than a year's time is not tt bad after all. but tt will mean missing those fond memories too.

sometimes i juz wish tt i can lead a carefree lifestyle like those kids in egypt. thou they are not as wealthy as us, they are not as developed and advanced as us, they are strong in their mind bcoz they are exposed to the society at such a young age.

life is so ironic. one moment u feel like u're in heaven while the next thing u know, ur tears start flowing.. the power of sight is juz so miraculous. it perceives the world from so many different angles. the same place can hold vastly different memories..

at least it's a new paragraph in my life now. not yet a new chapter. i truly hope tt i will have the mental strength to flip the pages again..

2008-12-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

full stop this time round, no more commas...

2008-12-12T00:33:00.002+08:00

i m back!!

feels great to be back home once again.. miss spore food badly! but egypt was awesome and really cool... very unique experience i wld say.. definitely worth the time and money! wait for my stories and photos! =p

still very awake at this hour.. jet lag since spore is 6hrs ahead of egypt.

this trip has made me realised that i m really fortunate to be where i m now and to be leading this kind of lifestyle. so appreciate the things u have and ur loved ones ard u. live the moment and dun tk anything for granted.

2008-11-26T19:08:00.002+08:00

finally done with cleaning up my room and the guest room!! quite a big project tt my mum and i accomplished! feel so proud of us.. hahaz.. for those who have been to my house, there's 3 upper deck beds in my room. but my mum felt tt it's too cramp, so we decided to shift one to the guest room, since i seldom sleep on my bed too.. usually i sleep in my mum's room.. too lazy to climb. lol.

so we disassembled the whole bed, then assembled it again in the guest room!! 2 ladies doing tt. not an easy task. i unscrewed and screwed until part of my skin started peeling off, coz the screws need to be real tight for the bed to be safe to climb on.. but now the 2 rooms look totally different! come my house to take a look next time! such a great sense of satisfaction after cleaning up everything. =) hooray to my mum too! she was great! i kept sneezing during the cleaning process. sensitive to dust! my mum din even sneeze once. lol.

tml morning going to join my 阿姨 & 姨丈 to play golf at kallang.. super long nv play le. hope i still remember the correst posture.. after that is singing time! finally... hope kbox have all the new songs.. so many new songs recently. i predict it will be a crazy session considering the grp of ppl hu r going!

2008-11-23T22:56:00.007+08:00

exams are over!! totally enjoy the feeling.. i think this sem's papers were considered easy.. maybe bcoz i have become much more hardworking as compared to last time.. really proud of myself.. it's the first time i can spend the whole day in my faculty's study room juz to study.. =) last time i will juz spend half the time slacking at home. maybe bcoz i was really disappointed by my results last sem ba..

time really flies! one sem passed juz liddat. i will be on my way to beijing in juz a sem's time... really cant imagine.. v sad tt meiling not joining us. i will definitely miss her company and laughters.. but really happy for her tt she will be pursuing her interests instead. all the best and go for it!! we muz really cherish the last sem together..

so the past 2 and a half days have been slacking and more slacking... friday was a really fun day but yet at the same time, traffic conditions were horrendous! while i was driving to sch in the afternoon, there's this van tt cut into my lane super abruptly and he was cutting across the "chevron" thing already (tts how last min he was trying to change lane).. so i horned at him coz it was damn close already. but he totally ignored me!! how annoying.. lucky i braked in time.. usually i dun like to horn at ppl, i will juz give way to them if possible.. coz i dun like those ppl hu horn for no reasons oso..

after our paper, went to jp to eat dinner with my classmates. den eileen and meiling went crazy. try saying "unagi tamago" repeatedly at a v fast speed. it's quite tongue twisting. i think we were all abit crazy after the paper.. finally can enjoy! most of them say they nv step out of house for the entire 2 wks. and meiling's mum was so funny. she was so scared tt meiling will study until crazy tt she asked meiling to get out of the house to go tk a walk.. lol!

after the satisfying meal, brandon. eileen. ying shi. meiling and i decided to go singing at jurong east kbox. but we were totally shocked when we realised JE is going to be torn down already, so the whole place was completely dark.. den we decided to go to the kbox at clementi instead. on our way there, i gt horned by a taxi and a bike! maybe tts karma.. i admit tt for the bike case, it was my fault.. coz i change lane too close to him.. sorry! but the taxi really v irritating.. he was on the same lane behind me, then we both wanted to change lane.. obviously i changed earlier than him but he juz sudd accelerate and horned at me as thou it's my fault tt i picked up speed too slowly.. and it's the kind of superrr long horn which i hate most.. wth! angry..

so we managed to reach clementi kbox safe and sound, but realised it was super ex on a fri night! it was around $35 per pax! kbox is earning way too much! so we decided to go chill and drink at bukit timah brewerks instead.. while driving there, another road hazard again. for those ppl hu know the road outside the bukit timah food centre, ur shld know it's a pretty wide road with alot of lanes. so there's this group of teenagers hu tried to cross the road there! i was turning into the road from the expressway filter lane. they probably were juz focusing on the straight road cars. so when there were no on-coming cars, they juz dashed across the road.. without realising i am coming towards their way. so half of the group continued running while half of them stopped in the middle of the road! then there's this funny guy who cldnt make up his mind. he stopped for awhile but decided to run again. initially i braked to avoid them, then juz as i was accelerating again, the guy decided to run. luckily i braked in time! it was really v dangerous.. and the traffic light is juz 50m infront!! cant they juz use the traffic light.. life is precious kids...

so tt was the v initial d driving for the day.. made me sweat abit. the fun part of the day was the chilling out session at brewerks. i totally enjoy small gatherings like this. where everybody can be involved in the same conversation and nobody will feel left out. we had all kinds of drinks. i had india pale ale. not really for me bcoz it has a very strong malt taste (like tiger beer). i like spore pale ale better. i think their cocktails are nice! their special magaritas is pretty refreshing. too bad i still need to drive, so only had a little.

all of us were saying this is wat we call life man.. juz chilling and enjoying the company of friends, music and drinks.. talked abt all sorts of topics, from serious ones to really crazy and sensored ones. lol. luckily brendon is well-trained by ying shi to listen to all these stuff. anw none of us there are really certain tt we will bcum physicians next time. brandon might bcum 小说家. he is going to publish his first book soon. so exciting.. meiling might bcum nutritionist or sthing related to tt field. eileen, ying shi and i are v scared tt we will bcum 庸医.. so nobody knows. i think we will get a better picture after we go to beijing ba.

meiling taught me a self-defence mtd tt day.. pretty useful for drivers i think. if ur wanna learn, can ask me demo next time! coz i was telling them how i gt really scared tt night. i think it was thurs night.. i reached my house multi storey carpark at around 1am. usually i will reach around 12am after i finish studying in school for the whole day.. tt day i was a little more hardworking. lol. as usual, i need to park at really high lvls. normally i need to park at the rooftop lvl, which i really hate. coz at night really quite eerie.. tt night i tot i was lucky, coz i gt a space juz a lvl down from the rooftop lvl. i gt out of my car, but needed to bend inside to tk all my books and stuff. den i sudd heard this sound made by a person. nt a word, juz a random short sound. so i gt damn scared, i quickly turned around and looked at the surroundings. but saw nobody. gt totally freaked, so took my stuff and quickly ran away. tt was the first time i really gt shocked and freaked out.. usually thou it's late at night, i m still fine.. meiling was saying the position i was in was the most vulnerable. coz i was bending inside, with my lower body outside the car and upper body inside. really gt 阴影 of the multi storey carpark now. hope i will get over it soon ba..

sat and sun simply juz slack at home. watched alot of tv and slept till afternoon everyday. played mj on sat night. super unlucky. lost around $40 plus i think. sianz. but nvm it was fun.. more sessions to come i believe.

one more wk b4 i go egypt! really looking forward to it.. =) looking forward to the singing session next thurs too! ok i think this is a super long post already.. provide some entertainment for those still studying for their exams. hahaz.. jiayou and hang in there! it will be over b4 u know it..

2008-11-10T15:19:00.002+08:00

blogging in school now.. so sianz!! plant bio lec 3 sux... i was studying 2 slides for the entire morning! 3 hrs for 2 slides, can u imagine.... i m glad i only have 3 papers for this sem. took a look at the past year papers and most of the ans for the ques cant be found anywhere in the notes! so irritating.. waste my time.. i wanna juz concentrate on the tcm modules!

anw i was driving to school this morning and there was super heavy rain along PIE at the jurong area. totally a sudden thing. my vision was only limited to one car's length infront of me.. so scary. to add on to the drama, when i was driving past this big truck on the next lane, juz nice the truck drove over a puddle of water, so water was showering down all over my windscreen. not exaggerating, but it was like i was in a car wash. totally cannot c anything infront of me.. and meiling was screaming beside me! so exciting.. hahaz.. then i was like dun worry, dun worry. hahaz..

what a great start to a great day.... back to the ever boring lecture 3!!

2008-11-09T12:51:00.004+08:00

went for tour briefing ystd for my egypt trip... will be checking in on 30th nov at 1220am! such a lousy timing.. hahaz. and it's at terminal 2 instead of 3! so sadz.. i tot SIA flights will be at terminal 3...

anybody gt portable dvd player to lend?? hahaz.. looking for one to provide entertainment during the trip. coz there will be plenty of free time on board the cruise along nile river.. contact me if have k! will appreciate it.. hahaz. =)

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2008-11-07T00:09:00.002+08:00

juz went to watch high school musical 3 and it was amazing, especially the ending part. inspiring at times and touching too. simply love musicals. got my blogging mood going so i should pen it down before i start to get lazy again. lots of things happened for the past 2 wks, so many exciting and interesting stories i wanted to blog abt, but keep putting it off. now tt it has accumulated to heights, i dun feel like blogging abt them already.

juz a v short update. the crazy chicks gt 3rd for NTU's street challenge 3 on 3 bball. really amazing experience and i m looking forward to ISG. bball is confirmed to be on 18th and 22nd dec. but it's kinda sad tt shuling cant make it for the 18th games bcoz she's going hk and yinyue gt hall games on 18th too. wrong timing..

i m going to egypt for holidays from 29th nov to 11th dec with my mum!! going with SA tours. pretty much looking forward to it because tt will mean the end of exams. and it might be the last time in the coming years that i will be touring with my mum, since i will be going to beijing next year. kinda sad..

high school musical started my thoughts abt my current course again. i hate thinking abt them but i guess it has always been in one corner of my mind. there's one scene tt the teacher told troy it takes courage to make the right decision. reminds me of my fav chinese phrase tt i mentioned somewhere in one of my past post. nt really appropriate to me now, but to you, i hope u make the right decision. it's ur own future so dun bother abt ur relatives or anybody else really. they are not u. thou opinions give u perspectives from different angles, the final decision is still up to you! hope u know i m toking abt u. hahaz. jiayouz k. tell me abt ur decision!

there's another scene tt the teacher asked them what goals do they have for the future. most of them stepped out and voiced out their aspirations with pride. how many of us can do that? if u ask me what i wanna be in the future, i will tell u i wanna be a TCM physician. but if u ask me what i aspire to be in the future, i cant 100% guarantee tt i will say i aspire to be a TCM physician. even for the first que, i might not be 100% sure too.

in the end, troy chose to pursue both his dreams of bball and stage performance althou he knew tt ppl ard him wld object to it. again, how many of us have the courage to pursue our own dreams and be responsible for our own future? it's rare tt ppl get to live their dreams in the world today. it's all abt the struggle for survival in this realistic society. i think tt's a real pity.

relating back to me, i still doubt myself at this stage of my course. it's not tt i dun like TCM or i dunwant to be a TCM physician, but i think i am not passionate enough. i always felt that to be an excellent doctor, on top of being knowledgeable, u need to be really passionate abt the job to go the extra mile for ur patients. comparing myself to my coursemates, i feel tt they are so much more passionate than me. juz like wat yinyue said, it's ppl's life we are talking abt here. it's serious. it's nt juz for the sake of exams and the degree. i still keep having this regret that i din go overseas to pursue dentistry. it would have been a course that i m more passionate abt. it's been almost 3 years and i m still thinking abt it. can u believe it, bcoz i cant. wth. i really hate myself for settling for juz any course tt seems interesting.

but dun worry, i m not thinking of giving up at this stage. i will still go to china and complete the course. i m juz thinking of how i can improve to be a better doctor in the future. all these thinking might be because i want to be an excellent doctor, i dun want to be juz a good doctor. juz like wat we were taught, "excellent doctors prevent illnesses, while good doctors juz cure illnesses"..

if life is about building an infrastructure, every decision u make in life is like hammering a nail into the wood. if u stay firm and believe in ur decisions, the infrastructure will be a stable one. if u are hesistant abt ur decisions, it's like pulling out the nail by inches before u decided to hammer it back again. this will result in an infrastructure which looks stable on the outside but the foundation is actually weak and not up to the test. if u give up on ur decisions and decided to go a new path, it's like pulling out the nail totally and hammering it at a different spot. the damage to the wood and infrastructure is already done and the hole will always be there no matter how hard u try to mend it...

tts all my thoughts for now! gonna get back to the study mood again, because i wanna be an excellent doctor! lol. my first paper is on the 19th of nov, followed by 20th and 21st! back to back papers sux but at least i finish early! ask me out after the 21st!! =)

2008-10-17T17:48:00.002+08:00

waiting to go malaysia eat dinner with mum later. so blog a little.

ystd was a decision-making day.. was supposed to go for yinyue's hall bball training but i was having a bad diarrhea since wed. so contemplated not to go. but in the decided to go. so we went to her room first coz it was raining when our class ended at 430. we were praying for the rain to stop by 6 while discussing some strategy for street challenge (only managed 3 thou). lol. then we decided to go check out src indoor court at 530 coz it was still raining. sadly, some ppl were using it for some chingay stuff so it was unavailable. den we decided to cancel training coz nie indoor court oso cant. den we decided to play one round of mj at jeffery's room. by the time we set up the table in his small small single room, the rain stopped. it was abt 630 then. so we decided to resume training since her original training was at 6. but nobody picked up her call so v few ppl going, den we decided to continue with mj again. den ard 7, her ivp players called to say the nie indoor court is available from 730 onwards, but we decided tt we would juz give it a miss. so we played one round and i won 30 bucks! really super heng, coz i won less then 5 times i think. it's the 3 自摸 tt saved me (one 4tai and two 5tai). maybe it's fated tt i should win their money ystd! muahaaz.

so din get to practise shooting ystd. wanted to go to the court near my house to train myself today, but mum wanna go malaysia eat dinner. so gone again. maybe later when i come back? c how. but playing with them damn funny. cant stop laughing.. jeffery and his friends really super crappy and entertaining! lol.. i find his hall real cool coz all the ppl along tt corridoor are friends so they decorated the common corridoor with a red carpet.. really feels like hotel rooms, very cosy. i like the idea..

oh. and junie was sick ystd. she vomitted non-stop i think. suspected food poisoning. izzit the cockles tt we ate tt day at army market char kway teow? coz i oso kept having diarrhea until today den got better. hope she gets well soon!

dec holidays are coming soon after exams! this sem my exams end on 21st nov. super early. shiok. mum oso gt 7 weeks of hols this dec. so we thinking of going overseas for a nice trip! but the stupid ISG dates are not out yet! super irritated. liddat i cant plan anything. i m putting ISG infront of my trip lo (in terms of priority). arghs.. hope the dates will be out soon. if not all the tours fully booked then i will be so sianz. bet my mum will too. she yearning for a trip really. if it's not out by nov think i will juz ignore? but i really wanna go for ISG too. dilemma... gt a few places in mind now.. top choice will be egypt cum turkey or egypt cum greece. but dunnoe whether spore have this kinda package. 2nd choice will be japan 北海道. but it's quite expensive. 3rd will be penang. but quite boring, juz go visit relatives. another factor is my mum wants a chinese-speaking tour guide. so if spore dun offer such tour, we are thinking of going back taiwan first den join the tour from taiwan. confirm speak chinese. but tt will require a longer period and i cant get the dates fixed! really hope can go for both ISG and overseas trip...

tml is street challenge!! so excited. hope we can win something.. =)

2008-10-11T15:56:00.006+08:00

i love sleeping! slept for 12 hrs ystd i think.. muz be due to the late night sleep the day before. it's been really long since i slept late because of work.. i was chiong-ing lab report until 4am the night before.. imagine 14 que done in a night.. i feel accomplished. it's really tiring to do last min work. but friends are more impt than work definitely! hope my advices helped! this kind of prob is the most troubling when it comes to rs.. really can kill u juz thinking abt them. so juz STOP thinking abt them coz it will really cause u ur concentration and momentum in whatever stuff u do. share with u a phrase tt i really like and helped me in those times as well: “在人生的道路上会有许多分支路，是时候选择自己该走的路时就不要犹豫。勇气会使一个人坚强的，而坚强的人是最幸福的。” focus on exams now coz u wun wan to regret it when u get back ur results, like i did back then.. jiayou k! u are a strong gal. be strong and i will always be ard. =)

recently played quite abit of bball. going for yin yue's hall 3 training and also playing with our own sbs ppl. played full court ystd for abt 2 hrs i guess? really fun! been super long since i played full court.. realy miss the feeling.. still remember those anderson times... anw i was part of the "prof and post-grad" team.. tt added on to the fun factor. lol. there's this post-grad in sbs tt is so shuai! he is a doctor already at his young age and his bball style is juz fabulous. anw his name is eric. hahaz. and his new hairstyle and goatie is nice.. lol. but he abit dao. everytime nv say hi to me and shuling. only prof li will. but tt's cool for u.. hahaz. ok i shall stop commenting b4 the rest start to make fun of me again..

going to take part in NTU's street challenge for bball. our team name is "crazy chics". crazy chic 1 is shuling. 2 is me! 3 is yin yue and 4 is angela (yinyue's friend. nv gt to meet her but hope our mo qi wun be too bad).. really looking forward to it next sat! hope can gain some experience and win something!

getting more serious with bball these few months. will keep thinking back after every session to c gt what areas for improvement. my 篮底 really sux! arghz.. wanna improve on tt. i think this yr we gt quite a good shot at a medal better than bronze for isg bball. hoping tt we wun get all the strong team esp nie in the first round during lots drawing thou.. xinying, my bball junior is in sbs this yr! tts great news coz we have always been lacking a point guard. but i hope she can join us for isg.. she haven join us for any session yet.. yin yue, help to persuade her oso! like tt we will have a perfect team. xinying and wanqing can play point, den shuling and i can play forward, den yin yue center! i wan a gold medal to add to my collection before i leave ntu... =p

went for kat's ocs family tour last sun. really cool. check out fb for the photos! all the stupid pose we did.. lol. but it's quite heartbreaking to listen to those tough stories of hers. all the scars and loneliness. it's not easy for a gal to have the determination to go through all these but kat is one tough gal. i believe she can do it! june 20th will come real soon! wanping, ying and i were saying kat changed, for the better of coz. more mature in thinking and other stuff. she always appear so cheerful on the outside, but u will always wonder wat is inside her tt keeps her strong when the going gets tough. jiayou buddy! hope to see all my girlfriends this coming sat.. this sat is gonna be so fun.. yea..

time to go study for my tcm quiz on 23rd oct.. really wanna ace it! this teacher is good i think.. =)

2008-09-13T01:30:00.003+08:00

wat an emo night...

held a farewell dinner for sheng jun tonight.. at minori jap restaurant. he's going london to study law at UCL. anw Tat chong went for the dinner too.. it was another 45 minutes affair.. internal joke. lol. i think tts army life for u.. poor thing..

tk carez buddy! ur inspirational words, ur laughter, ur unique thoughts and conversation, ur funny faces, ur fun, ur company, and of coz u, will all be missed.. muz rem to meet up with us again come next june july.. all the best over there!

haiz so many ppl leaving for studies overseas, makes me think abt my future. wat sheng jun said juz now got me thinking abt some stuff. is overseas studies really tt great? wat do i really wanna be next time? wat is my career path gonna be like? all these are still blanks to be filled in. for now, my pen is still capped. but will it be too late by the time i pen it down? it remains to be seen..

anw a big thank you to meiling for recommending the place to me! giving me the directions and all the "muz trys". it was my first time trying sake and it's pretty nice. at first it tasted abit weird but as my taste bud gt use to it, it was rather pleasant. 16% alcohol and i din feel anything at all. think i drank too little. the sake is called "li bai". gt a v fruity smell but taste wise it's not tt strong. muz try this restaurant! thou it's not cheap..

after tt went to chill at coffee club with sheng jun. was sitting there chit-chatting and ppl watching and i juz happen to think of nat's bdae party tt day and how i went home with lionel they all after tt.. tt same old taxi stand. juz kept thinking abt alot of stuff tonight...

and some spore taxi drivers really suck.. wats up with the sounding of horn.. it's not like it will speed things up or make ur taxi fly to the front of the queue. so cant u juz f------ wait patiently and dun spoil the beautiful night life? (sorry abit emotional now..)

got home, went online, and felt really sadz.. according to lionel's nick "emotional is not a weakness, it's a gift", i think i m overly gifted right now. time and status are killing me. i shld be thinking abt my studies now and not cloud my mind with all these stuff. like wat shuling said, maybe i shld juz tk another route out, since this route is not working like i wish it will. alot of things juz keep spinning ard, i think i m getting "gan1 yu1".. i feel so tired. it's 3am and i need to wake up at 6 plus tml. izzit the coffee or the thoughts tt are keeping me awake?

is status really tt impt?? time is pushing it too much....

2008-09-08T01:52:00.009+08:00

here i m again. i realised i like to blog in blocks. whenever i start to get the blog mood den i will blog alot, den it will be followed by a drought. it's 2am now & i m still blogging! can u believe it, especially when i only slept 3hrs ystd. i think my body clock is going crazy. so pardon me if my phrasing sounds weird and if there's alot of spelling errors coz i cant really think straight now..

anw forgot to mention abt something in my previous entry. gt a new bball from sports comm as my bdae gift.. yeah! happiness. been wanting to get a bball for long since i lost 2 in NTU. and juz nice the court near my house juz opened, i can have some secret training le. lol. thanz sports comm!

one more thing, health alert! pls dun apply "yoko yoko" or similar products excessively on ur body. it can cause poisoning. learnt from the physician at tong chai hospital tt a person died because he applied too much. reason being the poisonous contents can seep through ur skin and enter ur body system..

ok now back to this post.. went for say kai's bdae party tt day at parc oasis. i went to parc vista instead la! so blur of me.. anw it was woderful to meet up with the oac ppl again. but i was kinda late so din catch up much.. Happy Birthday Say Kai!

ystd was a super super hectic day. cannot emphasize more on the word super. in the morning went to tong chai hospital for intern. den out of the blue sheng jun ask me lunch with him and tat chong. so we went dempsey to eat the barbeque korean food. it was nice! muz try! den it started the mad rush of the day. tat chong and i was supposed to meet yih sheng at 2pm at yishun mrt den go to a friend's house to play mj. but we were still at dempsey at 2pm!! omg.. so sj drove us back to my house and i drove my car to yishun. by the time we reached, it was already near 3pm. felt quite bad coz i dun like to make ppl wait... den along the way there were sooo many red lights.. it's always liddat. when u are in a rush, suddenly all the lights turn red. so tts the 1st rush.

den we were to supposed to meet xiaojun, zheyi and cheng shang for dinner (curry fish head) at beauty world at 545pm. but we left yishun around 530pm! to add on to the situation, my car was running out of petrol, so i needa find a petrol station before heading down. but we couldnt find so in the end i took the lornie rd way (spc along the way) to beauty world. it was much longer and slower, so we reached beauty world at 630pm! tts the 2nd rush.

we thought the hwa chong MAF (mid-autumn festival) lighting up is at 7pm so we hafta rush back to hwa chong again. in the end we reached ard 715pm. but the lighting up was only at around 730pm. so we caught it. tts the 3rd mini rush.

MAF is a traditional yearly event tt hwa chong will celebrate. it's quite a grand celebration with all generations of hwa chong-ians going back. there's even adults who bring their children along. tts the hwa chong spirit! i feel so heartwarming everytime i go back for MAF, it's juz such a nice feeling. u get to catch up with all ur jc tutors again and it's so sweet tt they still remember ur face and name. this year's lightings was a job well done! i like it much more than last year's. but i din get to sing the hwa chong songs!! coz was rushing off. super sad. i really like those songs.. and of coz the met up with oac ppl! took photos before i rushed off. and it started pouring after tt. so sad! it's the first MAF tt i've been to tt rained. for the next 2 years, i won't be able to attend MAF coz i will be in Beijing. tts sad...

den huang fang, eileen, yuning (dunnoe if the spelling is right) and i hafta rush off for amanda's bdae party. it started at 630pm, but we decided to go for MAF first before going over. the cake cutting session was at 9pm so we planned to reach at 9. but we left hc only at 840pm. the sad part is, we felt neither here nor there. bcoz we din get to join in the song singing and mass dance sessions in hc, and we oso din get to enjoy amanda's party. and her party was at simei! like super far away. and it was really pouring v v heavily. the worst thing is we dunnoe how to get there coz i dun usually drive to the east. i only know my way till tpe den we started getting lost about where to exit. so we tried calling different ppl to ask and one of them said there is a simei exit, so we happily drove along tpe in search of the simei exit.. and the next thing we know, we are at changi le. super sianz! after much detours, we FINALLY got to her condo. by the time i sat down in her house, i was feeling so drained. imagine driving at 120km/hr on a wet road and on a pouring night. the vision was juz horrible. my heart was racing abit but i kept in mind safety as well. so dun worry.. so we reached her party at 10pm plus. super horrible bcoz she was waiting for us to cut cake! and all her friends had to wait as well. we felt super bad.... tts the 4th rush.

the cake was nice and her bf flew back specially from australia to give her a surprise. such a sweet and happy couple.. Happy birthday Amanda!!

so tts the hectic day in summary. when i was at her party, i felt really tired and this is the FIRST time i ever felt SICK of driving. i was stoning when something juz ended my day on a wrong note. dun feel like talking abt it here but tts the few rare times u will get to see me angry..

tts not the end of the day! i played mj again at night with jee peng, his gf and her friend, at my house. tts y i ended up sleeping for only 3 hrs.. but at least i won back my petrol fee. ystd night i spent a whole 20 bucks on petrol alone. i find my car fuel consumption getting less and less efficient nowadays. maybe it's really getting a little too old.

today i still went for bball with shuling and gang thou i really felt tired. maybe coz wanted to talk to shuling ba, and let off some gas by playing bball.. it turned out to be a really nice session! dunnoe wat got into me today, but i juz felt like doing lay ups and not juz settle for shots. maybe i felt like running more. ended the session with a satisfying defence game. it's all about running around more. i did quite ok but still needa practise more on this kinda hook shots and floaters. shuling was surprised to see me do so many layups. haha. maybe muz discover the potential in me. lol. felt really good to try something new once in awhile. makes me feel like practising more.. so shuling, now u know what to do during matches to make me more shen right.. muahaha.. our little secret. =p

learnt something new abt cars today. if ur car is cruising at a rpm higher than the normal value, it probably means tt you are driving at low gear. just need to gently release the accelerator and the car will change to higher gear. if it still does not work, it probably means tt ur car has a low gear speed auto transmission, which is not v gd bcoz the rpm will always be pretty high and it's not fuel efficient. the above applies for auto car.. hahaz.. hope i gt this right..

anw juz now i was talking to my "xiao di" lionel poh online, it was a super duper funny and entertaining conversation because of shirleen's involvement. lol. anw told him i will blog something abt him so tt he can come visit my blog. hahaz.. he is my sec sch friend and actually we seldom chat until recently juz got to meet him again at nat's bdae party. he changed again since the last time i saw him! now more good-looking wor as compared to last time with the long hair look. and i found out he plays mj too! lol.. confirm muz find a time to play together k! go organise one with raymond they all! haven seen them in ages too.. and bball too. play together some time... tk carez of ur knee k and survive in army! lol...

tts abt it for my pretty interesting wkend. now is studies time! starting from today (mon), i needa follow my revision timetable le. dunwan to do last minute studying again. it's torturous.

super long post, i took one hr plus to blog.. but pretty interesting! lol. getting hungry from all the typing, shall resist the food and go to sleep.. tts all folks! =)

2008-09-05T16:26:00.009+08:00

i am back!!

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOMEI!!!

finally got time and mood to get down to blogging. so much stuff happened so i m juz gonna do a v short summary, not possible to blog all!

1. thanz shuling for tt day at the fountain. cant imagine it w/o u.. loves (more ice cream? haha)

2. enjoyed wall.e, ichiban, gelare waffles

3. thanz wee meng for pei-ing me wait for my oath taking (it was rather hilarious.. lol)

4. sports comm & OMC outing were great! (think i wun join any new committee this yr le... boring sem)

5. nat's 21st bdae party at peony jade restaurant. most high class party i've been to.. happy birthday nat! stay healthy k.. health is the most important!

6. pizza gathering with girlfriends at my house.. juz love their company..

7. celebrated vincent's bdae at his house and played bball at chinatown after tt.. happy birthday vincent! really glad to know this new bunch of bball friends.

8. lunched with my yi zhang at Dozo japanese restaurant at valley point. super nice and exquisite food! muz try!

9. mum got a new haircut! hahaz. so cute... really hope she can spend everyday like holidays but i still have 3 years to graduation! anw.. happy teachers' day mum!!

10. got a new namecard holder and "intimately beckham" deodorant

11. scouted for my new handphone. considering between samsung F480 and iPhone for now.. still haven check out the details and the functions they provide. any suggestions??

12. alot of studying for my 伤寒论 test. like what i told song hui when he saw me studying in the resource room, "when u see me studying here, it means the module is tough". lol. gt back the results ystd, it was still alright, cld have done much better. the highest in class was 98! can u believe it?! tt is like primary school's result. thou i used to get tt in my uni yr 1 times. now results getting more cui...

talking about school, i juz planned out my revision timetable for the next 3 weeks. looks pretty hectic and boring! gt an elective quiz in 1 and a half weeks time and my 伤寒论 exam is 3 weeks away! but luckily there are much less classes starting next week. coz our 伤寒论 teacher finished the whole syllabus already! when there are still 2 weeks left before recess break. dunnoe whether tt's good or bad.. he rushed through the whole syllabus like crazy la! he can teach like 100 plus 200 slides per lecture.. den now he juz leaves us to study on our own..

been thinking about my course recently. heard tt 7 seniors din go to beijing and juz settled for the single degree. and a few of my classmates also thinking abt it. whats the use of going beijing if u r very certain tt u wun become a physician? actually tt's quite true.. it's really not tt easy after all. it's not like most of the jobs out there where u can learn and make mistakes as u go along. it is precious lives we are talking about here. and i think all these uncertainties is because we do not get enough practical experience here in spore. all we do in our intern is to observe the physician and maybe sometimes get to feel the pulse. i feel that our course is really too packed and not productive for cultivating not juz good physicians but the top physicians. it really gives us, or at least me, the feeling tt can i really become a capable physician? but i guess i will still go to beijing and complete the course then take it from there. a part of me has really regretted not pursuing dentistry overseas. but it's too little too late now i guess. gambatte!!

当绿灯转黄时，我应该用力地踩下油门直冲向前，还是紧急煞车让一切放慢脚步？以前的我应该会选择前者吧。可是现在的我一脚踩在油门上；一脚踩在煞车器上，不知如何是好。如果踩下油门，又怕会遇上车祸而让双方都受伤。因为我还不清楚前方的路是不是我要走的那条，而这辆车又是不是最适合我的那辆，能不能一直陪我走到最后。如果踩下煞车，又怕会失去这次勇往直前的机会。因为交通灯可能会突然失灵，又或者前方的路在进行道路工程。我很享受现在在车里的感觉，可是我也不想打出错误的信号灯。有时这辆车也会用他自己的方式来试探我对他的感觉。引擎会时不时发出巨响，似乎在暗示我什么。我就必须紧握着方向盘，时不时会觉得有一点压力。所以现在的我是应该踩油门前进，还是应该煞车放慢脚步，又或者应该停车下车呢？我应该会选择第二者吧。。。

2008-08-06T14:42:00.003+08:00

blogging in school now. waiting for elective to start at 430pm. supposed to be studying! ppl ard me are all studying la. stressed. it's the third day of sch man!

anw gt inspiration to blog abt sthing suddenly so here i am.

sch started on mon and i heard alot of interesting gossips! gt happy and sweet ones but oso gt sad and heartbreaking ones. now i understand wat is "absence makes the heart fonder" from one of my friends. pretty sweet but i know tt LDR is hard to maintain. need alot of commitment and time management. all these stories gt me thinking abt my own story. still not ready to make a decision yet. but i wld want to soon...

factors pushing me on:
1. the person
2. the feeling (but i dunwan it to be only coz u r a nice guy, i noe u dunwan it too)
3. the company

factors holding me back:
1. china (LDR)
2. mum
3. studies (my topmost priority now)
4. commitment (still not confident enough)
5. past memories (some resemblance as u know)
6. still dun dare to let go and juz love

but i think the major major factor is still china and mum ba. i know if there is a will, LDR will still work out but i am still uncertain about it. i have a strong urge inside me telling me to wait till i come back from china but another side of me, i dunwan to be ambiguous for so long. it is unfair to u. i know i am still holding back on alot of things but i dunwan to give u the wrong signal. such a dilemma.

i dun used to be liddat when it comes to relationships. i used to be so straightforward and decisive. but maybe after all the past relationships, all the different memories are stirring up my thoughts. i m tking so long because i dunwan to hurt u in any ways in this entire process, and tt is because i care about u and dunwan to c u hurt again. juz like last time. maybe it's a yin1 ying3 from tt time. i dunwan to regret my decision again.

maybe i will talk to more ppl... sorry if i seem weird today. thinking abt alot of stuff... when i appear indifferent abt sthing, it's not bcoz i dun care, it's bcoz i dunwan myself to be one of the factors tt will hold u back in achieving wat u want, bcoz it's still not 100% certain between us.

girlfriends lets meet up soon leh!! wanna talk to ur and juz enjoy the company.. this sun anyone??

2008-08-03T23:12:00.003+08:00

New blogskin~~~~

Thanz to my dearest xiaomei wanping!! great job done.. i love the coolness with a pinch of sweetness. great balance.. yeah.. finally gt a non-template blogskin.. i juz told her i wanted something more emo so maybe black.. den she came up with this! i wld have been so lazy to go figure all these out by myself.. so a BIG hug to xiaomei again! love ya... really touched by ur effort.. tot tt time say say only.. u really did it.. lol. =)

a new skin for a new academic year! how appropriate is it. tml is the start of year 3 for me. time really flies. i will be flying to beijing in a year's time. can u believe it.. woah.. got alot of things to think about but for now, studies is the top most priority..

got so many things to blog!! but got to prepare for school tml... maybe i will blog on tue (free day)..

2008-07-24T19:56:00.002+08:00

visiting shuling at her workplace now.. sony roadshow at ps.. super slack la!! can use laptop at the same time since she is selling laptop.. lol~~

anw my phone is spoilt!! irritating... juz sent my phone for servicing since i m already at ps.. so for now i m officially uncontactable!! will try to dig out some old phone when i get home later. but according to my memory, i dunhaf any at home.. sobz. i miss my phone. they will tk abt 3 days to get back to me. and all my contacts will be gone! luckily i did a backup. but my calender stuff will be gone too. sadz.. anybody wanna get me a new phone?? heeez..

tts all for now. juz wanna let ur noe i might be uncontactable!

2008-07-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

i m back from sbs camp!!!

OPNA 2008 has definitely been a success! 3 cheers to the 6th OMC for a great job done! Hip Hip Hooray! =) a big thank you to everyone for making my last foc in sbs a fabulous one. it was indeed a new experience to go through the camp as part of the organising committee. although there are some mixed feelings involved, i still felt blessed to be able to go thru all these with all of your!

from the OMC member point of view, the camp taught me alot of things, from planning to reacting to last minute situations to handling stress and functioning even with serious lack of sleep. most of the time was spent with OMC members, esp kailing, my fellow welfare officer. if not for her, i dun think i wld have survived! thanz kl! u r the best! sorry tt u were under so much stress and i din notice.. was really shocked when u broke down tt day. big hugz and be strong k, we survived!! we went thru thick and thin together and i m sure all OMC members wld agree tt this yr's OMC was more than just everybody doing the best for their posts. it's more abt teamwork and how we went out of the way to help each other out and how we shared the joy and sorrow of the camp together. OPNA to me is not just the 5 days tt are presented to the freshies, it's the 10 months of hardwork before tt. so jac jac stop blaming urself for not doing much during the camp. u did a fantastic job before the camp! if not we wun have our goodie bags and sponsors! lol. every posts have different working periods, but i m sure everyone in the OMC did a wonderful job! i m starting to miss the foc days. 5 days seem to fly pass so quickly. miss the cheers, laughters, environment, sweat, and of coz the ppl!

from the MIRA senior point of view, i m actually quite sadz.. maybe because i din get to spend alot of time with them. was mostly busy with OMC stuff. but i already knew tt this will happen if i join OMC, so nothing to complain abt. i was juz reading yin yue's blog, they seem to have so much fun together and MIRA definitely is a very enthu grp! reminds me of GAJUGA and ISIS.. i really miss those times.. kinda sadz tt i m not close to them, because they seem like yet another group tt will keep in contact for a v long time, juz like gajuga and isis. it juz so happens tt the group i m in for every foc always seems to be the most united one. ISIS was the best teamwork group and MIRA was the most united group! GAJUGA needless to say, is the best OG in my heart! but nvm, the memories i shared with OMC were as valuable as those tt i imagined i wld have with MIRA. i juz found out today tt they are going to have a MIRA outing today.. so sadzz.. nobody told me abt it.

so now is the time to sum up everything for foc.. we are going to have a meeting tml and it's time to start preparing for orientation day too. time to tidy up my room and notes! time to settle down and prepare myself for the start of school. tt day i was having dinner with my mum, ah yi and yi zhang. they brought up the yu ren sheng scholarship issue.. coz 2 of my seniors gt the scholarship, it is abt 40K i think. so they were saying next yr is my turn le.. although i know they are joking and tell me not to be stressed abt it, i really wanna set tt as my goal and reach it..

tts all for now.. look out for more highlights on the camp and my long awaited taiwan trip..

2008-07-07T11:58:00.004+08:00

i m back blogging again!! got so many things to blog tt i dunnoe which one to start with. ok i will leave the taiwan trip blog to a later date.. when i have plenty of time. now i juz feel like doing a short post.. so tt everyone will not ask me to blog! lol.

start with SBS seniors camp ba. i juz gt back from a 3 day snr camp.. juz a summary, it's a great experience to be part of the camp as part of the organising team for the first time! great job done ppl! i think the seniors had fun and lets hope the freshies will too. oh and i provided my car and driving services for the camp.. it was really fun to drive ard! i simply love driving.. there were a couple of times when i was cruising at 120 along the jalan bahar to cck route.. v nice feel.. it was partly coz i was trying to catch up with c cube's car.. he was so fast la! i wun mind driving ard for the actual camp too.. and i realised it's really v dangerous to drive without sleeping for one night.. nearly got into an accident tt day but luckily i woke up before it happened.. so dun try! or at least get someone to talk to u when driving..

tt day went for junie's bdae party at her house! it was pretty fun.. the first bdae party i went to that involves games.. but obviously not a lot of ppl followed the theme of colourful outfits.. i tried to thou.. and i tot de qiang's shirt was pretty interesting.. nice and colourful..

after her party, they all went home. as i drove home, i sudd felt like spending the night out. so i tried asking friends tt i tot could spend the night out with me. guess wat, in the end it was wm who accompanied me. it was v nice of him to accompany me for the whole night.. we bought durian from geylang and went to my aunt's condo to eat.. we played cards for abt 4 hrs? the funny thing is we were playing in the dark! and for the whole night, we played with 45 cards bcoz wm din realise 7 cards were under his butt! so funny.. so many stupid things tt ppl can do when they are feeling bored and sleepy.. i was glad tt i managed to find someone to accompany me.. tt night i juz felt pretty sadz. not sure y. but juz the feeling-of-the-moment thing.. i think i m suffering from mood swings lately.. can be so happy at one moment, but when i m alone, i juz cant stop thinking.. not exactly thinking abt alot of things, but juz alot of mixed feelings. esp when i m behind the wheels and listening to the radio. i guess it's because of those memories we shared with cars.. so we were out playing cards and chit-chatting till abt 4am.. thanz for the night wm! =)

alot of other things to say, but i will keep it till the next time i feel like blogging ba.. juz wanna say u can try talking to me as friends and not only on professional terms.. there were a couple of times we did, and i tot it was nice.. memories are unavoidable.. i tot of the clinic and other stuff too the day we walked the route.. but new memories cant be formed if u cannot let go of the others. it's a choice and a barrier...

2008-06-22T00:43:00.002+08:00

how do u judge success?
when u earn big bucks?
when u are famous?
when u get gd grades?
when u have a family?
when u stand out from the crowd?
when u have a kind heart?
when u are willing to sacrifice for others?
when u leave an impression?

or juz simply when u are u?
when u juz try ur best?
when u can ans for ur own actions?
when u are independent?
how do u judge sucess?

when ur grades are superb, everything seems to go ur way.
when ur grades are below expectations, everything juz sways.
tts reality.

there's nobody to blame, nowhere to hide, no shoulders to cry on, nobody to share my sorrow. juz me, juz let me be..

guess wat, i m an adult now. i am 21. i can sign my own idemnity form, so y cant i be responsible for my own actions. trust me this once?

i feel like running to the carpark and speeding the car down the road. from changi to jurong and back. fuel? $50 in exchange for my heart.. totally worth it. i feel like i am in a totally diff world when i am behind the wheels. so relaxed and my mind juz goes blank. able to channel all my thoughts to my legs and juz press on the accelerator. tts life.

anw, it's juz some stupid random thoughts of mine again. guess wat song i heard on the car juz now. 李圣桀的 “擦肩而过”. it's always this song when my mood is down. it's always this song tt sends tears to my eyes. it's always this song tt makes my heart ache. it's always this song....

tml will be a brand new day i hope.

and thanz for the party kat!! it was wonderful.. so happy to see ur happy family shot.. and ur "i love you" really got me emo-ing. it's been long since i last heard/saw those words. u r the best! love ya too... tk really gd carez in bmt k. ps. ur sister sings really well. u too. can go form a grp if ur not serving the nation. lol.

tts all! my head is getting a little dizzy..

2008-06-03T11:19:00.002+08:00

surprised to see me blog?? lol.. i am at my yi zhang's office now.. was checking email juz now for caterers stuff den now nothing to do le.. waiting for my ah yi to come back from bank den we will go out again.. so juz here to do a quick update ba..

it's been raining non-stop here since i gt here ystd.. seriously like non-stop.. thru the night.. quite disappointing.. but i kinda expected the weather to be like this coz everytime june come back taiwan it's always raining.. but really hope it doesnt rain so much for the few days tt we will be going to taipei.. wanna go have fun! but the temperature is cooling.. abt 23 degrees.. aircon temp, tts the part i like.. next time shld try coming back during dec, winter time.. not so much rain and cooling temp... wooo...

cant wait to eat all the taiwan food! smelly beancurd, beef noodles, ma la steamboat etc.. went to eat rou4 dan4 tu3 si1 juz now for breakfast.. basically it's bread with meat and egg inside..

it seems like the rain is getting less heavy.. pray for me for the next 10 days!! sunny day everyday! ok, will blog in detail when i get back to spore..

tk carez sister!! dun forget to help me record tv programmes arh! and park the car at the multi-storey carpark, juz in case u nv c my msn offline msg...

2008-06-01T23:34:00.003+08:00

juz came back from jang's 21st bdae party.. it was held at changi fairypoint bungalow.. juz to do a quick summary.. lazy to type a long entry now coz i am multi-tasking (watching die hard 4).. finally met up with oac ppl after pretty long.. alps, cheryl, kailing, jieying, jianda, saykai, shiwei.. they are juz as crazy as ever.. laughing non-stop but it was definitely enjoyable! love those memories! the theme of the party was cool.. it was "fruitimania", so we are supposed to go dressed as our fav fruit.. i dressed as a grape.. hahaz. it was a v colourful event, at least for the oac ppl who went. can check out the oac blog for pics when they upload it..

sat went to meet my gals for dinner at chomp chomp.. had little miscommunication but everything turned out fine.. ate all the sinful food again but it was really shiok.. went to chill at ice cube after tt. played card games and i tried mocha oreo.. it was weird, dun try it if u are there next time.. nice to meet them all again.. it's been long since i last saw sera..

tml i will be flying off to taiwan.. in the morning still needa go to raffles place for a job interview first before rushing down to the airport.. hope it doesnt take too long.. finally going to taiwan! so excited... although i go back every year, i juz like the feeling alot.. so relaxing and i simply love the food!! will only be back on 12th june 11pm! tts my bdae! so i get to enjoy my bdae both in taiwan and in spore and oso on the plane. how cool is tt..

talking abt bdae.. alot of ppl have been asking me abt my wishlist.. dun really have one, but if i want to come up with one.. here it goes..

1. nintendo ds (but too ex, dun think any grp of my friends can afford tt, unless 2 grps combine, or maybe my sis? lol)
2. bball (this one is suitable for sports comm to give i guess, lol.. since i lost 2 bballs in ntu)
3. hair saloon vouchers (so tt next time i can go do rebonding.. lol)
4. clothes
5. wallet
6. puzzles (but i really have no space in my house to put it up le.. so tts a problem)

tts abt it ba.. cant think of anything else le.. ur can use ur own imagination besides this list ba.. it's in order of preference wor.. alot of ppl asked me to hold a belated bdae party after i come back.. but should i? i was thinking belated dun really have alot of significance after all. still needa plan and invite after i come back, so will be super belated. think maybe not ba..

ok, think i will only blog again after i get back from taiwan ba.. oso dun try calling me before tt, coz i diverted my calls to kailing, so tt if there are any caterers trying to reach me, she will know.. so dunwan her to get too many unnecessary calls.. till then, dun miss me too much!! =p

2008-05-29T16:00:00.004+08:00

today is such a boring day.. settled all my foc welfare matters today.. emailed sponsors and caterers and subcomms... now hafta wait for their replies le. i hope they reply me asap!! coz i leaving for taiwan next mon le. dunwan to pile everything up.. anybody gt any lobangs for caterers tell me k! i will really appreciate it..

these few days were really fun.. finally met up with my girlfriends for a swim last sun.. went to waterplace condo (my aunt's condo).. they were all late la.. zzzz. as usual.. lucky it din rain at kallang coz it was raining quite heavily in the north and we were contemplating to postpone it.. it was fun swimming with them, but i din noe twin dunnoe how to swim! so she juz soak herself in the water while we swam a few laps.. ying is so shen! she swam like 8 laps or so, while me and xiaomei decided to give up after 4 laps.. sooo tiring..

den we went over to the kids pool. played with those water curtains and the water is freaking cold! ying was reluctant to go thru those cold "curtains" so i dragged her along! woah.. shiok.. while twin and xiaomei enjoyed themselves too. den we took turns to play with the slide.. for half of it, we muz manually push ourselves along.. rather stupid looking.. and they kept laughing at me coz i couldnt see a thing if i dun have my goggles on.. they were like "tt daddy sooo cute" and keep commenting on all the ppl there..

then we went to the jacuzzi.. they are all so sensitive to hot water!! i went down like normal while they took like ages to come down.. they were complaining the water was way too hot but i tot it was alright leh.. their skin too thin la.. then we began our photo-taking session! chit-chatting half the time and simply juz enjoying ourelves.. there was this v cute ang moh small kid, but she din want to smile for us to tk pics of her.. lol.

after shower, it was more pic taking before we headed off for dinner. ying drove and we were so indecisive as to where to have dinner.. finally decided on ecp hawker and we were super lucky to get a parking lot the moment we got there.. hurrays! so we ordered all the sinful food, chicken wings, carrot cake, stingray, hokkien mee, popiah and coconut juice!! so heavenly...

went home after tt coz parking there was expensive.. on the car, it was more chit-chatting and i had to explain my joke to them.. y everybody dun understand my first joke tt i posted on my blog.. too intelligent.. hahaha!!

ying was super nice to send us all home although it wasnt really on the way.. she had to do a detour.. and twin was complaining most of the time! lol.. when i gt home, my family was watching the charity show to raise money for the china earthquake.. i watched abit and decided to donate my earnings from the belaying job.. encouraged my sis to donate too! it was for the kids whom have lost both parents to the earthquake and oso for the rebuilding of schools. this disaster had a much bigger impact on me compared to others, dunnoe y.. maybe bcoz it was of much similarity to the earthquake tt happened in taiwan years ago.. i was more connected emotionally and felt the urge to help them thou my efforts werent huge.. thinking back, it was kinda scary.. on tt day, an after-quake happened at ard 4pm plus in china.. even beijing felt the tremors.. imagine tt happening to spore and we were still happily swimming and enjoying ourselves.. we shld be glad tt we are strategically protected, but life is juz so unpredictable.. treasure everyone ard u for every moment!

ok.. not to emo too much.. anw i swam on sat too! juz tt it's dry swimming.. lol. played mj with huiyun, her cousin and ying jin.. they were crazy!! we played for 5 rds can u believe it.. played from 6pm to 6am.. from last train to night rider to first train.. lol.. but i was winning so i din have the say.. played until the songs on the radio kept repeating.. longest i have played since i started mj-ing... but not healthy for the body la.. got scolded by my mum.. hahaz.. but nowadays i m not so addicted to mj anymore.. i wait for ppl to jio me, i dun go ard jio-ing ppl le.. maybe too much mj during this period, or maybe i found more fulfilling things to do..

ystd was another fun-filled day!! went out with wee meng.. we met at city hall and went to lunch at the much-talked-about shokudo jap food bazaar. they adopted the marche concept and it was not too bad.. ate until super full! and it was v nice of him to treat me to ice cream (kept to his promise) and rosti.. we had 4 flavoured ice creams! shuang!! one of them was black sesame and we kept wondering wat will white sesame taste like. lol. it was super funny.. laugh until crazy.. next time we confirm muz go try wat white sesame taste like!

den we wanted to go catch a movie at marina square.. coz wo ji bai nian nv watch movie le.. lol. inside joke.. but there were only like 4 movies screening at tt cinema.. and all wasnt nice.. pathetic.. so we decided to bowl instead. and we really make lousy liars.. first we wanted to lie tt he was under 21 so he cld use the student package too. but failed, after which we realised student pass gt no D.O.B la.. shld have juz bluffed.. then we wanted to lie tt i was wearing socks when i was wearing heels.. so he said we were both wearing socks when the person asked, but i din hear his reply and the person asked again. so i tot the person was getting suspiscious so i said i wasnt wearing socks.. lol!! so we failed at both attempts.. so super funny again.. so we bowled 2 games and it was damn fast. coz only 2 ppl playing.. i deproved super alot, coz i think the ball was too heavy and my thigh hurts now from the bending.. really too long nv exercise le.. first rd we scored 55 and 99 respectively.. v nice numbers.. then 2nd rd we scored 67 and 97.. nice numbers too.. then i said "my score had a difference of 12 and we were at lane 12.. it was all planned" lol.. then he said i really everything oso can link sia... but the ppl playing beside us was pretty irritating coz they tried all kinds of style to roll the ball and bcoz they were to our right, they had the right of way if we were preparing to bowl at the same time..

was still pretty early so we decided to go shopping! GSS! i bought two tops, one from zara and one from topshop.. and bought two sandals (flats), one from C&K, one from D&C.. shiok!! shopping spree.. finally found my flats.. been looking for it for sooo long le.. but now abit broke le.. spent ard 100 bucks ystd.. wallie was nice to shop ard the ladies section together with me.. he gt pretty gd taste too wor.. provided suggestions while i tried on the clothes.. he was looking for shirt and saw some pretty nice ones, but he said he will buy next time.. den i said goodbye to him and met up with my family.. wallie, u know my sis and my mum said u look totally diff from the last time they saw u.. haha. i tot u din change at all leh.. and the funny thing was i lent him the wrong season of grey's anatomy.. he wanted season 4 (which was y we met in the first place).. next time if i gt den lend u k!

den went to eat dinner at riverside indonesian restaurant at clarke quay.. louis wanted to treat us coz he haven treated us since the time he gt his first pay.. food was nice but was too full! ate until my limit.. thanz louis!! met his sister too.. helped her solved a sudoku puzzle on her nintendo ds.. lol.. have been wanting to get it since a few months back.. but kept thinking whether it was worh it.. anyone wanna buy one for me for my bdae?? i will definitely love it! i can half sponsor it if it is too expensive.. lol..

then we took cab home.. the taxi stand at central is so weird la.. it's at basement one.. and there will only be taxi if the concierge helps u to dial for one.. and u hafta spend more than $30 to get tt service.. anw, a well-spent day!! tml will be meeting my girlfriends again for dinner! yays...

joke per post time! rather tired after yet another long post, so this one is super short.. i bet alot of ppl hear before le.. here goes..

Why was the Tomato blushing?

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Because he saw the salad dressing.

2008-05-23T23:25:00.003+08:00

got so many things i wanna blog abt but i feel so tired now..

18th may, sun

went to amk market to eat breakfast with my mum today. it has been a long time since i did tt. a great feeling indeed.. but it's oso been a long time since i woke up tt early. normally i wld wake up juz in time for lunch.. tts how slack i have been this hols. lol.

went back home and played mj with family.. i knew my mum loves to play this game so i reserved the time for her and we had fun in the process. juz as i was about to rest after the game, gt a call from kat and as u wld have guessed, another mj session. this time went to liangmin's house. my first time there and they decided to play bigger stakes tt night. so we played 50cents $1 mj. woah! my first time playing tt and it was kinda exciting. gaming 1 tai is gd enough for such stakes. but i kinda enjoy 20 40 mj better. more relaxing..

at tt time, the tv was showing programs raising money for the ppl in China who suffered from the earthquake.. it was so disheartening but at the same time heartwarming to see so many ppl gathered together for a common cause.. to help the ppl in need, regardless of their nationality.. it has indeed been a disastrous yr, myanmar alone was bad enough, now it has to be china.. aint 08 supposed to be a blissful year? do u know the day tt the earthquake struck, it was juz nice 88 days from the Beijing olympics which is taking place on 08/08/08.. how scary can tt be.. maybe it was all predestined. may all those who lost their lives to the nature rest in peace...

after the mj session, i rushed home to go to the temple with my family. bcoz it was past midnight and it was Vesak day. guang ming shan was flooded with ppl so we decided to try other temples but they were all not open. so we went back to guang ming shan and finally gt a parking slot. went in to pray but din stay for long coz my sis legs were feeling painful. she got some problem with her knee such tt it hurts whenever she tries to bend it when walking the stairs. recently, she gt some problem with her chest too.. having difficulties swallowing food, sometimes even drinks. went to do a X-ray but results came back positive. doctor suggested further analysis if the problem still persists after eating the medicine. haiz.. i think she might be too stressed up or tired from work. hope she recovers soon!! health is still the most impt..

19th may, mon

went to malaysia again to top up fuel and eat breakfast.. feeling totally tired to wake up so early again, esp since ystd i only managed to sleep ard 2am after the visit to the temple. after the morning trip, i went for my kbox session with sec sch friends! back to amk kbox and whoo, there were so many ppl! luckily we got ourselves a room so the 5 of us started singing. it was my first time singing with shimin and kel.. shimin's voice is good, pretty high pitched.. kel'c voice is versatile, sounding most like ah du, but at times he sounded like li sheng jie too.. nice singing with them, but they were more of the singing type than the crazy type. lol.. and we keep forgetting the name of the artist who sang the duet with li sheng jie.. now i finally kept it in my mind.. he is called lin long xuan.. i bet jialiang cant rem already.. lol. they started to chase us out at 6pm coz they told us beforehand tt due to the crowd, kstudent tt day was only until 6pm. but we insisted on staying until 7pm. hahaz. they only came in twice to remind us tt time is up.. uz as we were abt to sing our last song, they cut the song off. hahaz.. it was abit pass 7pm then. i think they gt pissed trying to chase us out.. so we din get to sing our last song "one night in beijing".. i was tt close to breaking my record of singing till there was no song on the list.. but we had fun! k again soon anybody??

20th may, tue

went to work today.. a one day belaying job recommended by sebas.. alot of ppl was like "huh, wat is belaying".. a belayer is someone who tk carez of the safety of the climber.. u know those ppl who do rock-climbing, there is always someone below to tighten the rope so tt he wun fall.. tts the job of a belayer.. muz be certified to do tt wor.. luckily last time in hc oac, we took up rock-climbing courses. i am now a level 2 certified climber.. next time got such lobang can find me.. it's quite fun.. not the usual boring office jobs.. woke up at 530am!! it has been ages since i woke up tt early.. even during sch time, i din have to wake up so early.. drove to CDANS at bukit gombak.. b4 tt, went to buy cofffee and tea for sebas and shiwei coz they spent the night there. was kinda shocked when i saw the parking fees at tt place, but was relieved when the camp chief passed me a complimentary ticket.. how nice of him..

reached there ard 7am as i was told, in the end they started only ard 8am!! could have slept for one more hr la! grrr.. so my day as a belayer for those pri sch kids started.. girls from Haig Girls School were on a one day enrichment trip i think.. they did all the rope elements and i was the belayer for the rock wall, together with shiwei.. they used static ropes for ur info! it was so painful to grab and pull the rope.. if i have known, i wld have brought along my gloves.. now i've gt 2 blisters on my left hand.. and it was really tiring to belay for 6hrs although they are juz pri sch kids.. earned 70 bucks for the day and got to know more ppl. not a bad experience at all! unique job experience and fun-loving ppl!

21st may, wed

blading day!! finally after a much awaited week. coz last tue or wed (cant really rem) it rained, so we had to postpone our trip to ECP to today.. went on a blading trip with my uni classmates.. it has been ages since i last blade.. cant rem the feeling and fell the moment i went down the first slope. lol. but it was fun.. total falls count = 3.. not tt bad!! the guy at the rental shop keep talking to us, more of flirting i wld say.. coz we had 7 gals and only 2 guys.. and most of us arent really tt gd at blading.. so off we went! went to the rim first to get a hang of the blades.. then headed off to the main path.. our destination was supposed to be the jetty.. but we were too slow to reach it in the 2hrs time span.. it was funny to see how meiling and eileen blade.. they were new at it and falls count was soaring.. lol.. but we definitely had fun!! the sun wasnt blazing and it was windy, great weather! can check out my fb for photos.. too bad my phone low batt, if not could have taken more photos!

went to parkway parade to have our dinner and the mee rebus store at the foodcourt really has super huge servings! they tasted nice too according to my friends.. next time can try if u are there.. after dinner, i decided to go to yin yue's hall at ntu to watch soccer.. more ppl, more fun.. soccer was at 245am so before tt we had plenty of time.. played mj at her bf's room.. they were a funny bunch of ppl and they all have the same accent and kou tou chan.. muz be er3 ru2 mu4 ran3.. interesting.. anw i ended with a 5 tai! and it was bao1 wan zi already. his friend still threw wan zi. i was stunned when i saw it.. cant believe tt i still can win.. but he was the only person winning at tt time. so after he bao me, he still won! not tt bad la.. and bcoz of tt, i came back from losing to win..

then it was soccer time!! champions league finals.. Man U is the winner again!!! so happy for them.. first half was a blast.. with so many golden opportunities but it ended up 1-1.. i muz admit tt man u dominated the first half, but chelsea dominated the second.. it was a great match tt came down to penalties.. penalties is all abt luck and of coz skills.. it was raining pretty heavily at tt time so it added on to the pressure.. and my sixth sense told me tt ronaldo will miss it, and guess wat, he really did! so disappointed.. he was lucky tt terry slipped for the last penalty and provided man u with anoter glimpse of hope.. van der saa saved the day!! hurrays to him.. it was really heart pounding and dramatic.. the ball hit the goal post twice for chelsea.. juz not their day i would say.. but it was a well-fought match except for the foolish red card tt drogba got.. it was really so much more exciting and fun to watch soccer with so many ppl.. supporters for different sides in the same room.. if not it wld have been juz me cheering in my own room... drove home after tt.. as usual, i enjoyed the feeling of driving at night.. so carefree.. not forgetting to keep a lookout for police cars at times.. lol..

22nd may, thurs

tonight was american idol finale! i was quite disappointed tt david cook won the show thou both the davids were marvellous.. david archeleta (dunnoe how to spell) is such a talent.. at only 17, he is capable of owning the stage and grabbing everyone's attention.. so always pursue ur dreams coz u can nv predict wat will happen tml! dun live ur life with regrets.. if u failed, at least u tried..

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woah.. pretty long post again.. it's late night again but cant sleep.. anw my sis is coming back from her europe grad trip today (sat)!!! going airport to fetch her.. cant wait to hear her stories and see her photos! missed her lots..

thinking abt some stuff now.. but too many stuff in my mind to pen it down.. if i do, it wld be an endless post.. so think i better not.. juz keep it to myself will do.. till the next post, tk carez everybody!!

oh. nearly forgot the joke per entry promise.. so here it goes.. this one is abit adult joke.. different genre everytime!

A little boy was visiting his grandmother and the young boy asked his grandmother, "grandma, how old are you?" She replied, "you shouldn't ask me questions like that." A few minutes past and the young boy asked his grandmother another question, "how much do you weight?" The grandmother replied, "you shouldn't ask me questions like that! "

The following week when the little boy went back to school he told his friends about the coversation he had with his grandmother and how he was unable to get an answer from her. The little boy's friends advised him to look on her drivers license, all the information will be there. The next week when the little boy was visiting his grandmother he told her he knew how much she weighed and how old she was. The grandmother didn't believe him until he told her, "you weigh 130lb., and you are 65 years old." Then the little boy in a bashfull way whispered to his grandmother, "I also know you got an F in Sex."

2008-05-17T16:23:00.002+08:00

promised wallie to include a fun or lame joke in every of my post so here it goes for the few posts tt i did today.. this one is not v funny (of coz not lame at all).. but it requires abit of thinking to get the joke.. an intelligent joke i wld say.. not tt bad to start the ball rolling..

"There are three kinds of people in the world. Those who can count. And those who can't.."

2008-05-17T16:00:00.003+08:00

some thoughts kept circulating in my mind recently..

since tt day i saw u at the meeting and the gathering.. everything juz seems so weird now, awkward and stuff.. we avoided eye contact and din speak a word. maybe like wat sik said, give it some time and things will be fine.. but i m glad to see u looking more decent now..

on my way home from the gathering tt night, i kept thinking... then i saw juz a single star in the sky, how lonely it muz be feeling.. but still able to shine so brightly.. and decorated the dark blue sky so perfectly.. when i walked along the path from the mrt to my house, i recalled tt funny joke tt we shared the other time. laughed until i teared then.. but now is only tears ba..

as usual, the path had quite alot of cockroaches, and it reminded me of the fact tt u used to say i am so cockroach-sensitive..

den there was this weird guy walking infront of me, singing to himself.. i was kinda scared then coz it was already near midnight.. it feels totally different to be walking home alone at late nights. i rem how u used to walk me home even during the day.. but my thoughts overwhelmed my fear..

i was thinking abt the prawns tt shuling shelled for me during the steamboat.. they tasted nice but reminded me of u again.. coz tt was the exact place where we had steamboat too the other time.. juz diff scenarios now..

juz my random thoughts.. not directed at anyone nor trying to convey any message.. juz some silly thoughts in my mind ba..

2008-05-17T15:20:00.002+08:00

it has been all drama-ing lately.. watching this hk drama "zui mei li de di qi tian" on tudou.. pretty nice show. thanz for the recommendation sik! but i shall start on my research paper next week.. (hope so) lol..

thurs night i had two gatherings at the same place same time. so qiao right? one was with sports comm ppl while the other was with my OG gajuga.. had steamboat dinner at this air-con steamboat place in bugis. was quite fun to switch between the 2 tables, not neglecting either side. as usual, i enjoyed the gossiping session with shuling. hahaz. now u muz agree with my saying tt "*** guys are *****" right. hahaz. only those hu know me well will know this phrase ba. but we din have enough time to finish gossiping.. hahaz. catch up with u next time!! gajuga side was of coz fun and full of laughters.. they were planning to have a picnic session but kept digressing tt nthing much was settled in the end. lolz. and i found a new corn partner! shuling! hahaz.. but i am still fascinated by the way june eats her corn. so cute.. so glad to have all these friends! =)

fri night was none other than mj again. lol. this time with sik, jl and huiyun. my faculty senior.. got to know her thru ISG netball. she was from anderson sec too, wat a small world right.. ying, dunnoe whether u know her.. she was in anderson netball too! 2 yrs older than us.. i tot it was more of a crapping session than mj-ing session. lol. they are sooooo funny la! laugh until my jaw pain.. with jl ard always cannot stop laughing one.. in the end we spent 5 hrs playing 2 rds, still hafta rush for the last train home. but i seriously enjoyed the process more than the gambling aspect. sik still cant end his losing streak! omg, dunnoe how long since he returned from NZ le. gambatte leh! anw the last train was to amk so i tried my luck to see if there was still bus to bishan, but apparently not. so sik and i decided to go eat supper instead. since no diff. went to eat roti john and some prawn fried rice (forgot the name, but it's quite a funny name) near his house.. so many memories there with anderson sec and of coz him (not sik, lol).. we ate for quite long i think, talked abt uni stuff and abt the future and so many other things la. brought up my thoughts again abt how i regretted not going overseas to study dentistry.. but too little too late la. i shld make full use of wat i m doing now.. he most prob will be studying in NTU too, acct and biz double degree. new course, if not i wld have seriously considered tt too.. i treated him to the supper (act is he treated himself, coz the $ was from the mj table).. lolz.. then he walked me to anderson bus stop coz my mum went there to fetch me. on the way, there were super alot of cockroaches!! so scary la.. my eyes were on the floor most of the time.. but sik was quite sweet to keep a lookout for me too.. he wld walk on the side where there are cockroaches and warn me if there is one ahead.. gentlemently wor! but kinda reminded me of him.. anw, had great fun and really thanz to my mum for fetching me at tt kinda weird timings.. it was already 2am plus then i think.. she's still the best!

going for jc gathering later.. at city hall again! omg, been there 3 to 4 times this week i think.. so many gatherings lately but it's fun! meeting up with all the old friends and spending time together..

2008-05-12T14:32:00.005+08:00

been wanting to change my blogskin for awhile, but lazy to get down to it.. still hafta figure out how to use the html thing.. xiaomei help me desgin a blogskin leh.. muahahaaz.. okz.. update abt my interesting holiday life again.. (twin, keep u entertained.. lolz)

fri went out with my gals!! twin, xiaomei and xian.. went to bugis to shop for awhile first before settling down for dinner.. i really hate shopping at bugis street.. so crowded and HOT!! act it was only twin hu was v interested in shopping there.. xian and i juz kept trying to find fans and aircon.. lolz. part of the shopping aim was actually to find mothers' day prez but end up we gt stuffs for ourselves! i gt an "eternity moment" perfume and xian gt a bag.. twin gt too much stuff to list here la.. lolz.. but the 2 of them keep complaining abt each other and poor me juz there to listen.. hahaz. lucky xiaomei came and we acted like strangers not knowing them..

finally it was dinner time! we decided to eat at sakae coz it was suitable for xiaomei and the queue seems alright.. BUT when it was our turn at the front of the queue, it seems like eternity before we got our seats.. (maybe coz i bought "eternity" perfume.. ok lame.. juz ignore me) and we had lots of fun laughing at the ns guys at the first table.. they ordered so much food and twin was complaining cant they eat faster so we can get our seats.. it was quite a hilarious scene..

den xiaomei needa go to the florist for awhile so twin accompanied her. xian den updated me abt the two of them since i knew they will be unwilling to talk abt it.. the 2 of them are really so innocent or maybe juz deeply in love.. twin says her prob is settled and i really hope so. as for xiaomei, i hope she gets a satisfactory ans in 3 weeks time and not juz another ans to prolong the agony.. love is like a double-edged sword.. it can bring u so much happiness but u nv know when the sadness will come into play. u might already be so deeply in love then tt u juz cant pull it out w/o hurting urself. or it might juz be a superficial wound bcoz u dun have the courage to fall deeply in love again.. i juz hope the 2 of them are fine and happy! (esp xiaomei..)

after dinner we sat around the fountain and chit-chat.. it was really nice to juz sit around and talk with them. the feeling is juz so nice.. (except for the ppl smoking ard us! irritating) juz like the old anderson sch days, so huai nian.. we should meet up more often! guess we will have a beach or ktv session soon??

sat and sun was dedicated to my mum!! sat my mum and i spent the night at home.. nothing much to do so we decided to sing ktv!! it was fun.. she trying to sing the songs of my years and i trying to sing the songs of her years.. and i got to learn the whole of "che1 zhan4" in hokkien!! yeah, now i know more than juz a line in tt song.. next time can go kbox to try it out.. so excited.. lolz.. we sang duet songs too, like "wu yan de jie ju" and "ping ju".. and duet hokkien songs like "shang xin jiu dian".. it was funny how i tried to catch the han yu pin yin for the words.. it's been long since i last sang with my mum, she has a really good voice! it was an undescribable feeling.. juz so heartwarming..

den we watched the channel 8 movie "guai wu"... so scary! but my mum was like it's juz a movie, they are all humans.. so calm.. hahaz. while i was covering half my face with the pillow.. wat a wonderful night spent!

sun was mothers' day! happy mothers' day mummy!! it was an eventful day spent of coz with my dearest mum! went to malaysia for breakfast or i should say brunch.. a usual sun routine for my mum juz tt this time round my sis and i joined her..

den we went to amk hub to watch "dance of the dragon".. Jang Hyuk was quite cool in the movie.. he knows both dancing and nan quan.. he was the focus of the movie rather than fann wong.. mum wanted to catch it coz it was about dancing and she wanted to see how fann wong learnt how to dance in juz 3 months.. ended up there were juz a few scenes in which she danced coz her role was an injured dancer in tt film.. there were v few dancing scenes in the movie as a whole and i was quite eager halfway thru the movie to ask mum wat dance they did in the movie.. at the end of the movie, someone shouted "ye3 tai4 nan kan le ba".. i tot it was v bad of them. although the movie was not tt great, it was alright to me.. it was more of the emotional type than the action packed or interesting storyline type. but i muz agree it was too slow-paced at parts.. oh.. and we had kachang puteh during the film and it was the first time mum ate kachang puteh.. she had those nuts before but not in this style..

dinner was at serangoon country club jumbo restaturant, together with adrian and his parents. the food was really nice but the serving was too big.. we brought along the cheesecake tt louis gave to my mum, it was delicious, but would have tasted better if not for the fact tt we were too full. mum gt our necklace prez and of coz movie and dinner were on us too! wat a wonderful weekend right.. family are still the most impt ppl in my world! love u mum!! =)

sun night was of coz soccer time!! man u are the premier league champions!! full steam ahead to moscow! it was quite a nervous match esp after chelsea oso scored a goal.. man u din really play well but thanz to ronaldo's penalty and gigg's goal, they managed to secure a win against wigan.. ronaldo is soooo cute la.. u shld c his expression after his free kick was saved by kirkland.. even the commentators said not every referree will give in to ronaldo when he sulks.. lolz. i finally settled down after the second goal by giggs, it definitely meant alot to him i guess. before tt, heskey's header was so close... phew.. all the way man u & get the champions league trophy!!

gt a postcard from my eldest sis who is now in europe touring.. she seems to be enjoying herself there and i m looking forward to listening to her stories and looking at her photos when she comes back! tk carez sis!

2008-05-08T00:12:00.004+08:00

i dunnoe wat i m doing online now, got nothing to do but juz dun feel like sleeping. so many things happened lately, both sad and happy, sad maybe not to me but brought up some sad memories too.. i think this is gonna be a super long post, juz feel like typing so mayb will update the activities i had for the past few days since it's been long since i did tt.

lets start with happy stuffs! finally ended paper on 29th april and we had a class chalet right after tt. how happening right! i m gradually starting to feel tt our class is quite a crazy and fun batch after all! it was a 2 days 1 night chalet at aloha loyang. had loads of fun!!! but the checking in was funny. my friend forgot to bring her mum's ic for check-in so she needed to go all the way back home (serangoon) to take it. and it was kinda rush so i gave her a lift back and i claimed 15 bucks from the pool of money tt was collected for the chalet. hahaz. petrol fee.. it was kinda funny. then we started the fire and waited for ppl to come as we took turns to bbq. then our tcm teacher came, it was surprising to c her, coz i tot she wun be interested in such stuff. we had a really amazing class photo! woah! can check out my facebook when i upload it.. den it was the usual mj and cards session... besides tt, junie, meiling, yingshi, brendon and i had a cozy chit-chatting session.. it was really enjoyable. so relaxed and juz talking about eveything under the sun. really got to know them more & time flew past as we talked. it was morning before we knew it and after we checked out, we went for ya kun breakfast at white sands. it was another talking session with abt 7 ppl. we were complaining about the sad life we have. our course is really a killer. we had either a test or an exam every 2 weeks for our yr 2 life. how stressful and draining can tt be. cant imagine beijing. i hope i can come back in one piece (lolz, abit exaggerating).. but it was a fantastic feeling sitting there aimlessly and juz chit-chatting. i think we sat there for pretty long and nobody wanted to move bcoz we simply juz enjoyed the feeling after such a killer sem... cant believe we survived yr 2. a pat on the back for everyone!

to add on to the joy, man u won the champions league semi on tt day! so now is the showdown between man u and chelsea! waiting for 21st to come... abit random.

so the habit of sleeping during the day begins.. (which explains y i m still online now) i have been sleeping so late recently tt i wake up juz in time for lunch. anw, another late night was bcoz i sent my sis to the airport tt night at abt 1am? she was going to europe for her graduation trip with her friends! we went to eat ba cuo mee at bedok 85 before going to the airport. her bunch of friends are really suuupper crazy.. and i emphasize the word super.. there juz aint a sec when u cant hear their laughter. but it was really fun meeting them. imagine 10 June gathered together.. hahaz. if ur know who June is. no offence thou, it's a good thing. they juz lighten up the whole atmosphere. so happy for my sis now tt she has graduated and found a job at IRAS! so now both my sisters have a job and they have lovely bfs too (whom oso have jobs).. i think they are soon set to get married?? lolz. they juz make lovely couples i think. always wondering when will it be my turn...

sat night was a session of fun yet again!! shimin organised a cards session at her house and it was lame and laughters as usual with the ppl present... shimin, kel, sik, jialiang, kok wei, sadi, me! all the lamest ppl on earth. if ur think i m lame, meet them... played asshole daidi, texas hold'em and 21.. it was quite draining thou. one whole night of cards with no sleep. but it was a sure surge of adrenaline rush at times.. then went to eat macs breakfast.. tried the mcgriddles. it was not v nice. too sweet. it tasted like hotcakes with sausage and egg. den as usual, went home to sleep in the day..

was supposed to go play bball on sun with shuling they all.. but i din hear the alarm clock at all. juz tells u how tired i was. by the time i woke up, it was already evening.. wanted to meet twin, xiaomei and xian at amk hub but my mum din wan me to go out again. mayb coz i have been spending too many nights out ba. asked them to come to my house but they din wan to, so din get to meet. sadzzz.. hope things are alright for xiaomei and twin... be strong! wanna meet this fri or sun? feel like catching up with ur.. tk carez gals. =)

mon was class outing day again! went to sing k at the always-talked-about $10 place at chinatown. woah! to my amaze, it was not bad at all! the flat screen tv was better than kbox or partyworld and there is freeflow of drinks. 5hours at $10 nett... coool. next time ur shld try, it's at smith street, but better book beforehand. 8 ppl went but at the end of it, only 5 ppl left. hahaz. some went gym halfway, some went home, some went dinner... but i was amazed again at the nice voices of the guys in our class. they can really sing and it has been long since i heard guys voice singing.. they sound like jay and li sheng jie... as for the gals, nice voices too! but we are more of the crazy type (not surprisingly).. it was quite a funny scene where u c gals dancing on the sofa and the guys trying hard to move along while sitting on the sofa. hahazz.. so glad tt so many ppl in our class sings! next time go china can sing until we are sicked of it, heard from my sis tt it's super cheap there, dunnoe whether it's true..

after tt, 4 of us went to eat dinner. yingshi had to leave for some other gathering.. she is leaving for US soon.. have fun gal!! it will definitely be a wonderful experience.. tk carez k! u will be missed...

so brendon, roger, meiling and i went to maxwell food center to eat dinner. i had porridge and it was worth the money.. v big bowl and it was nice.. can try next time.. heard tt it operates until late night.. after tt, we decided to go drink tea (recommended by brendon).. but he couldnt really rem where it was so we ventured around.. walked all the streets around maxwell but still couldnt find it.. but it was a nice walk to aid in digestion and observe the night life there.. so many pubs and clubs there and it was funny how the "gals" approached brendon and roger.. lolz. finally, we found the place.. it was juz a street away from maxwell food center but we went in the wrong direction! the place is called "cha2 yuan1"... nice place to learn about the art of drinking tea.. how to go about making a good cup of tea and stuff liddat.. reminded me of the tea appreciation session tt we had back then in anderson sec.. we went to a place in chinatown too i think.. cant really rem.. anw we had "pu2 er3", "ruo4 mi3 cha2" and jasmine tea... pu er tasted abit funny but ruo mi was nice, din know the existence of such a flavour of tea... had another chit-chat session or maybe more of gossiping session.. hahaz.. it was relaxing.. we sat there until they closed and then headed back home.. it was juz a short session coz we spent too much time looking for the place.. but it was a nice place to chill, can go again next time. nice recommendation brendon!

tue and wed was mj.. wed was a long booked mj day with hua ming (aka fan.. lolz), uncle kang and his friend.. it was nice to meet up with them again and as usual, it was 2 rounds of mj... not bad.. i m on a winning streak nowadays.. sometimes losing abit thou.. tue played with kat, sik and derrick (aka the pres high bball centre tt can shoot 3 pointers).. sadly for sik, he still cant break his losing streak.. lolz. find a time we play hk mj la. maybe u need tt as a turning pt.. lolz.. mj count up till now should be 4 ba.. not alot ba.. i m not du gui! lolz..

tml (act is today since it's past midnight) going to sing k again with friends. kbox at amk! with the old singing kaki, which is the crazy bunch... june, jingwen, meiling and i! sik and jialiang will be joining us too.. coz we always short of guys voices so we welcome any guys involvement. lolz..

tts about all the updates i have for now.. it has been all play and fun these few days.. needa get down to some serious work soon.. got to finish my ureca and do the full report by the end of june.. attend foc meetings and get things done.. tidy up my notes and reivse my tcm modules.. tts about my plan for this hols.. of coz not forgetting my trip to taiwan and the actual foc where i can get to know more ppl.. wat i really hope to achieve this hols is to revise my tcm modules. our school schedule is way too tight to allow us enough time to digest wat we have learnt.. and i dunwan to juz study for the sake of exams and forgetting it all after the exams.. it is going to be my career next time after all.. there's no point scoring all As but dunnoe how to treat patients.. i want to excel after i graduate.. so i needa get the lazy bones out of me and start working on the serious stuffs soon! i need to have an aim in life and live each day to its fullest (the latter might be part of my aim)..

i m anxious about the results too although it wun be out so early.. i expect good grades for all my modules except pharmaco.. coz i think the papers were all manageable except for pharmaco.. i was really angry at the tcm pharmaco teacher, her tips wun on the spot as she guranteed.. i was still hoping tt the tcm part can help to pull up the marks for the western medicine part, but i think it's the other way round now.. i can only have myself to blame for not studying enough.. there was juz too many drug names to remember.. i m praying for at least a B now.. but i think i might get a C.. fingers crossed..

i think studying at the level of intensiveness tt we are right now, it really drains a person out.. i felt sooo tired at the end of my 2nd paper tt i din wanna study for the last paper at all (which is pharmaco).. it really takes a lot of self-discipline and both mental and physical strength to carry on.. and self-discipline is what i m starting to lack sometimes.. it's getting lower and lower, i dunnow wats got into me but i gonna find it back soon! different ppl have different targets and goals to achieve and i know i cant achieve mine for this sem and mayb i shld say for yr 2.. sem 1 wasnt tt fantastic oso.. got the first B in my uni life.. and i m praying i dun get my first C this sem.. ppl might say i set too high expectations for myself and i m stressing myself too much, but this is wat i wan to achieve.. i dun like to see my GPA falling... and most importantly, i want to do well for my tcm modules..

so my moto for this hols: "play hard! study hard!"

woah! i spent 2hrs blogging.. now is 215am le.. think i should go sleep.. tml is another crazy day..

2008-05-07T22:37:00.002+08:00

it was juz a mj game. y did it turn out liddat. maybe i shouldnt have commented on it.. so if i remove it now does it still make a difference. so hey. i really do treasure u as my friend and i mean nothing from tt post. i was juz in a bad mood tt day as u can see from my following paragraph in tt post. but anw, i oso dunnoe whether i m wrong?? but i definitely know tt u mean more to me than spurs. spurs is juz my mum's friend, if u are still confused coz i nv really told u.. there's such a long story behind my family background tt it pains me juz to think about it. so i hope it's juz a misunderstanding and hey the money is not part of the matter at all, u know tt. friends really mean alot to me besides my mum and sisters, really. before i get all emo, mj next time again?

2008-04-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

my phone is finally back up again! ystd it came into contact with some water & stopped functioning. was quite sad coz i saved all my contacts in my phone & my calender too! but my 姨丈 was very nice to offer to give me his phone. luckily the phone started working again this evening maybe coz the water vapour has evaporated. thanz to the help of my uncle. learning from this experience, i decided to back up my contacts. now then i realise i gt so many contacts, 426 of them! it's 2 more days to the first paper! time juz flies, 16 days to freedom! but i am watching soccer now. haha. hope man utd can win!

ystd ate dinner with my 阿姨 and 姨丈 together with my sis and mum. we ate at "the tapas tree" at clarke quay. there was a very nice ambience by the river and they serve spanish food. it was a new experience & the food was not tt bad. i liked the starters more, but we dunnoe wats the names of the dishes, coz we simply said "can we have the same as the next table".. hahaz. a smart way to order when u feel lost looking at the menu. halfway thru our meal, my 姨丈 sudd started a topic on our dad. saying tt wat if one day he comes back to mum and us. my mum said she does not bare any hatred against him but she thinks tt such a day wun come. how noble of mum, it's not easy to feel tt way after all tt has happened. but in the dim lighting, i could somehow see some tears in her eyes. my heart twitched too on tt sight. she muz have been through so much to bring us to where we are today. 辛苦你了妈妈! u are the best! =) then again, i started thinking wat would i do if one day tt really happens. i couldnt come to a conclusion as the image of him in my mind is so vague. till tt day comes ba....

2008-04-09T23:42:00.001+08:00

haven really been blogging for awhile, was kinda busy with other stuffs.. i was reading some blog juz now and 2 posts really struck me pretty hard.. before i start pouring them out, juz wanna talk about my mum's bdae first.. celebrated her bdae on 2nd april!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!! really love ya lots! thou we only celebrated it at home, it was a cosy evening.. sis bought my mum's fav cheesecake and we had a sumptious dinner.. i m so glad to have such a wonderful mum.. =)

i feel so sleepy now, but juz wanna blog abt sthing else tts on my mind. to the one: it's not entirely ur fault, but are u sure u really did nothing wrong? mayb u r right, there wasnt enough love to begin with, but i certainly did love u so so much but mayb it juz wasnt enough. tt incident was the turning pt but it wasnt the major factor tt led to me driving towards the U-turn sign. i know u seeked my approval so mayb i was to blame for this outcome. but y nt try looking at other events. i wld say the first one was the major factor. dun wanna mention anything mean here but i know we are both tired, so have u ever tot where did all the tiredness come from? i did. a smile is juz to take away the awkwardness and helpless look on my face. u nv really looked deeper. one of my friends said tt i feel different since then. mayb so. not blaming u here and NV did, so u no need to take up all the charges and admit guilty. rs juz need 2 ppl to work out and i guess i m not one of them. if i interpret correctly, i guess we cant be friends for now, since u keep trying to avoid me in school. i hope time will change the way things are now. take carez & good luck for the exams...

gotta go sleep now, if i can.. time to start chiong-ing for the exams tt starts next tue! but i was still distracted today. watched the whole story of 樱野3加1 today and it really touched my heart so many times. does true love really exist in this world? tts something to think about...

2008-03-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

man u 3-0!! such a surprise for west brown to be the first goal scorer. it's his first goal of the season.. but act i wld say the referee is biased towards man u la.. but Mascherano was stupid enough to be sent off la, keep arguing with the referee.. my uncle say he muz have been bribed. lol.. ronaldo finally scored against liverpool! and as usual, nani the 3rd scorer had the most fanciful celebration. well done man u! we drank 2 bottles of sparkling wine tt louis bought.. banrock station sparkling white shiraz and brown brothers zibibbo. the shiraz was tinged with a strawberry taste and it was RED in colour.. so appropriate to celebrate man u's win.. hahaz..

2008-03-23T20:53:00.003+08:00

oh.. forgot to mention something. the other day i dreamt tt i failed my physics exam (thou i dun tk physics)!! i was tking the exam den i started to panick coz most of the questions i dunnoe how to do den i took super long to solve one que.. so when time was up, i only managed to finish the MCQs!! and i din have enough time to transfer all the ans to the ans booklet! i woke up getting a shock out of my life.. i was so relieved tt it was juz a dream.. imagine tt happening in real life.. tts y i say dreams are one of the things tt i am scared of.. i always get v absurb and i would say interesting dreams... maybe subconsciously i am giving myself alot of pressure juz tt i nv felt it..

and ma ying jiu won the 2008 taiwan elections!! he really created history winning by 223000 votes! tts really alot, pretty sad for xie chang ting thou, he's a talent too.. ma ying jiu is really impressive, harvard law school! twin strive for tt! lol.. i din really support anyone but as a whole, guo ming dang is a better party la, so hope tt taiwan will change for the better under the new leadership.. all the way taiwan! =)

2008-03-23T20:12:00.003+08:00

finally recovered from my sickness! so glad.. out of nowhere got viral attack of the inner ear, that's y caused the imbalance of the 2 ears or sthing along tt line la.. nv finish the medicine and i hope it's ok, nt sure whether i am supposed to complete the whole course. but i really cant afford to, it's making me sooo sleepy & i gt no time to study! anw meiling hope u recover soon too!! (tt's if u still gt read my blog)

went for internship ystd at tong ji and the physician helped me take my blood pressure. it was pretty hilarious coz the physician said "wah, ni3 hao3 shou4", because the velcro thing for the strap was not enough when the strap goes around my arm.. and tt day when we ate dinner with adrian's family, his mum commented tt wo shou le.. m i really getting tt shou? but i think i still look the same. lol..

i got a little motivation back today and chiong-ed my immuno from chapter 3 to 7.. pretty glad with my progress thou it's still 3 chapters to go and i m left with tml.. gonna watch soccer later, man u vs liverpool!!! it's gonna be fun coz lots of ppl r watching at my house.. mum, louis and i support man u while 2nd sis, adrian and uncle support liverpool.. my eldest sis is sitting on the fence despite great efforts by louis to convince her to support man u.. hahaz. it's pretty amusing.. go man u!!

watched yin1 ye3 san1 jia1 yi1 on the tv juz now and read a few blogs, it's kinda all related to love and relationship.. got my mood down again and right now i m pondering wat true love really is. it's really unexplainable i think, u juz gotta feel it.. like my 2nd sis's ex bfs, i always tot there's juz sthing lacking, but now with adrian i really think they are a perfect match. my eldest sis too.. i feel so happy for them whenever i see them so xing4 fu2.. like my mum said "it's always more fortunate to be loved than to love someone!" some of ur might b thinking i m weird, i was the one hu initiated the break but i m feeling all these right now.. i juz cant help it but i haven regretted till now. i juz dunhaf the courage to love again and i guess it will be a long period b4 i do again, unless some guy out there is hot enuff to melt my heart.. juz an analogy.. i have been hearing so many heartbreaking stories recently tt it got me thinking tt staying single is not such a bad thing afterall. but when all ur friends start to get attached it's a diff feeling, u want them to be loved but yet u need their company sometimes. how contradicting.. feelings can change so fast, this second u r laughing and the next u might be crying.. u juz nv know....

2008-03-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

since i m nt in the mood to study, so here's the quiz i am supposed to do (cuz i was tagged by both xiaomei and twin!)...

7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1. born in saudi arabia
2. kinda regretted not pursuing dentistry overseas
3. love to drive & enjoy the speed while thinking abt stuff
4. love to play the piano & feel the sense of satisfaction when i figured out a piece all by myself
5. hate long distance running
6. mj is always a part of my life
7. very emotional but dun like to show it infront of others

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. cockroaches!
2. walking home alone at night
3. my family members getting sick or leaving me
4. drifting apart from my friends once we get busy with work
5. having nightmares and waking up wondering if they will come true one day
6. losing motivation in life
7. relationship

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1. u raise me up
2. ge1 zi3
3. yang2 cong1
4. my valentine
5. think of me (piano piece)
6. yesterday
7. ni3 si4 wo3 de yan3

7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1. anything lo
2. i dunnoe
3. u decide
4. haha
5. i dunnoe how to phrase it
6. serious?
7. erm...

7 STUFF THAT I TREASURE THE MOST:
1. my mum and two sisters!
2. my girlfriends
3. friendship
4. health
5. memories
6. happiness and laughter
7. life! (sounds broad but i m glad i m born in this family & living in this environment)

7 "FIRST TIME" THINGS I EVER DID:
1. played bottle soccer in primary school
2. queued for long hours to get donuts for my sisters
3. jaw surgery
4. blood donation (thou it's for myself) and nearly fainted after tt
5. attended a naval dinner with my friend shing who was the sword of honour
6. participated in a children's variety show when i was young & i got to go to mediacorp
7. on dean's list for the 1st time in uni year 1

7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1. katty
2. ying
3. shuling
4. junie
5. sik
6. wee meng
7. hua ming

2008-03-21T21:11:00.002+08:00

"good is the evil of great"

if u think u are good enough, then u will never be great.. this quote has been etched in my mind since tt day i heard it during the SBS symposium. i found it v true, without the motivation to work harder, u will always juz remain as good. tts y i always feel tt we muz gain constant exposure to the outside world so tt we will not get too contented with ourselves.

recently i dunnoe wats got into me, but i juz lost total interest in studying. i feel so sick and distracted whenever i sit down to study. the worst thing is tt i dun feel nervous at all when i am lagging way behind schedule. like now i m supposed to b studying for immuno, but i m still at chapter 3 out of 9 when my quiz is on tue. arghzz!! i juz feel so frustrated! wats wrong with me man.. i need to get tt passion and desire to excel back!

maybe it's all the things tt have been happening ard me recently, rs.. illness.. and every other thing. i oso dunnoe whats on my mind but there's juz alot of thoughts in it, random ones maybe. it's making me lose my concentration and my focus is on the wrong things now.. i am juz so ****ing frustrated right now and i am totally angry with myself!! where has the all motivated yiroe disappeared to? maybe i am giving myself too much pressure tt i feel my mental breaking down.. i juz need it back plss...

2008-03-19T00:12:00.003+08:00

happy 21st bdae huijie!! hope u r doing fine over there. tk carez & meet up when u r back! it's been pretty long since we met.. miss those old times. =)

2008-03-18T23:00:00.002+08:00

it's over... quoting from twin's blog, i will not enjoy double the happiness now but at least i wun suffer from double the sadness.. i hope my decision is correct. i really dunwan to sway here and there anymore, it's eating into me.. i hate to c u so upset and deeply involved, but forgive me tt i cant bring myself to give u a "last" chance. there's juz a barrier tt i cant cross. i will live with the happy memories tt we shared and let's juz give each other time to heal our wounds ba. i definitely had the happiest times and saddest times with u among all my other rs, so tt really meant alot to me. thanz for everything and please please take carez of urself k.. friends still? i hope so..

2008-03-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

check out my friend's online teeshirt store at myteestory.livejournal.com!! the link is available in my links list.. it's all hand-drawn designs & the prints are pretty cute and unique! if u like it do support k! =)